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was looking forward to the new year. hoping that it will signal a much needed change in the direction of my life. most things are in place and moving ahead.
fell sick on 31st dec. same old problem of throat infection, usually occurring when i am too stressed for too long or simply not sleeping enough for some time. this time i guess it was both. am down with it quite bad, am feeling weak and in pain most of the time.
not sure what to make of it. gain some, lose some. gain again. what am i to do? should i stay in my comfort zone or should i try for something that seem beyond my reach now. that's going to take some time to see through.
in the year 2014, i learnt to grow and lend a helping hand even when i do not know how to help, and along the way i have learn much more. it is not easy and it can be frightening, but i guess it all turn out well enough. people come and people go. not all see that you are still you and just wanting to have some time with friends.
the most important change is the change in mindset, it is also the most difficult for most people.
rambling along, not sure what to type out now. in pain and partially hopeful, partially fearful.