Saturday, September 18, 2004

the invisible man

what if no one can s@@ you?

worse if people s@@, but don't bother. have you felt that? have you been invisible? have you even been in a crowd and felt alone? yes..you know how it feels. it sucks. why the torment? even if i could, i wouldn't. but i can't.

heartbreaks have no scars. some cry have no sound. some pains brings no tears.

i can go on. but i am broken. someone saw that long ago. knew it. but decided not to do anything, as it was too complicated.?

i will get there. but at what cost? what do i want? what am i willing to give? to try. to have a chance. do i dare? can i even? is there still a chance?

enticed by sad love songs again. was on to emotional powerful music. to push me on. to drive me on. now back to feeling pain. cycle which i have to break.. can i? don't want to be dependent, but i am. 'love makes fool of us all.'

training goes well. except my mental. i know what i need. but i have to find it.

great love. great passion. great big little fool.

tell me if i can. please.

wondering-ken
wondering wandering where.

'everytime i see you, oh i try to hide away..but when we meet it seems i can't let go..everytime you leave the room i feel i'm fading like a flower..'-Roxette

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Even if people tell you that you can, you can't because you do not believe they speak the truth, you can't because YOU do not believe you can. Now, I that say you can, but do YOU believe you can?

Make a decision and follow through with it, kenarcher.

Casey said...

I think it's less a matter of if you can or can't, than what you're willing to give up to be able to do it. Sounds easy, and the underlying method is easy. It's the figuring what to give up, and the giving up that are actually hard.