are we who we know we are?
what's our true self? is there a difference? if you act a certain way and then there's another you? why would there be since you are you? are we not who we act to be? since we did it why is it not? that's a question that only a person can answer to.
been rather sedated lately. not thinking much. not doing much. just do what i want and enjoy as much as i can. don't want to think about the past. or worry too much about the future. i'll survive. like it this was. just me being me. doing what i know to be right. may not be good for me. but it's the right thing to do.
trying to let my body get used to the training and my financial get used to the reduced spending. if all works out i'll be like this for a while. a long while. no place in my life for other things. got friends, got family, got archery. nothing more i can ask for. there a kind of yearning for more. but, oh well. i shouldn't. in no state to be.
alot of the past have caught up with me. filling my thoughts. all those have to be left aside. distracting. making my sad and pissed. shadows of a past long gone. nice and warm. enjoyable and comforting. still they are just shadows. no longer providing comfort. only mocking images. cold, dank and empty. we all got to let go. though i wish. though i enjoyed while it lasted. i couldn't try anymore. i am sorry. for everything.
we all get down sometimes. just have to get up. keep going. be a champion. go at it again. don't let yourself down. don't let your friends down. your loved ones. believe you can. those who s@@ you as who you can be. you have to s@@ it. you have to believe it. live it.
realised the post is quite disjointed. the post that screwed up was better. but then it screwed up. too bad. this will have to do. the idea is there. just no longer carrying the emotions.
now-ken
ken again. now i am.
'oh, i'll be so alone without you..maybe you'll be lonesome too..'-Jason Wade
2 comments:
Why are you always feeling this way..? Why didn't you give yourself a chance again when things never seem to go the way that you wanted it to be? Why you keep giving it up when you can try again? In life, there are choices that you have to make.. If you chosen this path,move on and don't ever look back.. it might bring up down..
Do you think that what you're doing now is the RIGHT thing?.. What is right to you?
hmm..who art thou?
right is perception isn't it? to whom it matters. right now, right is as long i hurt people least to the best of my knowledge. you know otherwise? please enlighten me.
give up what that i can try again? do you know something i don't? i guess i am not very clear of what's happening around. all i do is to the best of my knowledge and whatever judgement i possess.
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