海阔天空

今天我 寒夜里看雪飘过
怀着冷却了的心窝漂远方
风雨里追赶 雾里分不清影踪
天空海阔你与我 可会变 (谁没在变)

多少次 迎着冷眼与嘲笑
从没有放弃过心中的理想
一刹那恍惚 若有所失的感觉
不知不觉已变淡 心里爱 (谁明白我)

原谅我这一生不羁放纵爱自由
也会怕有一天会跌倒
背弃了理想谁人都可以
那会怕有一天只你共我

仍然自由自我 永远高唱我歌走遍千里
-Beyond

now

what?

i'm just shit. nothing goes right. nothing comes right.

i'm tired. i'm feeling so dead end. i have enough.

God, protect them and guard them. please.

i'm only me. i'm like this. i try to be better..but i'm still me.

who am i?

i'm a monster now. some useless shit head stupid nonsensical retarded monster.

forgive me.

missing

i could stay awake just to hear you breathing
watch you smile while you are sleeping
while you're far away dreaming
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender
i could stay lost in this moment forever
every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
cause i'd miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing
cause even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing

lying close to you feeling your heart beating
and i'm wondering what you're dreaming
wondering if it's me you're seeing
then i kiss your eyes
and thank God we're together
i just want to stay with you in this moment forever
forever and ever

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
cause i'd miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing
cause even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing

i don't want to miss one smile
i don't want to miss one kiss
i just want to be with you
right here with you, just like this
i just want to hold you close
feel your heart so close to mine
and just stay here in this moment
for all the rest of time

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
cause i'd miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing
cause even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i dont want to miss a thing

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
i don't want to miss a thing
-Aerosmith

easy

leaving is easy. when you are hurt.

dying is easy. when you are troubled.

quitting is easy. when you don't want to try anymore.

i'm tired. feel so drained. like everything is just useless. pointless.

passion is not there. only reasons to quit at every turn. why start in the firstplace?

if you cannot find yourself and what you want, then who are you?

i know myself better and know what i want..but still here and fucked up. yay me.

dance

i hope you never lose your sense of wonder
you get your fill to eat
but always keep that hunger
may you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
i hope you still feel small
when you stand by the ocean
whenever one door closes, i hope one more opens
promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
i hope you dance
i hope you dance

i hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
never settle for the path of least resistance
living might mean taking chances
but they're worth taking
lovin' might be a mistake
but it's worth making
don't let some hell bent heart
leave you bitter
when you come close to selling out
reconsider
give the heavens above
more than just a passing glance

and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
i hope you dance
(time is a real and constant motion always)
i hope you dance
(rolling us along)
i hope you dance
(tell me who)
i hope you dance
(wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(where those years have gone)

i hope you still feel small
when you stand by the ocean
whenever one door closes, i hope one more opens
promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
dance
i hope you dance
i hope you dance
(time is a real and constant motion always)
i hope you dance
(rolling us along)
i hope you dance
(tell me who)
(wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
i hope you dance
(where those years have gone)

(tell me who)
i hope you dance
(wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(where those years have gone)
-Lee Ann Womack

i don't give up. i want to be on my feet when chance comes. i want to dance. with someone else.
believe. don't be afraid to dance and fall.

i don't understand

why giving up is likethe first option for so many people.

it's like..there's always a better choice. just go.

i'm like just a stupid me. haha.

half a bottle of chivas is good for your depression..!

no one

i am just another no one in the world.

tired.

depressed.

suicidal.

who cares? no one. good.

why does it torments me so..? caring is such a trap. disappointment is sure to come.

no one understands. or no one cares and bother.

oh well..screw it.