i go.
to korea for training. as the assistant coach. i think i am more a nanny than anything on this trip. CSM as mr goh puts it. oh well..purpose for me is to learn as much as i can from coach kim as well as test myself in the role of asst coach/team manager.
supposed to be one week..my stay extend to two week. it's a free trip..all paid for. lucky me..but it's for work and we are not going anywhere else other than the archery school. not much site s@@ing. no shopping. no money to anyway. sOo..just going to do my job and learn.
quite dreading the trip actually. so many unknowns..more than slightly apprehensive about it. the team is made up of people who are older and have some attitude problem people..sOo..well..s@@ how it goes. do what i can.
also i know i'll miss alot of people back here. even for the short two weeks. i have grown even further from the nats team in recent months as i decided to take a break this year. wasn't even close to them to start with..sOo..now..well..we'll s@@. people here. friends and family. people to talk to. to joke with. to hang out with. two weeks is not a long time..but..i guess i don't really travel enough to make it the norm for me.
take care and God bless, people. s@@ you all when i return.=)
already..i miss you.
'she is the one that you never forget
she is the heaven-sent angel you met
oh, she must be the reason why God made a girl
she is so pretty all over the world..'-Groove Coverage
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Friday, June 24, 2005
rest
finally getting some rest.
past month of inter-school and NUSIIAC drained me. training the teams and left with almost no time for myself. after the shoot, i slept on the bus..on the train..once i got home..after light dinner..everywhere. and monday i slept alot..tuesday too..wednesday too..thursday too..tomorrow..back to training.
not much time before the trip. got to brush up my own shooting..in preperations for the break in shooting. got to prepare for my teams for my absence. got to prepare my paper work to ask the coach there and to learn what i i really want to know.
simple things i want..but time..is not on my side.
alot of things on my mind..but as usual..no words to make them coherant(sp?). leave it as such..i will.
who should knows..should already know.
past month of inter-school and NUSIIAC drained me. training the teams and left with almost no time for myself. after the shoot, i slept on the bus..on the train..once i got home..after light dinner..everywhere. and monday i slept alot..tuesday too..wednesday too..thursday too..tomorrow..back to training.
not much time before the trip. got to brush up my own shooting..in preperations for the break in shooting. got to prepare for my teams for my absence. got to prepare my paper work to ask the coach there and to learn what i i really want to know.
simple things i want..but time..is not on my side.
alot of things on my mind..but as usual..no words to make them coherant(sp?). leave it as such..i will.
who should knows..should already know.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
nusiiac2005
just woke up.
came home showered and had a light dinner..then slept. then went for dinner..then slept again..then now awake..again..!! weekend was just flat out tiring.
waking times:
saturday : 5-0000
sunday : 5-1830
woah..glad i lasted the shoot not too badly. team event was much better than my individual shoot. my team, HSJ + LW + ken. our ranking == SuXXoRs. but..we managed to fight to the finals and lost to top seeded 'HaXXoRs LT Woo + WP + BO'. i was mentally out by the last shoot, think i psyched up too much for my TP team..then i mentally no longer able to focus properly for my shoot. but oh well..we were out classed. even if we did our today's average..we would have lost. we did our best and enjoyed the ride..=)
PPCC1 Team Silver. went through CDANS3, NUS1 and then CDANS1 to get to the finals. what a fight. each of us had ups and downs..but we covered each other and survived to the end. oh yeah..!!
finally..i felt i did ok. i fought with everything i had..and was rewarded. thank God.
TP standard mens Team GOLD!! kudos to TP2, smelly shoe+will i am+care bear. did well..especially mentally. against NTU and their mindless yaloring, they remained a well of calmness and whopped their sorry asses..haha.. i am over-joyed and feeling cocky for TP right now. pardon my attitude.
the other TP teams did not fare as well..but they learn somethings about shooting in competitions as well as about their own shooting. now we can work on them and improve.. all according to plan. step by step..we progress.=)
sOo..ends a weekend. and i am going to die again.
Gal 5:26
let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.
not for glory of self. but for goodness and grace that is of God.
came home showered and had a light dinner..then slept. then went for dinner..then slept again..then now awake..again..!! weekend was just flat out tiring.
waking times:
saturday : 5-0000
sunday : 5-1830
woah..glad i lasted the shoot not too badly. team event was much better than my individual shoot. my team, HSJ + LW + ken. our ranking == SuXXoRs. but..we managed to fight to the finals and lost to top seeded 'HaXXoRs LT Woo + WP + BO'. i was mentally out by the last shoot, think i psyched up too much for my TP team..then i mentally no longer able to focus properly for my shoot. but oh well..we were out classed. even if we did our today's average..we would have lost. we did our best and enjoyed the ride..=)
PPCC1 Team Silver. went through CDANS3, NUS1 and then CDANS1 to get to the finals. what a fight. each of us had ups and downs..but we covered each other and survived to the end. oh yeah..!!
finally..i felt i did ok. i fought with everything i had..and was rewarded. thank God.
TP standard mens Team GOLD!! kudos to TP2, smelly shoe+will i am+care bear. did well..especially mentally. against NTU and their mindless yaloring, they remained a well of calmness and whopped their sorry asses..haha.. i am over-joyed and feeling cocky for TP right now. pardon my attitude.
the other TP teams did not fare as well..but they learn somethings about shooting in competitions as well as about their own shooting. now we can work on them and improve.. all according to plan. step by step..we progress.=)
sOo..ends a weekend. and i am going to die again.
Gal 5:26
let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.
not for glory of self. but for goodness and grace that is of God.
father's day
seldom do we celebrate our relationship with our father.
cause he is always busy..earning our daily bread and or playing golf or fishing..=) i almost never said nice things about my dad. but today i feel i must.
when i was young..he taught me by example. to try things on our own and know the dangers. always be careful and yet daring.
he let me drink a dark colored drink. which was stout. i thought was coke. bleah!!
he would disappear at times on fishing trips and come back..his boat sometimes get's blown off course and such..scary for my mom i'd bet. but..kinda cool!!
he would explore new market to go into..doing all kinds of weird things at his factory. and bringing back strange artifacts!!!
then as i grew older he let me have what i wanted with only words of caution that things that i have are material and i must find something i want to do. never did he deny me money or anything he could afford.
50 per week for secondary school is really overkill. and computer and books and games and what have i.
he let me shoot without stressing me about studies..it's lucky that i 'woke' up after doing badly in sec 2.
computer on new year's eve! my first and i broke it in a day..then i learned to cherish things i have more..
again as i got older still, he let me do anything i wanted. only telling me that what i do i must be responsible for it. in the end it will come back to me.
when taking Os i started working in oct. one month before Os. then my poly course.
then my decision to be a full time archer/coach. my choice of friends, lifestyle at that time.
and right now..he tries hard to do what he can for our family. working as so many things. helping people still. won't s@@ him home till late at night..either working extra or helping friends out.
he also caution me to chose friends carefully and never make enemies. if anything bad happen..try to make it better. not by giving in..but by reaching out to s@@ the needs of others.
though he can do himself a favor by quitting drinking and smoking..i know it is not as easy as just me saying it. but i know he does what he can for us.
sometimes he'll buy things for us that we don't really need, thinking it's what we want..even though money is tight for him. not his fault..and it's quite funny. when you get home after a long day and find something on your desk that your dad bought..
i know he won't read it here. but i am going to say it to him when i s@@ him later.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!
i love my dad..even though i know he's stubborn and an old timer..just like me..!!
cause he is always busy..earning our daily bread and or playing golf or fishing..=) i almost never said nice things about my dad. but today i feel i must.
when i was young..he taught me by example. to try things on our own and know the dangers. always be careful and yet daring.
he let me drink a dark colored drink. which was stout. i thought was coke. bleah!!
he would disappear at times on fishing trips and come back..his boat sometimes get's blown off course and such..scary for my mom i'd bet. but..kinda cool!!
he would explore new market to go into..doing all kinds of weird things at his factory. and bringing back strange artifacts!!!
then as i grew older he let me have what i wanted with only words of caution that things that i have are material and i must find something i want to do. never did he deny me money or anything he could afford.
50 per week for secondary school is really overkill. and computer and books and games and what have i.
he let me shoot without stressing me about studies..it's lucky that i 'woke' up after doing badly in sec 2.
computer on new year's eve! my first and i broke it in a day..then i learned to cherish things i have more..
again as i got older still, he let me do anything i wanted. only telling me that what i do i must be responsible for it. in the end it will come back to me.
when taking Os i started working in oct. one month before Os. then my poly course.
then my decision to be a full time archer/coach. my choice of friends, lifestyle at that time.
and right now..he tries hard to do what he can for our family. working as so many things. helping people still. won't s@@ him home till late at night..either working extra or helping friends out.
he also caution me to chose friends carefully and never make enemies. if anything bad happen..try to make it better. not by giving in..but by reaching out to s@@ the needs of others.
though he can do himself a favor by quitting drinking and smoking..i know it is not as easy as just me saying it. but i know he does what he can for us.
sometimes he'll buy things for us that we don't really need, thinking it's what we want..even though money is tight for him. not his fault..and it's quite funny. when you get home after a long day and find something on your desk that your dad bought..
i know he won't read it here. but i am going to say it to him when i s@@ him later.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!
i love my dad..even though i know he's stubborn and an old timer..just like me..!!
Saturday, June 18, 2005
bzzt
*keep on laughing,
keep on breathing,
keep on striving,
keep on trying,
keep on hugging,
keep on kissing,
keep on smiling,
keep on experiencing,
keep on thinking,
above all.. keep on loving!* V(^_^)V
got the above from someone's blog. i totally agree. things get you down sometimes..but all you have to do is get back up and keep going. it makes you stronger to go through tough times. it's not easy at times..but you always have God..even if you have no friends or family.
the gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man perfected without trials.-chinese proverb
shot alright today..for the amount i train. that does not mean i am not disappointed. i did meet my expected score. i know i can do better..given more training..but as it is..i did alright. though..i know i can be better. lost to people with f***ed up form..that's what i hate the most. losing to the top people is fine..cause they trained hard and have good form and conditioning and all..but to those C**NS people..GRRRR...ARGH!!!!!
i will be back..stronger..better. mark my words.
keep on breathing,
keep on striving,
keep on trying,
keep on hugging,
keep on kissing,
keep on smiling,
keep on experiencing,
keep on thinking,
above all.. keep on loving!* V(^_^)V
got the above from someone's blog. i totally agree. things get you down sometimes..but all you have to do is get back up and keep going. it makes you stronger to go through tough times. it's not easy at times..but you always have God..even if you have no friends or family.
the gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man perfected without trials.-chinese proverb
shot alright today..for the amount i train. that does not mean i am not disappointed. i did meet my expected score. i know i can do better..given more training..but as it is..i did alright. though..i know i can be better. lost to people with f***ed up form..that's what i hate the most. losing to the top people is fine..cause they trained hard and have good form and conditioning and all..but to those C**NS people..GRRRR...ARGH!!!!!
i will be back..stronger..better. mark my words.
Friday, June 17, 2005
remarkable
how stupid one can get..
i meant me. after which that happened..i realised how idiotic was the things i said. OMGness!
i am sorry. it's like my brains loaded a function which meant to say things that are inherently mean and meaningless at the same time. i have no excuse, except my stupidity.
s@@..that what i mean by i think i am still a stupid little boy. hai.. ..
competition tomorrow..should be asleep..but hunger is keeping me awake. just ate something..sOo..will probably sleep in a few tens minutes.
if things were simpler..if things were better..if..
but they are such. sorry..if in any way it's bad for you.
there's this feeling that i cannot find words to express. it's partly wistful, sad, longing, hopeful, scared, excited, afraid of what's to come, waiting for what's to come to come, dreamy, don't dare to hope..all mixed up. turns my stomache into a cement mixer machine thingy. make my brains wants to stop thinking and think more at the same time. that's why i am going mad. i am already mad to start with..this is making me more sane and mad. which make me more mad. bzzt!
just somethings to say to people.
mon->hope you are alright..have not meet up with you and just chill for a long time already..take care ok..if anything you know i'll help as much as i can. but you know yourself best..do what is needed. i care..even if you don't think so..
D->sometimes things takes time. everything have their own time. don't rush. there's this story of this person who want to learn a martial art. he seeked out this master and asked how long it takes to master the skill.
master-10 years
person-if i train double hard and take less time to eat and sleep and train more..how long?
master-20 years
it's not only the effort..there have to be a proper pace..or else things might take longer and more effort. you know that. just remember when things takes time. do soemthing else or just take a breather. my teacher who opens the store now taught me that we must all take time to stand and stare..look at all the pretty flowers..or else..what are we living for?
casey-things may be hard and unbearable..but we have in all of us the ability to endure and persist, no matter what. i will always be here if you need a listen ear or a hand to punch. don't inflict upon yourself anymore. mental pain is more than enough to endure..don't add to it. there are good times and bad. don't ever let yourself, and everyone who's with you, down.
***-do what you need to do. there is a need for things to turn around sometimes. you know what you do best. do your best as usual and let things go. not everything can be in control or estimated. that's the fun part isn't it? let go and enjoy the ride. live life boldly..take chances..plan ahead and go at it. be true to yourself.
darn the evil ken..!!
i meant me. after which that happened..i realised how idiotic was the things i said. OMGness!
i am sorry. it's like my brains loaded a function which meant to say things that are inherently mean and meaningless at the same time. i have no excuse, except my stupidity.
s@@..that what i mean by i think i am still a stupid little boy. hai.. ..
competition tomorrow..should be asleep..but hunger is keeping me awake. just ate something..sOo..will probably sleep in a few tens minutes.
if things were simpler..if things were better..if..
but they are such. sorry..if in any way it's bad for you.
there's this feeling that i cannot find words to express. it's partly wistful, sad, longing, hopeful, scared, excited, afraid of what's to come, waiting for what's to come to come, dreamy, don't dare to hope..all mixed up. turns my stomache into a cement mixer machine thingy. make my brains wants to stop thinking and think more at the same time. that's why i am going mad. i am already mad to start with..this is making me more sane and mad. which make me more mad. bzzt!
just somethings to say to people.
mon->hope you are alright..have not meet up with you and just chill for a long time already..take care ok..if anything you know i'll help as much as i can. but you know yourself best..do what is needed. i care..even if you don't think so..
D->sometimes things takes time. everything have their own time. don't rush. there's this story of this person who want to learn a martial art. he seeked out this master and asked how long it takes to master the skill.
master-10 years
person-if i train double hard and take less time to eat and sleep and train more..how long?
master-20 years
it's not only the effort..there have to be a proper pace..or else things might take longer and more effort. you know that. just remember when things takes time. do soemthing else or just take a breather. my teacher who opens the store now taught me that we must all take time to stand and stare..look at all the pretty flowers..or else..what are we living for?
casey-things may be hard and unbearable..but we have in all of us the ability to endure and persist, no matter what. i will always be here if you need a listen ear or a hand to punch. don't inflict upon yourself anymore. mental pain is more than enough to endure..don't add to it. there are good times and bad. don't ever let yourself, and everyone who's with you, down.
***-do what you need to do. there is a need for things to turn around sometimes. you know what you do best. do your best as usual and let things go. not everything can be in control or estimated. that's the fun part isn't it? let go and enjoy the ride. live life boldly..take chances..plan ahead and go at it. be true to yourself.
darn the evil ken..!!
wants..
things.
things we want and do not have makes us unhappy. things that we have we don't see them as wants anymore. so wants will keep making us unhappy.
no idea what i am trying to say. just pretty unhappy these few days again. a few factors i guess. not prepared enough for the shoot and i guess want something more. yet i know i shouldn't. taking things easy..as easy as they come.
sOo..much uncertainty. not even a respite..a break by which i could meditate on things. to rest and recover. i guess i am easily drained. always giving my best to people..attention and thoughts and all that. when i just chill out..i just stay at 4/10 the whole time. when i work..it goes to 9/10..then i get tired then it goes 2/10. bah..lousy brains. opps..brain.
'you will know (the good from the bad) when you are calm, at peace.'-Yoda
physical-7/10 - feels slightly unwell..but generally alright.
mentally-8/10 - mostly prepared and chilled.=)
emotionally-5/10 - bzzt! logic failure.
spiritually-8/10 - psa 23:1 the LORD [is] my shepherd; i shall not want.
will just do what i do and the rest is not up to me.=) at peace i will be..for the Lord watches over me.
my favorite version of the song. so much emotions in the same two words.
'and i know,i know, i know, i know, i know
i know,i know, i know, i know, i know
i know,i know, i know, i know, i know
i know,i know, i know, i know, i know
i know, hey i ought to leave the young thing alone..'-Al Green
things we want and do not have makes us unhappy. things that we have we don't see them as wants anymore. so wants will keep making us unhappy.
no idea what i am trying to say. just pretty unhappy these few days again. a few factors i guess. not prepared enough for the shoot and i guess want something more. yet i know i shouldn't. taking things easy..as easy as they come.
sOo..much uncertainty. not even a respite..a break by which i could meditate on things. to rest and recover. i guess i am easily drained. always giving my best to people..attention and thoughts and all that. when i just chill out..i just stay at 4/10 the whole time. when i work..it goes to 9/10..then i get tired then it goes 2/10. bah..lousy brains. opps..brain.
'you will know (the good from the bad) when you are calm, at peace.'-Yoda
physical-7/10 - feels slightly unwell..but generally alright.
mentally-8/10 - mostly prepared and chilled.=)
emotionally-5/10 - bzzt! logic failure.
spiritually-8/10 - psa 23:1 the LORD [is] my shepherd; i shall not want.
will just do what i do and the rest is not up to me.=) at peace i will be..for the Lord watches over me.
my favorite version of the song. so much emotions in the same two words.
'and i know,i know, i know, i know, i know
i know,i know, i know, i know, i know
i know,i know, i know, i know, i know
i know,i know, i know, i know, i know
i know, hey i ought to leave the young thing alone..'-Al Green
bestest
it's by His grace we are able to do anything..just shoot for His glory.-K..
yes i will. though i know i am unprepared. not as prepared as i like by far. but still i said i'll shoot. and therefore i will. do my best and leave the rest to whatever comes.
i find myself lacking in faith still. seperated somehow..from my beliefs. that's why i still search within. wait for me..please..
'i've been down, now i'm blessed
i felt a revelation comin' around
i guess its right, its so amazing
everytime i see you i'm alive
you're all i've got, you lift me up
the sun and the moonlight
all my dreams are in your eyes'-Carrie Underwood
yes i will. though i know i am unprepared. not as prepared as i like by far. but still i said i'll shoot. and therefore i will. do my best and leave the rest to whatever comes.
i find myself lacking in faith still. seperated somehow..from my beliefs. that's why i still search within. wait for me..please..
'i've been down, now i'm blessed
i felt a revelation comin' around
i guess its right, its so amazing
everytime i see you i'm alive
you're all i've got, you lift me up
the sun and the moonlight
all my dreams are in your eyes'-Carrie Underwood
quizzes(s)
| Your EQ is |
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
You Are 80% Psychic |
You are so very psychic. But you already predicted that, didn't you? You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others. You're very tapped into the world around you... Just make sure to use your powers for good! |
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
stone
nope..i rock..haha..
nar..stoner day today actually. slept till fourteen hundred officailly then went to coach. they are doing alright..but could be better. after this competition will enforce they change and make them shoot better.
nice weather to sleep and do nothing..but here i am online doing nothing. chatting..not really also. reading online..done for the day. more like surfing around stuffs.
been thinking alot..i guess i am close to be who i want to be as a person. except when i get angry and lose my head. i don't like that at all. other than that..i need to work on taking care of myself more and be more conscious about my spendings.
truth and charity.
the intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant.
we have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.
-albert einstein
faith. there are alot of things that cannot be reasoned..only felt in the heart. God. love. fear. we are given the gift of intuition/faith..to trust them may be our only salvation.
mind's abit jumbled up right now. thinking about lot of things at the same time. shall stop here.
'with an ironclad fist I wake up and
french kiss the morning
while some marching band keeps
its own beat in my head
while we're talking
about all of the things that i long to believe
about love and the truth and
what you mean to me
and the truth is
baby you're all that i need
i want to lay you down on a bed of roses
for tonigth i sleep on a bed of nails
i want to be just as close as the Holy Ghost is
and lay you down on a bed of roses'-Bon Jovi
nar..stoner day today actually. slept till fourteen hundred officailly then went to coach. they are doing alright..but could be better. after this competition will enforce they change and make them shoot better.
nice weather to sleep and do nothing..but here i am online doing nothing. chatting..not really also. reading online..done for the day. more like surfing around stuffs.
been thinking alot..i guess i am close to be who i want to be as a person. except when i get angry and lose my head. i don't like that at all. other than that..i need to work on taking care of myself more and be more conscious about my spendings.
truth and charity.
the intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant.
we have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.
-albert einstein
faith. there are alot of things that cannot be reasoned..only felt in the heart. God. love. fear. we are given the gift of intuition/faith..to trust them may be our only salvation.
mind's abit jumbled up right now. thinking about lot of things at the same time. shall stop here.
'with an ironclad fist I wake up and
french kiss the morning
while some marching band keeps
its own beat in my head
while we're talking
about all of the things that i long to believe
about love and the truth and
what you mean to me
and the truth is
baby you're all that i need
i want to lay you down on a bed of roses
for tonigth i sleep on a bed of nails
i want to be just as close as the Holy Ghost is
and lay you down on a bed of roses'-Bon Jovi
more
there is always more.
more than words can express. for me at least..language is not my strong point. usually when i feel something or want to describe something..i am at a lost for words. it's like the words i know are inadequate to express what i truely want to say. tried to learn more by reading, but to no avail. of course i won't give up..but maybe my vocabulary will not expand to my satisfaction..ever.
sOo..many things happen everyday. want to blog sometimes in the middle of the day. when things just occured, but have no chance to. then now at night..don't have the urge to anymore. the emotions i can muster now is at best, a pale shadow. there is usually more thougths than what i manage to blog here. sOo..much escapes me when i am busy and focused on other things.
truely man are confused beings. at least i am and have been for a long time before. sOo..many conflicts within me. wants, needs, duties, right, good..and how. at least i settled about what i really belief in..though i am still taking my time to study and learn and talk about it with people before i decide what to do with a faith. it is important. like a cornerstone of a building. more to go in this direction.
more things to do than i can accomplish. i want to do more..but i am only human.
so close sometimes..yet not close at all.
more than words can express. for me at least..language is not my strong point. usually when i feel something or want to describe something..i am at a lost for words. it's like the words i know are inadequate to express what i truely want to say. tried to learn more by reading, but to no avail. of course i won't give up..but maybe my vocabulary will not expand to my satisfaction..ever.
sOo..many things happen everyday. want to blog sometimes in the middle of the day. when things just occured, but have no chance to. then now at night..don't have the urge to anymore. the emotions i can muster now is at best, a pale shadow. there is usually more thougths than what i manage to blog here. sOo..much escapes me when i am busy and focused on other things.
truely man are confused beings. at least i am and have been for a long time before. sOo..many conflicts within me. wants, needs, duties, right, good..and how. at least i settled about what i really belief in..though i am still taking my time to study and learn and talk about it with people before i decide what to do with a faith. it is important. like a cornerstone of a building. more to go in this direction.
more things to do than i can accomplish. i want to do more..but i am only human.
so close sometimes..yet not close at all.
Monday, June 13, 2005
longest journey
the longest journey of any person is the journey inward.
-dag hammerskjvld
reflected on the weekend and decided that i am still pretty much a stupid boy. plenty much to learn still and more importantly..self-control. anger serves only the enemy. will work on it. to continuously better myself.
Psa 37:8
cease from anger, and forsake wrath: fret not thyself in any wise to do evil.
it has become appallingly obvious that our technology has exceeded our humanity.
we shall require a substantially new manner of thinking if mankind is to survive.
few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts.
-albert einstein
tired. not much words to put out here.
peace within before without.
-dag hammerskjvld
reflected on the weekend and decided that i am still pretty much a stupid boy. plenty much to learn still and more importantly..self-control. anger serves only the enemy. will work on it. to continuously better myself.
Psa 37:8
cease from anger, and forsake wrath: fret not thyself in any wise to do evil.
it has become appallingly obvious that our technology has exceeded our humanity.
we shall require a substantially new manner of thinking if mankind is to survive.
few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts.
-albert einstein
tired. not much words to put out here.
peace within before without.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
touched
INSTRUCTIONS FOR LIFE
1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three Rs: Respect for self Respect for others and Responsibility for all your actions. 4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
7. When you realise you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honourable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. You'll die, but may achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.
17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
19. Approach love and compassion with reckless abandon.
MAKING A DIFFERENCE
A friend was walking down a deserted Mexican beach at sunset. As he walked along, he began to see another man in the distance. As he grew nearer, he noticed that the local native kept leaning down, picking something up and throwing it out into the water. Time and again he kept hurling things out into the ocean. As my friend approached even closer, he noticed that the man was picking up starfish that had washed up on the beach, and, one at a time, he was throwing them back into the water. My friend was puzzled. He approached the man and said. "Good evening, friend. I was wondering what you are doing." "I'm throwing these starfish back into the ocean. You see, it's low tide right now and all of these starfish have been washed up onto the shore. If I don't throw them back into the sea, they'll die up here from lack of oxygen." "I understand," my friend replied, "but there must be thousands of starfish on this beach. You can't possibly get to all of them. There are simply too many. And don't you realize this is probably happening on hundreds of beaches all up and down this coast. Can't you see that you can't possibly make a difference?" The local native smiled, bent down and picked up yet another starfish, and as he threw it back into the sea, he replied, "Made a difference to that one!"
"I have learned through bitter experience the one supreme lesson to conserve my anger, and as heat conserved is transmuted into energy,even so our anger controlled can be transmuted into a power that can move the world." Mahatma Gandhi
POVERTY
One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing his son how poor people live. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family. On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" " It was great, Dad." "Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked."Oh yeah," said the son. "So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.
The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others. We buy our food, but they grow theirs. We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."
The boy's father was speechless. Then his son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are."
so much we can learn in life's lessons..if only we s@@ and hear what God is trying to tell us through all these.
1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three Rs: Respect for self Respect for others and Responsibility for all your actions. 4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
7. When you realise you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honourable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. You'll die, but may achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.
17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
19. Approach love and compassion with reckless abandon.
MAKING A DIFFERENCE
A friend was walking down a deserted Mexican beach at sunset. As he walked along, he began to see another man in the distance. As he grew nearer, he noticed that the local native kept leaning down, picking something up and throwing it out into the water. Time and again he kept hurling things out into the ocean. As my friend approached even closer, he noticed that the man was picking up starfish that had washed up on the beach, and, one at a time, he was throwing them back into the water. My friend was puzzled. He approached the man and said. "Good evening, friend. I was wondering what you are doing." "I'm throwing these starfish back into the ocean. You see, it's low tide right now and all of these starfish have been washed up onto the shore. If I don't throw them back into the sea, they'll die up here from lack of oxygen." "I understand," my friend replied, "but there must be thousands of starfish on this beach. You can't possibly get to all of them. There are simply too many. And don't you realize this is probably happening on hundreds of beaches all up and down this coast. Can't you see that you can't possibly make a difference?" The local native smiled, bent down and picked up yet another starfish, and as he threw it back into the sea, he replied, "Made a difference to that one!"
"I have learned through bitter experience the one supreme lesson to conserve my anger, and as heat conserved is transmuted into energy,even so our anger controlled can be transmuted into a power that can move the world." Mahatma Gandhi
POVERTY
One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing his son how poor people live. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family. On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" " It was great, Dad." "Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked."Oh yeah," said the son. "So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.
The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others. We buy our food, but they grow theirs. We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."
The boy's father was speechless. Then his son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are."
so much we can learn in life's lessons..if only we s@@ and hear what God is trying to tell us through all these.
fallout
"i'll get you during my next save game."--the chosen one
anyone played fallout 1 & 2? it has got to be the most enjoyable and replayable game i ever played. and i played lots. the graphics are not up to todays standard, but..if you are playing games for graphics..then i am sorry for you..the game play and story and it's openess makes it one of the best gaming exp one can ever have in my opinion.
the inter-school was good. better than expected. though marred by some events, i will not pursue it. i did not handle that particular situation well at all. i am sorry to all who were affected. i thought i could be chill..but i blew. i must be better next time such things happen. i am glad my team did well generally. very proud of them. can s@@ them doing their best, even those with very little training. the fighting spirit is there throughout. i am really proud of them doing that.=)
decided..yet tough to let go. i guess i'll still practice when i can..but focus will be on my athletes. heartache..for the joy of shooting and shooting well is indescribable. but one have to do what one have to do.
anger is the weapon that serves only the enemy.
a story for all who pass by..
during the civil wars in feudal japan, an invading army would quickly sweep into a town and take control. in one particular village, everyone fled just before the army arrived - everyone except the zen master.
curious about this old fellow, the general went to the temple to see for himself what kind of man this master was. when he wasn't treated with the deference and submissiveness to which he was accustomed, the general burst into anger. "you fool," he shouted as he reached for his sword, "don't you realize you are standing before a man who could run you through without blinking an eye!"
but despite the threat, the master seemed unmoved. "and do you realize," the master replied calmly, "that you are standing before a man who can be run through without blinking an eye?"
we are who we are all the time..only if we are unmoved by events. we must act on things and do things, but to be affected by things we cannot control is folly. do what we can at the moment to the best of our abilities and knowledge. live life one moment at a time, boldly. our best is what we have.
love : wanting others to be happy..unconditionally.
do you understand?
anyone played fallout 1 & 2? it has got to be the most enjoyable and replayable game i ever played. and i played lots. the graphics are not up to todays standard, but..if you are playing games for graphics..then i am sorry for you..the game play and story and it's openess makes it one of the best gaming exp one can ever have in my opinion.
the inter-school was good. better than expected. though marred by some events, i will not pursue it. i did not handle that particular situation well at all. i am sorry to all who were affected. i thought i could be chill..but i blew. i must be better next time such things happen. i am glad my team did well generally. very proud of them. can s@@ them doing their best, even those with very little training. the fighting spirit is there throughout. i am really proud of them doing that.=)
decided..yet tough to let go. i guess i'll still practice when i can..but focus will be on my athletes. heartache..for the joy of shooting and shooting well is indescribable. but one have to do what one have to do.
anger is the weapon that serves only the enemy.
a story for all who pass by..
during the civil wars in feudal japan, an invading army would quickly sweep into a town and take control. in one particular village, everyone fled just before the army arrived - everyone except the zen master.
curious about this old fellow, the general went to the temple to see for himself what kind of man this master was. when he wasn't treated with the deference and submissiveness to which he was accustomed, the general burst into anger. "you fool," he shouted as he reached for his sword, "don't you realize you are standing before a man who could run you through without blinking an eye!"
but despite the threat, the master seemed unmoved. "and do you realize," the master replied calmly, "that you are standing before a man who can be run through without blinking an eye?"
we are who we are all the time..only if we are unmoved by events. we must act on things and do things, but to be affected by things we cannot control is folly. do what we can at the moment to the best of our abilities and knowledge. live life one moment at a time, boldly. our best is what we have.
love : wanting others to be happy..unconditionally.
do you understand?
Saturday, June 11, 2005
unstable
been busy. tired. and feeling pretty down.
'helping' people out. inter-school competition organising comm..i am NOT. and yet ALL the paper work is done by me. and i am pretty sure it will screw up. yay. we'll s@@..cause i heard they made changes to the detailing without letting me know..therefore list will not tally. yay. boards are all moved and placed by mr lee. he too did most of the physical stuff with some help. the sucky thing? he and i are only suppose to be advising the new people to do things..not do things ourselves. why is this happening? cause they got work commitment..got other things on. then why the 'eff' you take up the project? people..wants credit..no want work. last time for me to do shit for others..been doing planning and executing competitions since i came out of army..enough is enough. people are so darn hard to please..it's as if the organiser owe them something. we do the work so you can come and comepte and maybe get medal..still treat us like slaves. some people are really arseholes.
been busy trying to prepare my new team. disappointed with them and myself. they are not performing as they should. not enough training time. not enough strength. not enough alternative trainings. not enough ken to help everyone. not spending quality time with each archer to ensure they know what to do. and there's so many things that they should know that i have not the time to teach properly. argh. i hate sending team out not prepared well enough to my standards. it's like sending my men out to the field without proper training and equipment. but..lesser evil than not letting them compete. considering everything, like their time available and my limitations..they are not too bad..but of course can be better. hai..bad situation in JC anyway..they are so busy with 10000000000000000 and 1 things to do. i can only do so much.
favors the prepare mind..chance does.
yoda-ised the famous louis pastour quote 'chance favors the prepared mind. taking up quite alot more duties than i should i feel. my 100% is not there for everythign i do anymore. too tired. i get down and short tempered when i am tired and cannot rest. when i get hungry..it gets worse. really got to work out my schedule properly so as to make sure i get enough rest..else i may just go around snapping at everyone. bzzt!
there is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread. -Mother Teresa
like the lyrics very much.=) kept me going sometimes when i am down and out.
'如果无意要俗世消失这个故事
就让大海失意陆地伤心飘移
放弃每日再开始
如果世界会尚有真心真意故事
就在我目光内滴下泪的当儿
告诉你你已看到一次
原来只要共你活一天
凡尘里一切再不挂念
原来海角天际亦会变
原来生过死过深爱亦无变
原来只要共你活一天
完全去把你所有都发现
原来只要相信便看见
原来给你真爱的我是无悔.. ..是每一天'-张学友
'helping' people out. inter-school competition organising comm..i am NOT. and yet ALL the paper work is done by me. and i am pretty sure it will screw up. yay. we'll s@@..cause i heard they made changes to the detailing without letting me know..therefore list will not tally. yay. boards are all moved and placed by mr lee. he too did most of the physical stuff with some help. the sucky thing? he and i are only suppose to be advising the new people to do things..not do things ourselves. why is this happening? cause they got work commitment..got other things on. then why the 'eff' you take up the project? people..wants credit..no want work. last time for me to do shit for others..been doing planning and executing competitions since i came out of army..enough is enough. people are so darn hard to please..it's as if the organiser owe them something. we do the work so you can come and comepte and maybe get medal..still treat us like slaves. some people are really arseholes.
been busy trying to prepare my new team. disappointed with them and myself. they are not performing as they should. not enough training time. not enough strength. not enough alternative trainings. not enough ken to help everyone. not spending quality time with each archer to ensure they know what to do. and there's so many things that they should know that i have not the time to teach properly. argh. i hate sending team out not prepared well enough to my standards. it's like sending my men out to the field without proper training and equipment. but..lesser evil than not letting them compete. considering everything, like their time available and my limitations..they are not too bad..but of course can be better. hai..bad situation in JC anyway..they are so busy with 10000000000000000 and 1 things to do. i can only do so much.
favors the prepare mind..chance does.
yoda-ised the famous louis pastour quote 'chance favors the prepared mind. taking up quite alot more duties than i should i feel. my 100% is not there for everythign i do anymore. too tired. i get down and short tempered when i am tired and cannot rest. when i get hungry..it gets worse. really got to work out my schedule properly so as to make sure i get enough rest..else i may just go around snapping at everyone. bzzt!
there is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread. -Mother Teresa
like the lyrics very much.=) kept me going sometimes when i am down and out.
'如果无意要俗世消失这个故事
就让大海失意陆地伤心飘移
放弃每日再开始
如果世界会尚有真心真意故事
就在我目光内滴下泪的当儿
告诉你你已看到一次
原来只要共你活一天
凡尘里一切再不挂念
原来海角天际亦会变
原来生过死过深爱亦无变
原来只要共你活一天
完全去把你所有都发现
原来只要相信便看见
原来给你真爱的我是无悔.. ..是每一天'-张学友
Monday, June 06, 2005
routed
my router has been routed.
after 4 years of wonderful service my router died. past week it have been acting up. i was checking all systems asto what might be the cause, but thought my router to be infallable(sp?). at first i just thought some one in my block was DLing LOTS and LOTS of porn..slowing down the network..then i though myabe it's the holidays and LOTS and LOTS of kids were playing games online.. then i have things to do and send out..got so frustrated that i went monica's pplace to get it done. after that i thought..'ah..give it a check..' to my dismay..it's the router.
sOo..now my brother will be without network..until i replace it. oh crap.
anyway..been slacking alot. much more than usual. feeling really stressed up and depressed. and have no idea why..that's the idiotic part. got so bad that i drank abit last night. did nothing except made me dehydrated. after that i read nearly half the bible..then i realised..the one i have is really short. lots of missing things..looks like i got to look for a more complete one.
whenenver i get stressed up i slack more..ahaha..bad habit. waiting things out. but i got not much chance to do so now. plenty to do. will do them as i should. i will. not let people down.
thanks alot to friends around who cared and hang out when i'm down. without support..i'd be much more miserable.
Job 1:21
And said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.
wants and needs..are different. what we need..we already have.
living lifes not in eliminating but in growing with troubles.
after 4 years of wonderful service my router died. past week it have been acting up. i was checking all systems asto what might be the cause, but thought my router to be infallable(sp?). at first i just thought some one in my block was DLing LOTS and LOTS of porn..slowing down the network..then i though myabe it's the holidays and LOTS and LOTS of kids were playing games online.. then i have things to do and send out..got so frustrated that i went monica's pplace to get it done. after that i thought..'ah..give it a check..' to my dismay..it's the router.
sOo..now my brother will be without network..until i replace it. oh crap.
anyway..been slacking alot. much more than usual. feeling really stressed up and depressed. and have no idea why..that's the idiotic part. got so bad that i drank abit last night. did nothing except made me dehydrated. after that i read nearly half the bible..then i realised..the one i have is really short. lots of missing things..looks like i got to look for a more complete one.
whenenver i get stressed up i slack more..ahaha..bad habit. waiting things out. but i got not much chance to do so now. plenty to do. will do them as i should. i will. not let people down.
thanks alot to friends around who cared and hang out when i'm down. without support..i'd be much more miserable.
Job 1:21
And said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.
wants and needs..are different. what we need..we already have.
living lifes not in eliminating but in growing with troubles.
Sunday, June 05, 2005
me..quizzed
ok..slightly more chaotic than most. agree certainly. i am more ad hoc and more intuitive than most i feel. which i like to be. more intouch with myself.=)
Chaos Vortex
You scored 57%
More often than not, you lean toward chaos rather than order. Chances are you have a difficult time keeping things clean or orderly, but chances are you also don't really care too much. You're most likely a free spirit, artistic and creative, whether in a traditional pursuit like painting or writing, or a less conventional one like programming or rhetoric. Your predominating element is probably water.
My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
Link: The Chaos Test written by miratos on Ok Cupid
Chaos Vortex
You scored 57%
You scored higher than 57% on chaopoints
Saturday, June 04, 2005
more quizzes..too early i woke..
don't you think they are pretty crap? i think so..but oh well..for fun anyway..some interesting interpretations..=)
Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a
form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to
alter it every six months" by Oscar
Wilde.You are a very sarcastic person with a
sharp tongue. You may not be the one always
talking, but your mind is nevertheless
critizing. You tend to have a cynical view on
life itself and be somewhat withdrawn with who
you really are. Society now is in your eyes
corrupted and you wonder how the world will
survive. And people are in your mind very
ignorant and blind to the reality.
What wise quote fits you?(pics)
Life is good and bad. You know it can never be
perfect and that it never have been, and you're
fine with that. You still feel it's important
to live life since it can end any day and not
sulk because of some little failure in life.
You are often a happy person, still you don't
laugh all the time. You have a somewhat calm
aura and most people feel comfortable around
you.
How do you see life?
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Your power is: Clairvoyance
What Power is Compatible With You?
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You need understanding.
In your life there has been many people that
could never seem too comprehend your
personality. Now you have either become an
out-cast because of their narrow minds or you
have adjusted yourself to them, and never
letting them see who you are deep inside. You
now think that no one will ever understand you
and you hate that fact. Though you are scared
of what the effects might be if you would
decide to let someone in so you keep a safe
distance that you both curse and bless.
What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.
What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you
don't know them. If you see a person trip you
worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones
first and you're very mature. When someones
sick you're nurturing and always try to help
family and friends when failure strikes them.
You can be called the motherly one, if you are
in a group of people, which doesn't have to be
bad. Love is something that's already in you
and you have a lot to give whether you believe
it or not. Your friends probably love you very
much and come to when they need help since
you're reliable. People can feel secure with
you and generally like you.
How is your soul?(pics)
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! You are most Like A Sapphire !
Dark, mysterious - but unforgettable. You have a
deep
beauty. Delicate, and shy you try to stay away from
the
limelight but often your intelligence puts you in
at the
deep end. You're like a Sapphire, because, your
beauty is priceless.
You're intelligent, full of opinions, and not
big-headed about it all.
Sometimes you need to put yourself out there, as
you can be a bit shy.
Congratulations ... You're the mysterious gem
everybody wants to have and learn more about.
?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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Waterfall
?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ??
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Crab
?? Which Creature Of The Sea Are You??
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Peace
?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a
form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to
alter it every six months" by Oscar
Wilde.You are a very sarcastic person with a
sharp tongue. You may not be the one always
talking, but your mind is nevertheless
critizing. You tend to have a cynical view on
life itself and be somewhat withdrawn with who
you really are. Society now is in your eyes
corrupted and you wonder how the world will
survive. And people are in your mind very
ignorant and blind to the reality.
What wise quote fits you?(pics)
Life is good and bad. You know it can never be
perfect and that it never have been, and you're
fine with that. You still feel it's important
to live life since it can end any day and not
sulk because of some little failure in life.
You are often a happy person, still you don't
laugh all the time. You have a somewhat calm
aura and most people feel comfortable around
you.
How do you see life?
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Your power is: Clairvoyance
Explanation: Your power is that you can
look into the future and see what is coming.
How far and long you can look is all depending
on your skill level. This can, as all powers,
be used in both evil and good. Even if it may
seem like a boring ability it is a huge
responsibility for the carrier, becase they are
constantly tempted with doing the wrongs deeds
(e.g. cheat on a test). It takes high morals to
not be brought down with it.
Therefor you fit with this power quite well.
You take responsibility and do what is the
right thing to do. This does not make you a
saint, since you're only human after all. But
it makes a trustworthy person and you are loyal
to camrades and/or team mates. In school you
were probably a good student. If you were
social varies from person to person, but most
clairvoyant people tend to prefer their own
company or that of close friends and family.
That is because you are wise and knows how to
treasure the reliable in your life, since you
know popularity can be a false element. You are
also not that big on taking risks and prefer
what is already explored. That is because you
don't like suprises, they can turn out bad and
then you won't be in control.
Negative aspects: Since you're always
doing the right thing and being trustworthy all
the time you can become frustrated. Also, all
that you carry on your shoulders may stress you
out. You need to relax to be in good mental
shape.
What Power is Compatible With You?
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You need understanding.
In your life there has been many people that
could never seem too comprehend your
personality. Now you have either become an
out-cast because of their narrow minds or you
have adjusted yourself to them, and never
letting them see who you are deep inside. You
now think that no one will ever understand you
and you hate that fact. Though you are scared
of what the effects might be if you would
decide to let someone in so you keep a safe
distance that you both curse and bless.
What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.
What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you
don't know them. If you see a person trip you
worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones
first and you're very mature. When someones
sick you're nurturing and always try to help
family and friends when failure strikes them.
You can be called the motherly one, if you are
in a group of people, which doesn't have to be
bad. Love is something that's already in you
and you have a lot to give whether you believe
it or not. Your friends probably love you very
much and come to when they need help since
you're reliable. People can feel secure with
you and generally like you.
How is your soul?(pics)
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! You are most Like A Sapphire !
Dark, mysterious - but unforgettable. You have a
deep
beauty. Delicate, and shy you try to stay away from
the
limelight but often your intelligence puts you in
at the
deep end. You're like a Sapphire, because, your
beauty is priceless.
You're intelligent, full of opinions, and not
big-headed about it all.
Sometimes you need to put yourself out there, as
you can be a bit shy.
Congratulations ... You're the mysterious gem
everybody wants to have and learn more about.
?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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Waterfall
?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ??
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Crab
?? Which Creature Of The Sea Are You??
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Peace
?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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Friday, June 03, 2005
high gear
holidays for schools are here.
most school anyway..time to get busy. more courses to teach. inter school coming up..got to help out and got school to prep for it. indoor shoot coming up..got to prep for it and a school to handle for it too.
always tired during the holidays..more things to do..more hectic and unplanned. more money..hopefully. and also more money spent cause take more cabs and eat better to fuel myself.
Rom 11:33
O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable [are] his judgments, and his ways past finding out!
should learn to trust more that things to come will be good. i worry too much needlessly. all i need to do is do what i can and my best. my lord will take care of the rest.=) slowly i am s@@ing it..slowly i am believing more and living it.. quite amazed.
'想著你的感覺 有如雨的纏綿
淋濕我的歲月 而我卻依然不知不覺
想著你的感覺 有如風的繾綣
吹亂我的日夜 吹也吹不走你的容顏'-巫啟賢
most school anyway..time to get busy. more courses to teach. inter school coming up..got to help out and got school to prep for it. indoor shoot coming up..got to prep for it and a school to handle for it too.
always tired during the holidays..more things to do..more hectic and unplanned. more money..hopefully. and also more money spent cause take more cabs and eat better to fuel myself.
Rom 11:33
O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable [are] his judgments, and his ways past finding out!
should learn to trust more that things to come will be good. i worry too much needlessly. all i need to do is do what i can and my best. my lord will take care of the rest.=) slowly i am s@@ing it..slowly i am believing more and living it.. quite amazed.
'想著你的感覺 有如雨的纏綿
淋濕我的歲月 而我卻依然不知不覺
想著你的感覺 有如風的繾綣
吹亂我的日夜 吹也吹不走你的容顏'-巫啟賢
quizzes
Your Lightsaber is Blue
Blue is often associated with depth and stability.
It symbolizes trust, loyalty, wisdom,
confidence, and truth.
What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?
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Wine
?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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Your Heart is Red
What Color is Your Heart?
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In your eyes, people see life... You see yourself
as just an average person! You enjoy life, love
wildlife, but also enjoy time with those who
know you best. You like to get outdoors and let
your mind wander over all of the mysteries god
gave to you. You don't really have a certain
sanctuary because you're so well-rounded, but
you like having fun and adventures, but can
also be found sitting quietly about, reading a
book. You have a pretty good life ahead of you,
never trade it for anything else :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.
Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
sleepless
in singapore.
tired. but not enough to ensure a good night sleep. i don't really know why. no new issues to bother me. issues have been settled in my mind. things i can do..i do..things i cannot..leave it. what else can i do? i am only human.
and yet..i still cannot sleep.
music. so beautiful..and sad.
no more anger. twice a year maybe..i vent. this year..on an unsuspecting person who called me.
(at TP range during training.)
person:eh..come down now.
ken: huh?
person: come down!
ken: huh? why? what?
person: your CPU..come down.
ken: HUH!?!? who are you?!?
person: WHO ARE YOU?
(ken's evil twin appears and takes over the phone.)
evil twin: TMD. you call me ask me who i am? you go die la. f**king asshole!!
(offs phone. pass back to ken then promptly disappears.)
off course i did not put it so nicely..english is not a suitable language to scold people. especially when on paper/online. seems so emotionless. hokkien is satisfying when angered. cantonese is nice when you want to gossip. chinese is good when you want to insult people's 18 generation. english is good when you want to be sacastic..i suppose. maybe it'sjust the way i use them.
missing you..so much.
getting busy. inter-school and indoor coming. preparing people for it. and myself as well. so many things to do..so little time. giving my best for the people who rely on me..who depend on my judgement..who trust me. i am giving you my best..trust me. =>
occupied in the day. home alone at night..feels sOo..empty. depressingly empty. bah!!no new books to chew through. not playing games..don't want to waste time. but cannot sleep also waste time.
don't even know who i want to be anymore.
'忘记你 但仍然想起
愈想起 更加难入寐
紧抱你 抱紧的只得空气
明知得不到你 何必再要记起'-张学友
tired. but not enough to ensure a good night sleep. i don't really know why. no new issues to bother me. issues have been settled in my mind. things i can do..i do..things i cannot..leave it. what else can i do? i am only human.
and yet..i still cannot sleep.
music. so beautiful..and sad.
no more anger. twice a year maybe..i vent. this year..on an unsuspecting person who called me.
(at TP range during training.)
person:eh..come down now.
ken: huh?
person: come down!
ken: huh? why? what?
person: your CPU..come down.
ken: HUH!?!? who are you?!?
person: WHO ARE YOU?
(ken's evil twin appears and takes over the phone.)
evil twin: TMD. you call me ask me who i am? you go die la. f**king asshole!!
(offs phone. pass back to ken then promptly disappears.)
off course i did not put it so nicely..english is not a suitable language to scold people. especially when on paper/online. seems so emotionless. hokkien is satisfying when angered. cantonese is nice when you want to gossip. chinese is good when you want to insult people's 18 generation. english is good when you want to be sacastic..i suppose. maybe it'sjust the way i use them.
missing you..so much.
getting busy. inter-school and indoor coming. preparing people for it. and myself as well. so many things to do..so little time. giving my best for the people who rely on me..who depend on my judgement..who trust me. i am giving you my best..trust me. =>
occupied in the day. home alone at night..feels sOo..empty. depressingly empty. bah!!no new books to chew through. not playing games..don't want to waste time. but cannot sleep also waste time.
don't even know who i want to be anymore.
'忘记你 但仍然想起
愈想起 更加难入寐
紧抱你 抱紧的只得空气
明知得不到你 何必再要记起'-张学友
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