it's been quite some time, and yet i still feel rather hurt. i guess it'll take longer than this to let me walk free. i think part of it is myself not wanting it to be free from it.
i understand. i know. yet i cannot accept it. i am doing what i said i would be doing and yet it's all gone and here i am all alone going at the world and struggling. i have my own targets and goals. and i am having fun and growing. yet i am angry..and sad.
there are so many things that i wanted to do with you. asked you to go do them. and you or i always have some reason not to do them. and now you are all doing them with other people. i cannot help but be angry.
all i want to do is to punch the world and let it explode.
i am not ok. i breath and walk. i work and play. but i am less than what i was. i find it difficult to build myself up on the inside even though on the outside i am already much better than i was.
anger leads to hate. hate leads to pain and suffering for the person who holds the hate. i am me.
i understand. i know. yet i cannot accept it. i am doing what i said i would be doing and yet it's all gone and here i am all alone going at the world and struggling. i have my own targets and goals. and i am having fun and growing. yet i am angry..and sad.
there are so many things that i wanted to do with you. asked you to go do them. and you or i always have some reason not to do them. and now you are all doing them with other people. i cannot help but be angry.
all i want to do is to punch the world and let it explode.
i am not ok. i breath and walk. i work and play. but i am less than what i was. i find it difficult to build myself up on the inside even though on the outside i am already much better than i was.
anger leads to hate. hate leads to pain and suffering for the person who holds the hate. i am me.
