WITNESS!!!!

my new go to movie.

many layers of meaning. explosive action. over the top characterisation. and so much feels.

from max, i see many parts of myself. in pain, from loss, from being lost, from being tired of even surviving sometimes. from being not surprise anymore at the craziness that the world is. from having so many things taken. from fighting when there's no more meaning other than to see another sunrise. from making mistakes and losing what little remains. from help others to stand, then walking away. the redemption we help others achieve, is what ourselves needed.

feriosa, fought to return home. to bring others to safety. to risk it all just to feel safe. across the treacherous lands to find safety and peace.

joe. as twisted as he is, he just wanted a healthy heir. hahaha..

what a show. what a glorious show..!

helpless now. nothing more i can do. breath and live day by day. do the right thing.

disappointment

tipped over the edge.

came home hungry. no food. nevermind. want to cook. all pots used and not wash. angry. want to wash, see cockroach in toilet and kitchen floor again, angry and disappointed.

should have stayed out. should have went to join in the fun. should have just finished my work and get drunk. should have......expected nothing good.

typically unimpressed.
mediocre.

really question why i suffer for a degree now. do i need to prove myself? will it help me in the future? am i too old for this shit? why the fuck are they changing the system every freaking year and increasing the workload for part time students? stop spoon feeding those who can't pass and let those who can do so with less interruptions and shitttZZZZ!!!?!?!?!?!

don't know which is crazier. the world, or me?

doesn't matter. i lose.