i felt my days are not good these days. i complain and get depressed. i think about what i should do and what i want to do.
then i am thrown an article.
http://www.jsonline.com/news/wisconsin/64677772.html
reading it i felt that i have been so blessed and fortunate. and i have been selfish. i have been blind-sided and careless. i am humbled.
thank you, Lord. for making me open my eyes and for breaking my heart in a way that makes me love Your people again.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
days gone by..goes by..
cannot sleep these days. it's like..i feel tired but yet something is keeping me awake.
feels bothered by stuff..don't really know what. i mean things are not running as i think they should, but that's nothing new. everything in the world is pretty fucked up.
there are people who don't care about the future, don't care about others, some don't even care about themselves and just want to make others hurt. i mean..what is the world coming to? not that i expect everyone to think like me..but there is no logic to their actions that i can see. if it's differing opinion on what is better, how to get it done..i can understand and swallow that, somehow. but when people do things that are outright retarded and it seems to me it's simply an act of psychological masturbation or ego boost or whatever you want to call it, it makes me pissed off much.
i don't really know what i am unhappy about. or what i am bothered by. there are so many little things and a few bigger things. perhaps just feeling that things are not going well. and not chance of it going well anytime soon.
pretty tired and depressed lately. just want to sleep and relax. but nothing entertains me or make me look forward to anything. i don't even feel like reading or playing games. i just sit around and do nothing. read random news and stuff.
lost. try to rest again.
feels bothered by stuff..don't really know what. i mean things are not running as i think they should, but that's nothing new. everything in the world is pretty fucked up.
there are people who don't care about the future, don't care about others, some don't even care about themselves and just want to make others hurt. i mean..what is the world coming to? not that i expect everyone to think like me..but there is no logic to their actions that i can see. if it's differing opinion on what is better, how to get it done..i can understand and swallow that, somehow. but when people do things that are outright retarded and it seems to me it's simply an act of psychological masturbation or ego boost or whatever you want to call it, it makes me pissed off much.
i don't really know what i am unhappy about. or what i am bothered by. there are so many little things and a few bigger things. perhaps just feeling that things are not going well. and not chance of it going well anytime soon.
pretty tired and depressed lately. just want to sleep and relax. but nothing entertains me or make me look forward to anything. i don't even feel like reading or playing games. i just sit around and do nothing. read random news and stuff.
lost. try to rest again.
Saturday, October 03, 2009
dumb luck
i go through most years without falling seriously sick or terribly injured. that's pretty much luck considering how i don't take care of my diet and do silly shit every once a while.
then i have to fall and take four stitches on my right hand. exit from a cab and fell. dumb luck.
trying to keep body in better shape and eat healthier. i don't want to feel out of breath after climbing stairs.
i can still remember how i can rush everywhere and feel fit like a fiddle. getting older, but not going to just let that get in my way of being fit. got to keep up with my students at least. haha.
it won't be as easy as when i was younger..but still..you know..got to do it.
yeah. luck is for those who are not prepared.
then i have to fall and take four stitches on my right hand. exit from a cab and fell. dumb luck.
trying to keep body in better shape and eat healthier. i don't want to feel out of breath after climbing stairs.
i can still remember how i can rush everywhere and feel fit like a fiddle. getting older, but not going to just let that get in my way of being fit. got to keep up with my students at least. haha.
it won't be as easy as when i was younger..but still..you know..got to do it.
yeah. luck is for those who are not prepared.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Angel
spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
i'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
-Sarah Mclachlan
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
i'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
-Sarah Mclachlan
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Sports
Sport is singularly able to give us peak experiences where we feel completely with the world and transcend all conflicts as we finally become our potential.
-George A. Sheehan
-George A. Sheehan
Friday, September 04, 2009
Ulsan - Archery Wolrd Championships
news worthy!
singaporean archer rewrites national record at archery wolrd champs..!!
korean archers rewrites world record for 90m, FITA and team total score..!!
few more days to go..!
singaporean archer rewrites national record at archery wolrd champs..!!
korean archers rewrites world record for 90m, FITA and team total score..!!
few more days to go..!
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
writing
i think my writing have gone seriously kaput.
when i read my older writings and stuff, it seems as if i could possibly improve on that and be happy.now when i writ anything it feels so difficult to get a good flow and present ideas well. it's like there was something that just allows the words to come and form up nicely that conjures the image that i want to present. i find it hard to do that now.
i have read more and listened more. something else have changed.
maybe i am tired from work. all the paper work and mountains of forms from the ssc is making me dull.
maybe i am just more theoretical and abstract. like i can think and imagine more complex stuff but my vocab and language skills are lacking and is letting me down.
maybe, i just never had it in me to write any better. i just had a few good nights to type out things that i think fit what i feel.
maybe i am just less inclined to put things out in words. it's like, the passion for expressing is not there anymore. i feel it and deal with it. there is less need to put it all out.
maybe i just need to drink more whiskey then start writing..=)
anyway..will attempt to write more and find my style, however good or bad it is. i do enjoy writing stuff and putting ideas into words, just need to get down to it, make it a habit and practice.
even talented people need to practice to sharpen their skills to be a master. much less to say about me without much talent.
when i read my older writings and stuff, it seems as if i could possibly improve on that and be happy.now when i writ anything it feels so difficult to get a good flow and present ideas well. it's like there was something that just allows the words to come and form up nicely that conjures the image that i want to present. i find it hard to do that now.
i have read more and listened more. something else have changed.
maybe i am tired from work. all the paper work and mountains of forms from the ssc is making me dull.
maybe i am just more theoretical and abstract. like i can think and imagine more complex stuff but my vocab and language skills are lacking and is letting me down.
maybe, i just never had it in me to write any better. i just had a few good nights to type out things that i think fit what i feel.
maybe i am just less inclined to put things out in words. it's like, the passion for expressing is not there anymore. i feel it and deal with it. there is less need to put it all out.
maybe i just need to drink more whiskey then start writing..=)
anyway..will attempt to write more and find my style, however good or bad it is. i do enjoy writing stuff and putting ideas into words, just need to get down to it, make it a habit and practice.
even talented people need to practice to sharpen their skills to be a master. much less to say about me without much talent.
mess
my room is a huge mess. so much work stuff all over the place.
my life is abit of a mess. so many thigns to do, so little time. so many choices, so little freedom. so tired..so little peace of mind.
work is..tiring. under paid and over work is the norm in developed countries? other than those high flyers, we the gears, grind and turn and work the machine without much appreciation.
modern life. bleah.
there are things to look forward to..just sometimes other things loom so large that they block out the good things in life. maybe cause i do not know how to see them or to stay focus..?
asking why is pretty much useless. all there is left to ask is 'when'?
my life is abit of a mess. so many thigns to do, so little time. so many choices, so little freedom. so tired..so little peace of mind.
work is..tiring. under paid and over work is the norm in developed countries? other than those high flyers, we the gears, grind and turn and work the machine without much appreciation.
modern life. bleah.
there are things to look forward to..just sometimes other things loom so large that they block out the good things in life. maybe cause i do not know how to see them or to stay focus..?
asking why is pretty much useless. all there is left to ask is 'when'?
Saturday, August 22, 2009
polar
extremes.
there are two things i really want to do right now.
1 - sleep. hope i can fall asleep and rest well.
2 - i want to go on a massacre. there seems to be more people getting on my 'if there is no law..' list.
oh well..it's not like i am angry at them. it's just that they are threat to stability of the society as a general thing and that they do not care. if they do not care and use the law to protect them from harm while causing harm lawfully, then it makes me want to do something about it.
anyway..sleepZ.
there are two things i really want to do right now.
1 - sleep. hope i can fall asleep and rest well.
2 - i want to go on a massacre. there seems to be more people getting on my 'if there is no law..' list.
oh well..it's not like i am angry at them. it's just that they are threat to stability of the society as a general thing and that they do not care. if they do not care and use the law to protect them from harm while causing harm lawfully, then it makes me want to do something about it.
anyway..sleepZ.
maybe..
if i wasn't so beat i'll post something more meaningful.
but for now..i need to rest for the long weekend....
but for now..i need to rest for the long weekend....
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
ha ha ha.
reaching for the stars is like reaching for breast.
getting there doesn't means that you'll be welcome.
-asofterworld.com
getting there doesn't means that you'll be welcome.
-asofterworld.com
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Friday, August 07, 2009
short trip
had a rather fruitful trip.
both in terms of building myself and relating to others. learned some stuff and hopefully, helped people.
good thing we came back when we did. now all flights grounded and flooded around there.
God provides, guides and shelters.
both in terms of building myself and relating to others. learned some stuff and hopefully, helped people.
good thing we came back when we did. now all flights grounded and flooded around there.
God provides, guides and shelters.
Saturday, August 01, 2009
the troublemaker
the mouth is. or in this age, the fingers as well.
what we say or type can create alot of trouble.
Mat 15:17 Do not ye yet understand, that whatsoever entereth in at the mouth goeth into the belly, and is cast out into the draught?
Mat 15:18 But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man.
Mat 15:19 For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies:
Mat 15:20 These are [the things] which defile a man: but to eat with unwashen hands defileth not a man.
i remember i heard in a sermon we should always watch what we say to others. as our words can heal or can kill. before saying something, think, 'Is it necessary?', 'Will it harm others?'
i think many of us can learn to speak less and think about what comes out of our mouths. for me, i try but still fall short. every night as i take stock, i find that i still say many unfruitful things and even harmful thing.
shall attempt to be more careful. speak things that give aid to others, that adds to people and make us better.
is it too high an aim?
what we say or type can create alot of trouble.
Mat 15:17 Do not ye yet understand, that whatsoever entereth in at the mouth goeth into the belly, and is cast out into the draught?
Mat 15:18 But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man.
Mat 15:19 For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies:
Mat 15:20 These are [the things] which defile a man: but to eat with unwashen hands defileth not a man.
i remember i heard in a sermon we should always watch what we say to others. as our words can heal or can kill. before saying something, think, 'Is it necessary?', 'Will it harm others?'
i think many of us can learn to speak less and think about what comes out of our mouths. for me, i try but still fall short. every night as i take stock, i find that i still say many unfruitful things and even harmful thing.
shall attempt to be more careful. speak things that give aid to others, that adds to people and make us better.
is it too high an aim?
Saturday, July 25, 2009
grr
i hate my life. and myself. now.
shit loads of things to do and i am giving up my own things to help others.
i really want a break..but nowhere to be found yet.
will ask for one soon. soon.
shit loads of things to do and i am giving up my own things to help others.
i really want a break..but nowhere to be found yet.
will ask for one soon. soon.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Earth Song - Michael Jackson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VqeADZgjtpY
what about sunrise
what about rain
what about all the things
that you said we were to gain
what about killing fields
is there a time
what about all the things
that you said was yours and mine
did you ever stop to notice
all the blood we've shed before
did you ever stop to notice
the crying Earth its weeping shores?
aaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaah
what have we done to the world
look what we've done
what about all the peace
that you pledge your only son
hat about flowering fields
is there a time
what about all the dreams
that you said was yours and mine
did you ever stop to notice
all the children dead from war
did you ever stop to notice
the crying Earth its weeping shores
aaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaah
i used to dream
i used to glance beyond the stars
now i don't know where we are
although i know we've drifted far
aaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaah
aaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaah
hey, what about yesterday (what about us)
what about the seas (what about us)
the heavens are falling down (what about us)
i can't even breathe (what about us)
what about Africans (what about us)
i ain't even you (what about us)
what about nature's worth (ooh ooh)
it's our planet's womb (what about us)
what about animals (what about it)
turned kingdoms to dust (what about us)
what about elephants (what about us)
have we lost their trust (what about us)
what about crying whales (what about us)
ravaging the seas (what about us)
what about forest trails (ooh ooh)
burnt despite our pleas (what about us)
what about the holy land (what about it)
torn apart by greed (what about us)
what about the common man (what about us)
can't we set him free (what about us)
what about children dying (what about us)
can't you hear them cry (what about us)
where did we go wrong (ooh ooh)
someone tell me why (what about us)
what about baby boy (what about it)
what about the days (what about us)
what about all their joy (what about us)
what about the man (what about us)
what about the crying man (what about us)
what about Abraham (what about us)
what about death again (ooh ooh)
do we give a damn?!?!
-Michael Jackson
Earth is too good for humans.
what about sunrise
what about rain
what about all the things
that you said we were to gain
what about killing fields
is there a time
what about all the things
that you said was yours and mine
did you ever stop to notice
all the blood we've shed before
did you ever stop to notice
the crying Earth its weeping shores?
aaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaah
what have we done to the world
look what we've done
what about all the peace
that you pledge your only son
hat about flowering fields
is there a time
what about all the dreams
that you said was yours and mine
did you ever stop to notice
all the children dead from war
did you ever stop to notice
the crying Earth its weeping shores
aaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaah
i used to dream
i used to glance beyond the stars
now i don't know where we are
although i know we've drifted far
aaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaah
aaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaah
hey, what about yesterday (what about us)
what about the seas (what about us)
the heavens are falling down (what about us)
i can't even breathe (what about us)
what about Africans (what about us)
i ain't even you (what about us)
what about nature's worth (ooh ooh)
it's our planet's womb (what about us)
what about animals (what about it)
turned kingdoms to dust (what about us)
what about elephants (what about us)
have we lost their trust (what about us)
what about crying whales (what about us)
ravaging the seas (what about us)
what about forest trails (ooh ooh)
burnt despite our pleas (what about us)
what about the holy land (what about it)
torn apart by greed (what about us)
what about the common man (what about us)
can't we set him free (what about us)
what about children dying (what about us)
can't you hear them cry (what about us)
where did we go wrong (ooh ooh)
someone tell me why (what about us)
what about baby boy (what about it)
what about the days (what about us)
what about all their joy (what about us)
what about the man (what about us)
what about the crying man (what about us)
what about Abraham (what about us)
what about death again (ooh ooh)
do we give a damn?!?!
-Michael Jackson
Earth is too good for humans.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
mind gym
The quality of a person's life is in direct proportion to their commitment to excellence, regardless of their chosen field. - Vince Lombardi
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
Monday, June 08, 2009
i hate this shit.
people. people people. people people people.
we are all flawed. can't we just be more accepting and encouraging?
remove the log in your eye before removing the speck of dust in your brother's eye.
we are all flawed. can't we just be more accepting and encouraging?
remove the log in your eye before removing the speck of dust in your brother's eye.
Saturday, June 06, 2009
Friday, June 05, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
angel
spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
i'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
-Sarah Mclachlan
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
i'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
-Sarah Mclachlan
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
follow you hom
well you can dig me up a grave
and try and stick me in the ground
well you can tie me to the bed
and try and beat me half to death
but you can never keep me down
well you can stick me in a hole
and you can pray all day for rain
you can shoot me in the leg
just to try to make me beg
and you can leave me there for days
and i'll stay alive
just to follow you home
and i will survive
'cause you're my Mississippi princess
you're my California queen
like the duchess of Detroit
and every city in between
you can slap me in the face
you can scream profanity
leave me here to die alone but
i'll still follow you home
i'll still follow you home
you can make a couple calls
and tell your brothers i'm in town
put a bounty on my head
and tell my parents that i'm dead
and hope to hell i'm never found
you can steal me the keys
to your daddy's Cadillac
you can tamper with the brakes
call it a mistake
and pray i'm never coming back
you can dig me up a grave
and try and stick me in the ground
you can tie me to the bed
and try and beat me half to death
but you can never keep me down
and i will survive
'cause you're my Mississippi princess
you're my California queen
like the duchess of Detroit
and every city in between
you can slap me in the face
you can scream profanity
leave me here to die alone but
i'll still follow you home
i'll still follow you home
-Nickleback
creepy..heh. sometimes i feel exactly that, nothing is going to stop me! sometimes..
and try and stick me in the ground
well you can tie me to the bed
and try and beat me half to death
but you can never keep me down
well you can stick me in a hole
and you can pray all day for rain
you can shoot me in the leg
just to try to make me beg
and you can leave me there for days
and i'll stay alive
just to follow you home
and i will survive
'cause you're my Mississippi princess
you're my California queen
like the duchess of Detroit
and every city in between
you can slap me in the face
you can scream profanity
leave me here to die alone but
i'll still follow you home
i'll still follow you home
you can make a couple calls
and tell your brothers i'm in town
put a bounty on my head
and tell my parents that i'm dead
and hope to hell i'm never found
you can steal me the keys
to your daddy's Cadillac
you can tamper with the brakes
call it a mistake
and pray i'm never coming back
you can dig me up a grave
and try and stick me in the ground
you can tie me to the bed
and try and beat me half to death
but you can never keep me down
and i will survive
'cause you're my Mississippi princess
you're my California queen
like the duchess of Detroit
and every city in between
you can slap me in the face
you can scream profanity
leave me here to die alone but
i'll still follow you home
i'll still follow you home
-Nickleback
creepy..heh. sometimes i feel exactly that, nothing is going to stop me! sometimes..
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
wishing..
wishing you were somehow here again..
wishing you were somehow near..
Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed,
somehow you would be here..
still like this much.
wishing you were somehow near..
Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed,
somehow you would be here..
still like this much.
iris
and i'd give up forever to touch you
cause i know that you feel me somehow
you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be
and i don't want to go home right now
and all i can taste is this moment
and all i can breathe is your life
cause sooner or later it's over
i just don't want to miss you tonight
and i don't want the world to see me
cause I don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am
and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything seems like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know your alive
and i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am
i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
-Goo Goo Dolls
cause i know that you feel me somehow
you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be
and i don't want to go home right now
and all i can taste is this moment
and all i can breathe is your life
cause sooner or later it's over
i just don't want to miss you tonight
and i don't want the world to see me
cause I don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am
and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything seems like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know your alive
and i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am
i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
i just want you to know who i am
-Goo Goo Dolls
Thursday, May 14, 2009
far away
this time, this place
misused, mistakes
too long, too late
who was i to make you wait
just one chance
just one breath
just in case there's just one left
'cause you know,
you know, you know
that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i miss you
been far away for far too long
i keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
stop breathing if
i don't see you anymore
on my knees, i'll ask
last chance for one last dance
'cause with you, i'd withstand
all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it all
i'd give for us
give anything but i won't give up
'cause you know,
you know, you know
so far away
been far away for far too long
so far away
been far away for far too long
but you know, you know, you know
i wanted
i wanted you to stay
'cause i needed
i need to hear you say
that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i forgive you
for being away for far too long
so keep breathing
'cause i'm not leaving you anymore
believe it
hold on to me and, never let me go
keep breathing
'cause i'm not leaving you anymore
believe it
hold on to me and, never let me go
keep breathing
hold on to me and, never let me go
keep breathing
hold on to me and, never let me go
-Nickleback
another nicikleback song that grew on me. few more will reach out to me i think..all pretty good. glad that i got the album for someone else. =)
misused, mistakes
too long, too late
who was i to make you wait
just one chance
just one breath
just in case there's just one left
'cause you know,
you know, you know
that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i miss you
been far away for far too long
i keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
stop breathing if
i don't see you anymore
on my knees, i'll ask
last chance for one last dance
'cause with you, i'd withstand
all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it all
i'd give for us
give anything but i won't give up
'cause you know,
you know, you know
so far away
been far away for far too long
so far away
been far away for far too long
but you know, you know, you know
i wanted
i wanted you to stay
'cause i needed
i need to hear you say
that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i forgive you
for being away for far too long
so keep breathing
'cause i'm not leaving you anymore
believe it
hold on to me and, never let me go
keep breathing
'cause i'm not leaving you anymore
believe it
hold on to me and, never let me go
keep breathing
hold on to me and, never let me go
keep breathing
hold on to me and, never let me go
-Nickleback
another nicikleback song that grew on me. few more will reach out to me i think..all pretty good. glad that i got the album for someone else. =)
Saturday, May 09, 2009
unbelievable
there are some people in Singapore, who wants the government to disclose how and what lead to the arrest of MSK.
for transparency.
if you are one of those. go to a tall building. shout your request to the heavens. then jump. please. thank you very much.
what mar-duh school you come from? which cumpong you live in? what is in your cranial cavity? Or..are you actually a terrorist?
simply unbelievable.
i did not say 'jump down'. i said 'jump'.
if you jumped down and died or suffered any injuries, you can blame your lousy understanding of the English language.
for transparency.
if you are one of those. go to a tall building. shout your request to the heavens. then jump. please. thank you very much.
what mar-duh school you come from? which cumpong you live in? what is in your cranial cavity? Or..are you actually a terrorist?
simply unbelievable.
i did not say 'jump down'. i said 'jump'.
if you jumped down and died or suffered any injuries, you can blame your lousy understanding of the English language.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
the block i stay in..
have become a make out center.
every night that i go running, at least one of the three seating areas will be occupied by couples making out. i really find it strange. i mean it's more often than not different couples.
my block is not that isolated to be blissfully uninterruptable. sOoo..why?
parents conservative?
room shared with brothers/sisters?
exciting?
well..i guess..i'm too old to understand.
every night that i go running, at least one of the three seating areas will be occupied by couples making out. i really find it strange. i mean it's more often than not different couples.
my block is not that isolated to be blissfully uninterruptable. sOoo..why?
parents conservative?
room shared with brothers/sisters?
exciting?
well..i guess..i'm too old to understand.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Monday, April 06, 2009
if everyone cared
from underneath the trees, we watch the sky
confusing stars for satellites
i never dreamed that you'd be mine
but here we are, we're here tonight
singing Amen, i, i'm alive
singing Amen, i, i'm alive
if everyone cared and nobody cried
if everyone loved and nobody lied
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died
and i'm singing Amen
Amen i, Amen i, i'm alive
Amen i, Amen i, Amen i, i'm alive
and in the air the fireflies
our only light in paradise
we'll show the world they were wrong
and teach them all to sing along
singing Amen, i, i'm alive
singing Amen, i, i'm alive
(i'm alive)
and as we lie beneath the stars
we realize how small we are
if they could love like you and me
imagine what the world could be
if everyone cared and nobody cried
if everyone loved and nobody lied
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died
when nobody died...
we'd see the day, we'd see the day
when nobody died
we'd see the day, we'd see the day
when nobody died
we'd see the day when nobody died
-Nickelback
confusing stars for satellites
i never dreamed that you'd be mine
but here we are, we're here tonight
singing Amen, i, i'm alive
singing Amen, i, i'm alive
if everyone cared and nobody cried
if everyone loved and nobody lied
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died
and i'm singing Amen
Amen i, Amen i, i'm alive
Amen i, Amen i, Amen i, i'm alive
and in the air the fireflies
our only light in paradise
we'll show the world they were wrong
and teach them all to sing along
singing Amen, i, i'm alive
singing Amen, i, i'm alive
(i'm alive)
and as we lie beneath the stars
we realize how small we are
if they could love like you and me
imagine what the world could be
if everyone cared and nobody cried
if everyone loved and nobody lied
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died
when nobody died...
we'd see the day, we'd see the day
when nobody died
we'd see the day, we'd see the day
when nobody died
we'd see the day when nobody died
-Nickelback
Saturday, March 28, 2009
uphill task
“lean into it, you’re letting the thing control you. don’t be afraid of it.”
i may fall. i may fail. i may do badly.
but..the only time i quit is when i decide to quit.
i will do what i can. i will not fail to try.
when is it enough? when i say it is. not when i fail or do badly. not when people laugh at me. not when i still have the desire to go on.
don't be afraid of it.
i may fall. i may fail. i may do badly.
but..the only time i quit is when i decide to quit.
i will do what i can. i will not fail to try.
when is it enough? when i say it is. not when i fail or do badly. not when people laugh at me. not when i still have the desire to go on.
don't be afraid of it.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Bush hater
yes i am.
just read some news about how Bush administration people are defending against media's portrayal of changes made by President Obama in contrast to Bush's decisions.
so much of it is bollocks!
55months straight of growth? yes, we are feeling to effect of the fucking bubble that was allowed to grow unchecked Mr EX-President.
balanced approach to stem cell research? perhaps, but Obama only said more spending, nothing on the guidelines, yet. which are being looked into by Scientists now. not administrators, not politicians. Scientist, who are going to do the research.
russian politics? yes, you retards always like to piss people off. building your missile defense right at their door step. NO WONDER, Sec. State have to warm up to them now. DUH!
what's good about Bush? that he have left the White House. YES.
don't even talk about 9/11. or the war in Iraq. It's Ee-Raq. Not I-Rack. Mr ex-president. the only link there with terrorist was many years old. WMD? yeah yeah..some 20 years old chem arti shells that they shot at IRAN. Operation Iraq Liberation(OIL). right? opps..it is officially OIF for freedom..oh..ok..
this is why some people in the world hate the US of A. cause some retards, spoil the image. Blackwater. Raytheon. who runs them? what are they doing? how much money have they took from they government and what have they done with those money?
BZZT!!!
just read some news about how Bush administration people are defending against media's portrayal of changes made by President Obama in contrast to Bush's decisions.
so much of it is bollocks!
55months straight of growth? yes, we are feeling to effect of the fucking bubble that was allowed to grow unchecked Mr EX-President.
balanced approach to stem cell research? perhaps, but Obama only said more spending, nothing on the guidelines, yet. which are being looked into by Scientists now. not administrators, not politicians. Scientist, who are going to do the research.
russian politics? yes, you retards always like to piss people off. building your missile defense right at their door step. NO WONDER, Sec. State have to warm up to them now. DUH!
what's good about Bush? that he have left the White House. YES.
don't even talk about 9/11. or the war in Iraq. It's Ee-Raq. Not I-Rack. Mr ex-president. the only link there with terrorist was many years old. WMD? yeah yeah..some 20 years old chem arti shells that they shot at IRAN. Operation Iraq Liberation(OIL). right? opps..it is officially OIF for freedom..oh..ok..
this is why some people in the world hate the US of A. cause some retards, spoil the image. Blackwater. Raytheon. who runs them? what are they doing? how much money have they took from they government and what have they done with those money?
BZZT!!!
Sunday, March 08, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
learn.
everything that irritates us about others can lead us to a better understanding of ourselves.
-Carl Jung.
-Carl Jung.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
bed of roses
heard this at the gym today. seems like yesterday when i first heard it on my brother's CD.
still da shit, man.
sitting here wasted and wounded
at this old piano
trying hard to capture
the moment this morning I don't know
cause a bottle of vodka
is still lodged in my head
and some blond gave me nightmares
i think shes still in my bed
as I dream about movies
they won't make of me when I'm dead
with an ironclad fist I wake up and
french kiss the morning
while some marching band keeps
it's own beat in my head
while we're talking
about all of the things that I long to believe
about love and the truth and
what you mean to me
and the truth is
baby you're all that I need
I want to lay you on a bed of roses
for tonight I sleep on a bed of nails
I want to be just as close as the holy ghost is
and lay you down on bed of roses
well I'm so far away
that each step that I take is on my way home
a kings ransom in dimes I'd given each night
just to see through this payphone
still I run out of time
or its hard to get through
till the bird on the wire flies me back to you
I'll just close my eyes and whisper,
baby blind love is true
i want to lay you down on a bed of roses
for tonight I sleep on a bed on nails
I want to be just as close as the holy ghost is
and lay you down on bed of roses
the hotel bar hangover whiskeys gone dry
the barkeepers wigs crooked
and she's giving me the eye
I might have said yeah
but I laughed so hard I think I died
when you close your eyes
know I'll be thinking about you
while my mistress she calls me
to stand in her spotlight again
tonight I won't be alone
but you know that don't
mean I'm not lonely
I've got nothing to prove for its you
that I'd die to defend
I want to lay you down on a bed of roses
for tonight I sleep on a bed on nails
I want to be just as close as the holy ghost is
and lay you down on bed of roses
-Jon Bon Jovi
still da shit, man.
sitting here wasted and wounded
at this old piano
trying hard to capture
the moment this morning I don't know
cause a bottle of vodka
is still lodged in my head
and some blond gave me nightmares
i think shes still in my bed
as I dream about movies
they won't make of me when I'm dead
with an ironclad fist I wake up and
french kiss the morning
while some marching band keeps
it's own beat in my head
while we're talking
about all of the things that I long to believe
about love and the truth and
what you mean to me
and the truth is
baby you're all that I need
I want to lay you on a bed of roses
for tonight I sleep on a bed of nails
I want to be just as close as the holy ghost is
and lay you down on bed of roses
well I'm so far away
that each step that I take is on my way home
a kings ransom in dimes I'd given each night
just to see through this payphone
still I run out of time
or its hard to get through
till the bird on the wire flies me back to you
I'll just close my eyes and whisper,
baby blind love is true
i want to lay you down on a bed of roses
for tonight I sleep on a bed on nails
I want to be just as close as the holy ghost is
and lay you down on bed of roses
the hotel bar hangover whiskeys gone dry
the barkeepers wigs crooked
and she's giving me the eye
I might have said yeah
but I laughed so hard I think I died
when you close your eyes
know I'll be thinking about you
while my mistress she calls me
to stand in her spotlight again
tonight I won't be alone
but you know that don't
mean I'm not lonely
I've got nothing to prove for its you
that I'd die to defend
I want to lay you down on a bed of roses
for tonight I sleep on a bed on nails
I want to be just as close as the holy ghost is
and lay you down on bed of roses
-Jon Bon Jovi
Monday, January 19, 2009
stepping back in time
had my first exam in about 10 years. interesting.
knew i could have done better, but i seem to be in a rush to finish it. that probably showed on the papers and arguments i put forth. bah. missed out some parts that i thought about and knew should have included.
oh well. next paper in a month or so. just pray that this one will be fine. i hope to get above B. i am not sure of what to expect as this is my first in this course and this century.
still too busy in life. cannot settle my things at home and relax.
hope some days will come and i can rest some. much to read and much to do.
knew i could have done better, but i seem to be in a rush to finish it. that probably showed on the papers and arguments i put forth. bah. missed out some parts that i thought about and knew should have included.
oh well. next paper in a month or so. just pray that this one will be fine. i hope to get above B. i am not sure of what to expect as this is my first in this course and this century.
still too busy in life. cannot settle my things at home and relax.
hope some days will come and i can rest some. much to read and much to do.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
please watch.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vTFesgMkzk&eurl=http://www.techamok.com/&feature=player_embedded
please do not be blind.
please do not be blind.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Thursday, January 01, 2009
pains
whatever you do..DO NOT get your back injured. even if it doesn't kill you or paralyze you, it still hurts like mad. and it impedes your life so much you'd wish you can sleep the whole month away..!!
life is..feeling weird. things are fine and going along. many things happened and still many to come, it just feels weird. i do not feel very motivated or satisfied. i do not like festivities..maybe that's why i feel depressed.
i really do not like crowds. crowds==a massing of stupid people for stupid events/things.
of course there are times that i am part of the said crowds.
life is..feeling weird. things are fine and going along. many things happened and still many to come, it just feels weird. i do not feel very motivated or satisfied. i do not like festivities..maybe that's why i feel depressed.
i really do not like crowds. crowds==a massing of stupid people for stupid events/things.
of course there are times that i am part of the said crowds.
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