i don't know

why.

i feel down.
like things are not going well, but they are fine.
like things are stretched and difficult..but are they?

i don't know. i feel depressed. but nothing is wrong. just..depressed.

hai..hmm..BZZT!

BZZT! indeed!! Mr. Battery..!

struggle

living can be a struggle. everyday is a fight.

fight for something you want. or need. survival comes with struggles. somedays it just breezes past..other days..it feels like not worth it.

others may need you. look up to you. then disappoint you. you may have done the same to others..unknowingly.

so human.

we are imperfect. unable to be. and that makes it interesting as well as difficult. why is a big quetion with no answer here. so..should we even ask? or should we just trudge on without caring for the big questions?

we all need help and love and tender care somedays. we don't always get it. others too. but sometimes i guess we cannot even care about ourselves enough..why should we care about others..

moving at the speed of life, we are bound to collide with each other.

we hurt each other so much without meaning to. we hurt oureslves too..

God have mercy on us..our sanity..our souls.

..

i don't know what to write. i don't know what to do.

nothing to say. just sorry. and it's so inadequate.

sorry.

realisations

boys are stupid. men are jerks.

i feel so much like a boy. i don't know so much. i thought i was aware..but i was/am wrong.

thank you, God. for your grace and mercies throughout my life. i have nothing and all is yours. please guide me to be better and grant strength, discipline and endurance for your work and plans. let me be totally yours. for on my own..i am worse than nothing.

help.

.

is this the end?

i feel so broken. i feel like i've been through this and still want to try.

yes..i want to try to be what is needed. i want to be with her. but..it's not up to me.

God..what's next? why all this hurt? i know it's my mistake..i'm sorry. i know what's wrong..but sometimes i lose it. i am sorry.

screwed up.

trying to make things better but gets worse.

knees and ankle rather busted. heavy load. long walk. *ka-put*

trying to make sense of things. sense all run away.

praying for help and guidance. ain't getting nothing.

nights become scary again. one 'dreams' is all it takes.

where is the love? where is the sanctuary?

is there a ladder somewhere to let me climb abit higher than where i am now?

i don't know what to do. i know what i want. but nothing is within my ability. nothing.

broKEN

yeah..i know why. but i cannot fix it. i try..but sometimes cannot help it.

human..so..idiotic.

lawful society

Clarke's Third Law - Any sufficiently advanced society is indistinguishable from magic.

Franklin's Rule - Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he will not be disappointed.

Issawi's Law of the Path of Progress - A shortcut is the longest distance between two points.

Mencken's Law - Those who can, do. Those who cannot, teach.

Patton's Law - A good plan today is better than a perfect plan tomorrow.