blah blah blah blah.. .. .. ..

people. suck shit and die.

naise..

Hawking, known not only for his sharp mind, but his sharp sense of humor, prefers option number three. "Primitive life is very common and intelligent life is fairly rare," he quickly added: "Some would say it has yet to occur on earth."

first..

singaporean to fall victim to terrorist actions. it is a sad day for me.

i do not know this lady or her family, but as a singaporean, i feel angry and helpless. this could be any number of our country men or women any where in the world. could be your friend or mine. even our family members.

these terrorist, moral-less, cowards, retards!!! you cannot have your agenda fulfilled in a civilised and lawful manner, and resort to killing innocents and making life worse for everybody in the world. WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!?!

you have guns and bombs to back up your arguments and make your demands, simply because you have nothing of value to rely on.

this is not the first in the world and it'll not be the last for singaporeans as well. our world is a sad world these days, a life is only worth as much as a bullet that takes to kill.

because some fucked up guy with some money or persuading power can twist people to do his bidding. if he is so interested in making others matyrs and 'secure' their place in paradise or whatever, why don't this moron go first and save us the trouble.

i'm enraged. i cannot put words out from the thoughts i have in my mind.

what will it take for innocents to be spared from the horrors of other's deranged ambitions?

head..

many pain..many nights..

multiple migraine

balh blah blah..

i don't know..

why the heck.

i mean i know. but i don't know why.

weak willed. perhaps.

parhaps, some people are made to burn.

maybe, i'm just evil. chaotic evil. ok..maybe chaotic neutral.

i don't know. i got to figure this out.

why am i so screwed up?

...

these days

i was walking around, just a face in the crowd
trying to keep myself out of the rain
saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown
wondered if i might end up the same
there's a man out on the corner
singing old songs about change
everybody got their cross to bare, these days

she came looking for some shelter with a suitcase full of dreams
to a motel room on the boulevard
guess she's trying to be James Dean
she's seen all the disciples and all the "wanna be's"
no one wants to be themselves these days
still there's nothing to hold on to but these days

these days - the stars seem out of reach
these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
these days - are fast, love don't last in this graceless age
there ain't nobody left but us these days

Jimmy Shoes busted both his legs, trying to learn to fly
from a second story window, he just jumped and closed his eyes
his momma said he was crazy - he said momma "i've got to try"
don't you know that all my heroes died
and i guess i'd rather die than fade away

these days - the stars seem out of reach
but these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
these days are fast, love don't lasts-in this graceless age
even innocence has caught the morning train
and there ain't nobody left but us these days

i know Rome's still burning
though the times have changed
this world keeped turning round and round and round and round
these days

these days - the stars seem out of reach
but these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
these days are fast, love don't lasts-in this graceless age
even innocence has caught the morning train
and there ain't nobody left but us these days

these days - the stars seem out of reach
these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
these days - are fast, nothing lasts
there ain't no time to waste
there ain't nobody left to take the blame
there ain't nobody left but us these days
-Jon Bon Jovi

stars seem out of reach..

sledge hammer

the stress involve in this job peaks suddenly like a sledge hammer to the cranium. not that i know about the hammmer..but well..

stuck here waiting for someone to send a fax to save me from endless waiting.

exchanging mental health for money. yay.

Thank God for good family and friends.

woah..

the problem with the big bang is that we know nothing about it. we don't know when it banged, why it banged, how it banged, what exactly was being banged..
(www.overheardinnewyork.com)

TO Mr. Lame Ducky Bush

Please shut up and get lost. STOP your bullshit and nonsense!

http://environment.newscientist.com/article/dn15105-bush-rushes-harmful-environment-laws.html?DCMP=ILC-hmts&nsref=news2_head_dn15105

if everyone cared

from underneath the trees, we watch the sky
confusing stars for satellites
i never dreamed that you'd be mine
but here we are, we're here tonight

singing Amen, i, i'm alive
singing Amen, i, i'm alive

if everyone cared and nobody cried
if everyone loved and nobody lied
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died

and i'm singing amen

amen i, Amen i, i'm alive
amen i, Amen i, Amen i, i'm alive

and in the air the fireflies
our only light in paradise
we'll show the world they were wrong
and teach them all to sing along

singing Amen, i, i'm alive
singing Amen, i, i'm alive
(i'm alive)

and as we lie beneath the stars
we realize how small we are
if they could love like you and me
imagine what the world could be

if everyone cared and nobody cried
if everyone loved and nobody lied
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died
when nobody died..

we'd see the day, we'd see the day
when nobody died
we'd see the day, we'd see the day
when nobody died
we'd see the day when nobody died
-Nickleback

IF.

WTF! WTF!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

College senior Kyla Berry was looking forward to voting in her first presidential election, even carrying her voter registration card in her wallet. "Vote suppression is real. It does sometimes happen," said Daniel P. Tokaji, a law professor at Ohio State University. But about two weeks ago, Berry got disturbing news from local election officials. "This office has received notification from the state of Georgia indicating that you are not a citizen of the United States and therefore, not eligible to vote," a letter from the Fulton County Department of Registration and Elections said. But Berry is a U.S. citizen, born in Boston, Massachusetts. She has a passport and a birth certificate to prove it. Watch some of the concerns of voting experts » The letter, which was dated October 2, gave her a week from the time it was dated to prove her citizenship. There was a problem, though -- the letter was postmarked October 9. "It was the most bizarre thing. I immediately called my mother and asked her to send me my birth certificate, and then I was like, 'It's too late, apparently,' " Berry said.

Berry is one of more than 50,000 registered Georgia voters who have been "flagged" because of a computer mismatch in their personal identification information. At least 4,500 of those people are having their citizenship questioned and the burden is on them to prove eligibility to vote. Experts say lists of people with mismatches are often systematically cut, or "purged," from voter rolls. It's a scenario that's being repeated all across the country, with cases like Berry's raising fears of potential vote suppression in crucial swing states.

Ed.note: Here we are again. Every four years the Republicans come up with the same 'October surprise' of removing from the voter rolls as many as possible of the people likely to vote for the Democratic presidential candidate. Because a majority of the federal judges are Republican appointees, the Republican election officials tend to get away with this illegal activity.
(from www.techamok.com)

kite runner

one of the best i read this year. i really must recommend it. i am not really a fan of fiction like this. i prefer sci-fi or fantasy. but i am glad i bought this book. it's been a while since a book evoked so many types of emotions.

we all have demons, do we dare to face them?

for you, a thousand times over.

who i am

and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything seems like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know your alive

and i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am
-Goo Goo Dolls

something's wrong.

mixed

after pesta i just felt abit lost. i tried and did ok, but not enough for myself.

it feels like i have had enough. things are not going to get better. i am not getting anywhere. i am tired.

i don't know what's next..just getting by.

angel

spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day

i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
i'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear

you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack

it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness
oh this glorious sadness
that brings me to my knees

in the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear

you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
-Sarah McLachlan

love

if you judge people, you don't have time to love them.

if you can't feed a hundred people, then feed just one.

i have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.

-Mother Teresa

for whom the bell tolls

blackened roar massive roar fills the crumbling sky
shattered goal fills his soul with a ruthless cry
stranger now, are his eyes, to this mystery
he hears the silence so loud
crack of dawn, all is gone except the will to be
now they will see what will be, blinded eyes to see
-Metallica

keeping the..

you're a falling star, you're the get away car.
you're the line in the sand when i go too far.
you're the swimming pool, on an august day.
and you're the perfect thing to say.

and you play your card, but it's kinda cute.
when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
cause you can see it when i look at you.

faith

and i feel just like i'm living
someone else's life
it's like i just stepped outside
when everything was going right
and i know just why you could not come along with me
this was not your dream
but you always believed in me..

bzzt!

and i don´t want the world to see me
cause i don´t think that they´d understand
when everything´s made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am

and you can´t fight the tears that ain´t coming
or the moments of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies
and you bleed just to know you´re alive.

scared..but keeping faith.

wishing..

wishing you were somehow here again..
wishing you were somehow near..
sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed,
somehow you would be here..

for the moment

we're nothin' to you but we're the fuckin' shit in they eyes
that's why we seize the moment try to freeze it and own it, squeeze it and
hold it
cause we consider these minutes golden
and maybe they'll admit it when we're gone
just let our spirits live on, through our lyrics that you hear in our
songs and we can...

{c'mon}, sing with me, {sing}, sing for the years
{sing it}, sing for the laughter, sing for the tears, {c'mon)
sing it with me, just for today, maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you
away...
-Eminem

seriously

germany is lucky it's not more than 1 - 0.

the defence is like shit..run after striker half way then slow down or stop..wtm.

always make mistakes and leave players unmarked at all..then still don'w run to chase..leave it up to strikers to come back and help..

suck la.

euro2008

i like and support germany. but after watching the past few games..i don't really see how germany can stop spanish attacks.

it'll be tough for germany to win..unless there's some sudden improvement on german defence.

wonderwall

today is gonna be the day
that they're gonna throw it back to you
by now you should've somehow
realized what you gotta do
i don't believe that anybody
feels the way i do about you now

backbeat the word was on the street
that the fire in your heart is out
i'm sure you've heard it all before
but you never really had a doubt
i don't believe that anybody feels
the way i do about you now

and all the roads we have to walk along are winding
and all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that i would
like to say to you
i don't know how

because maybe
you're gonna be the one who saves me ?
and after all
you're my wonderwall

today was gonna be the day?
but they'll never throw it back to you
by now you should've somehow
realized what you're not to do
i don't believe that anybody
feels the way i do
about you now

and all the roads that lead to you were winding
and all the lights that light the way are blinding
there are many things that i would like to say to you
i don't know how

i said maybe
you're gonna be the one who saves me ?
and after all
you're my wonderwall

i said maybe
you're gonna be the one who saves me ?
and after an
you're my wonderwall

said maybe
you're gonna be the one that saves me
you're gonna be the one that saves me
you're gonna be the one that saves me
-Oasis

Suck-Hub

what the F!?!? starhub? SUCKHUB!

the second half of the match was disrupted for like 15-20mins. we pay to watch 'LIVE' match and got cut. cannot even hold a connection..no wonder losing customers.

they better compensate us. else..i'll burn paper figures of their boss..!! or beat my pillow in agony..!!

singapore should allow for more competition in the market..to drive better services and pricing. like our mobile providers..at least that's something.

KNS.

at least germany won..else i'll turn green and smash the ground and clap loudly..!!

Carl Sagan

if you want to make an apple pie from scratch..
you must first create the universe.

love song for a Savior

in open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
she thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
as close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,

"i want to fall in love with You"

sitting silent wearing sunday best
the sermon echoes through the walls
a great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

it seems too easy to call you "Savior",
not close enough to call you "God"
so as i sit and think of words i can mention
to show my devotion

"I want to fall in love with You"

"my heart beats for You"
-Jars of Clay

Lord, my God, i thank thee for this day's trials and victories. for they each make us more than we were yesterday.

heh

seems like germany picked itself up somewhat and had a great game against portugal.

i was quite skeptical that germany could win. but in the end they played like germans always do. normally suddenly deadly.

i like it.*daryl's voice*

been quite sian about stuff lately. no idea what to do. things are meeting resistance in a few areas. nothing critical as yet..just..sianZ.

shall keep the faith and do what i can do.

the Lord is my shepard, i shall not be in want.

testify to love

all the colors of the rainbow
all of voices of the wind
every dream that reaches out
that reaches out to find where love begins
every word of every story
every star in every sky
every corner of creation lives to testify

for as long as i shall live
i will testify to love
i'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
with every breath i take i will give thanks to God above
for as long as i shall live
i will testify to love

from the mountains to the valleys
from the rivers to the sea
every hand that reaches out
every hand that reaches out to offer peace
every simple act of mercy
every step to kingdom come
all the Hope in every heart will speak what love has done
-Avalon

shucks!

germany lost..sian..

lousy defence. lousier ref..

toilet adventure

finally something somewhat about my life.

this afternoon, i went to city link's toilet. was surprised that the male toilet is full, i needed to release some solid toxic material, but i had to ferment it somemore while i waited for a empty bomb hole.

the first door opened and out came a guy around mid-20s. i moved forward, eager to unload my unwanted cargo. BUT! the door closed back and the lock thingy turned to occupied! then the guy turn and spoke to me. 'there's someone still inside.', calmly. i was shocked for a moment and moved back to my waiting place at the corner of the toilet. shocked.

lucky for me another door opened soon and thankfully, no one was still inside after it ejected one occupant. therefore i proceed with my business.

i cannot understand how can there be someone still inside..unless it a pair of deprived men. or his kid, which i doubt as he seem too young. or..well..i don't know.

everything

you're a falling star, you're the get away car.
you're the line in the sand when i go too far.
you're the swimming pool, on an august day.
and you're the perfect thing to say.

and you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when i look at you.

and in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
it's you, it's you, you make me sing.
you're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

you're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
and you light me up, when you ring my bell.
you're a mystery, you're from outer space,
you're every minute of my everyday.

and i can't believe, uh that i'm your man,
and i get to kiss you baby just because i can.
whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
and you know that's what our love can do.

so, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
so, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

and in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
it's you, it's you, you make me sing.
you're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
you're every song, and i sing along.
'cause you're my everything.
yeah, yeah

so, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
so, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
-Michael Buble

faith

'there is a madness needed to touch the gods, yes. this is true. few mortals possess it, the willingness to step away from the protection of sanity. to walk into the wild wood of madness..'
-The Kindly Ones.

faith requires some leap into the unknown. so does love. and trust. sometiumes things don't work the way thet are suppose to. they are not logical. they don't follow expectations.

sanity. so mundane.

distinction

science is what you know, philosophy is what you don’t know.
-Bertrand Russell

i think this is quite close. i would rather say science is doing something you know to try to understand what you know you do not know. and philosophy is what you probably will not know.

word!

sunburns are clearly our body's way of telling us we need to hurry up and evolve some fucking armor plating or something.
-Tim Buckley

heroes

true heroism is remarkably sober, very undramatic. it is not the urge to surpass all others at whatever cost, but the urge to serve others at whatever cost.
-Arthur Ashe

beyond. again.

遠方　有一個地方
那裡種有我們的夢想
某天　也許會相遇
相遇在這個好地方

不要太擔心　只因為我相信
終會走過這條遙遠的道路

OH PARA - PARADISE 是否那麼重要
你是否那麼地遙遠

可惜　我們的故鄉
放不下我們的理想
好嗎　想問你一下
告訴我外面的世界
-Beyond

pangea day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KfXlISY6L0

another for america

http://www.zmag.org/zmag/viewArticle/17499

logic and sound understanding of what they are actually doing is so out of fashion in some parts of the world.(*cough*usa*cough*)

that's why democracy is a big farce in many parts of the world.

watch this.

even if it's the only online clip you'll watch today.

http://www.theonion.com/content/video/diebold_accidentally_leaks

rant

i need to rant. i don't know what else to do.

i cannot get my mind on anytihng proper.

i feel like running till i drop..walking till i get lost. being in pain till i die.

only when i am lost and my life is empty do this blog seems a solace. for it is where i can rant. where i know not many will read. where i can rty to put the pain and emptiness into words and make them more real. more than they already am. so that somehow i can understand it better.

but it's as temporal as time. it's there. it happens. but what is it? why does it happen? why can't i do something about it?

i wish i had not head..then i cannot think..if i had no heart then it won't be empty. emptied by myself!

those who have loved and lost...knows what i mean. those who don't. i wish you have the good God's graces to not experience it.

sleepless

yeah..been a while since i've been like this. didn't have a reason to. pretty nice and calm life. going on and going somewhere.

now..not really going anywhere. at least nowhere that i want to go.

somewhere in me..i wanted to get drunk. really really drunk for the first time in my life..get myself so wacked that i wouldn't know if i was a boy or a girl. but then..something else told me not to get stupider. that's the idea. stay away from it. stay sober. be good. and i did. watched an incredibly interesting show with a total of TWO actors. then took a bus home. read a book. and now pretty awake.

and still feeling empty.

i don't know if things are going to get better. i can only pray and hope and wish and really really want it to happen. though what i want have no effect on reality, as things have proven in the past.

i know i can and will get better. but in some ways i don't want to get better. i want to mope. i want to be sad. i want to have enough of my own nonsense. i miss her. i love her. i want to miss and love her. for the rest of my life. that's what i want.

still..i don't know what'll happen. i've been a fool and lucky. and not so lucky..but still a fool.

i think i am going nuts. i feel like dying. in shame. in grief. in a bad way. in a car crash. i thought about it. i'd rob a cabby, drive myself into a wall. literally. pretty simple. quick. and quite sure of dismise.

but that's that.

i hope it's not over. that i can make up for it somehow. that i can make my words come true and keep my promise. i want to make things beautiful and nice. simple and solid. if i get the chance.

God..in your mercy..hear my prayers.

miserable

as miserable as i expect it to be.

only solace was when i was in church when i was focused on God's word. and when i was reading, in church grounds.

after talking to a church staff, i volunteered to be an usher for a day per month for the 5pm service. i guess, i really should start serving.

a pastorial staff came up and talked to me today. just before service. did i look that bothered? or was God providing for my needs? i believe the latter. after service i had a little talk with the staff. there's not much i can do. only pray. Thank you God. Thank you David.

i keep saying it. i mean it alot. i always meant it. i love you, dear. i love you and you are dear to me. i am sorry.

empty

wishing you were somehow here again..
wishing you were somehow near..
-Phantom Of The Opera

why did it happen again?

the mexican

Look, when two people love each other, totally, truthfully, all the way love each other, the answer to that questionis simple, especially in your case. When do you get to that point where enough is enough?

Never.

Never.

i keep thinking about this few lines in this show i watch many years ago.

i am boy and a man. both stupid and a jerk.

would i feel hurt if the roles are reversed? yes. all this while, all these things, all these nonsense..would i still believe? i cannot truthfully answer, i am not under the same stress and position. i think i will still believe. i think. why? i never want to give up. perhaps i am stupid. or just saying cause it's easy to say. i don't know..really. i believe i would carry on.

i am lost. i don't really know myself. i want to do this and want to do that. what is more important? i never think. i just did as things came along.

regrets?yes.
pain?yes.
anything i can do now?no. all in God's hand.

sorry doesn't cut it. but it's all i have now. sorry.

i beg for anothing chance. forgive me. once more. one last chance.
i miss you..dear. <3

space

for rant.

that's what this blog start out as and now it shall be again.

i love how the french wants to outlaw some stuff.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080415/ap_on_he_me/france_anorexia;_ylt=AlEdFnpacw_av4Hf5oUjbH2s0NUE

so..tibet is slowly starting to fade from world view..slowly.
there are human-rights abuses almost everywhere. why did tibet suddenly become a hot topic? the exile-government. political hounds or chameleon.
IF the west are so concerned, why don't they start doing something about US and the self-admited torture of prisoners? what about the abuse in Saudi, that's been going on for so many years?
politics and money. nothing's new i guess. same old rot-gut world.

not much new in my life. coaching, trying to shoot. trying to save up to study. getting tired and feeling old. nothing new here too..

move along.. ..

Earth in crisis

http://www.physorg.com/news126761406.html

and of course there are some who value money more than anything else in the world, who tries to mislead policy makers and governments about it.

In God We Trust

http://www.slashfilm.com/2008/02/25/cool-stuff-jason-reitmans-short-film-in-god-we-trust/

nice watch.

emotions

just feels..tired, moody, angry, depressed, listless, aimless, dejected.. .. ..

don't know why. wound up too tight? tired?

seems like whatever i do is so pointless. i cannot do anything well. don't know what's to come. cannot help anything.

sad and feeling lonely.

me.

The Portait of the Counselor (INFJ)

The Counselor Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and enterprising and attentive in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people.

Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known a Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.

Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another's emotions or intentions -- good or evil -- even before that person is conscious of them. This "mind-reading" can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others' feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance.
-http://keirsey.com

Introverted iNtuiting Feeling Judging
by Marina Margaret Heiss

INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.

INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates." While instinctively courting the personal and organizational demands continually made upon them by others, at intervals INFJs will suddenly withdraw into themselves, sometimes shutting out even their intimates. This apparent paradox is a necessary escape valve for them, providing both time to rebuild their depleted resources and a filter to prevent the emotional overload to which they are so susceptible as inherent "givers." As a pattern of behavior, it is perhaps the most confusing aspect of the enigmatic INFJ character to outsiders, and hence the most often misunderstood -- particularly by those who have little experience with this rare type.

Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).

This empathy can serve as a classic example of the two-edged nature of certain INFJ talents, as it can be strong enough to cause discomfort or pain in negative or stressful situations. More explicit inner conflicts are also not uncommon in INFJs; it is possible to speculate that the causes for some of these may lie in the specific combinations of preferences which define this complex type. For instance, there can sometimes be a "tug-of-war" between NF vision and idealism and the J practicality that urges compromise for the sake of achieving the highest priority goals. And the I and J combination, while perhaps enhancing self-awareness, may make it difficult for INFJs to articulate their deepest and most convoluted feelings.

Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. Since in addition they often possess a strong personal charisma, INFJs are generally well-suited to the "inspirational" professions such as teaching (especially in higher education) and religious leadership. Psychology and counseling are other obvious choices, but overall, INFJs can be exceptionally difficult to pigeonhole by their career paths. Perhaps the best example of this occurs in the technical fields. Many INFJs perceive themselves at a disadvantage when dealing with the mystique and formality of "hard logic", and in academic terms this may cause a tendency to gravitate towards the liberal arts rather than the sciences. However, the significant minority of INFJs who do pursue studies and careers in the latter areas tend to be as successful as their T counterparts, as it is *iNtuition* -- the dominant function for the INFJ type -- which governs the ability to understand abstract theory and implement it creatively.

In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology. Their systems may for these reasons be conceptually "blurrier" than analogous NT ones, harder to measure in strict numerical terms, and easier to take for granted -- yet it is these same underlying reasons which make the resulting contributions to society so vital and profound.

choice

living just by our intuition would be difficult, and even dangerous -- our intuition can be wrong. for example, if you approach a lion's cage at the zoo, you may make an intuitive judgment about the lion on the other side of the glass. perhaps you noticed something about the lion's demeanor that puts you at ease. the intuition that he's a friendly lion, coupled with the urge to pet him because he's fluffy, may lead you to climb into the cage -- despite everything you've ever cognitively learned about the ferocity and danger of lions. as the lion devoured you, you would learn that your intuition led you astray.

the converse is also true, however. living a life based only on rational, deliberate examination is no better than living by intuition alone. locking eyes with a total stranger across a crowded room and feeling a jolt of emotion is highly irrational. you've never spoken to this person and know absolutely nothing about him beyond his superficial appearance. depending only on your rational mind, you may allow the moment to pass and miss the opportunity to meet the person you could have spent the rest of your life with.

so when should you rely on your intuition? when it comes to approaching a lion's cage, swearing at work or encountering the love of your life, how do you know when intuition can serve you best? only your intuition can tell you that.
-HowStuffWorks

MPAA

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-559517494445537267&q=this+film+is+not+yet+rated&total=214&start=0&num=10&so=0&type=search&plindex=0

*the link is to a movie about the MPAA and it's rating system. IT'S NOT SAFE FOR WORK. it have sexual explicit scenes. Watch it at your own discretion.

certainly quite revealing about who controls american culture to some extend.

broadway..oh yeah!

Teen boy: Mom, are you sure that woman isn't the same as the one in Phantom of the Opera?
Mom: I'm sure. It's a different actress.
Teen boy: Because it's that same loud-ass style of singing.
Mom: Broadway singing.
Teen boy: Yeah. Really loud-ass singing. I wonder where the school is for that.

--Tarzan intermission

heh.

Distraught girl: Is there an 'I' in 'relationship'?
Guy: [Silence.]
Distraught girl: Well, is there?!
Guy: Um... There's two, actually...
Distraught girl: God... You're so selfish! You just don't understand me.!

let us see..

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
A.

2) What was your dream growing up?
A.

3) What talent do you wish you had?
A.

4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
A.

5) Favorite vegetable?
A.

6) What was the last book you read?
A.

7) What zodiac sign are you?
A.

8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
A.

9) Worst Habit?
A.

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A.

11) What is your favorite sport?
A.

12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
A.

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
A.

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A.

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
A.

16) Do you have any pets?
A.

17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
A.

18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)
A.

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A.

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
A.

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A.

22) What color eyes do you have?
A.

23) Ever been arrested?
A.

24) Bottle or can soda?
A.

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
A.

27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
A.

28) Do you believe in ghosts?
A.

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
A.

30) Do you swear a lot?
A.

31) Biggest pet peeve?
A.

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
A.

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
A.

35) Do you believe in God?
A.

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
A.

Stephen Hawkins.

10. "Einstein was wrong when he said "God does not play dice". Consideration of black holes suggests, not only that God does play dice, but that He sometimes confuses us by throwing them where they can't be seen."

9. "I have noticed even people who claim everything is predestined, and that we can do nothing to change it, look before they cross the road."

8. "My goal is simple. It is a complete understanding of the universe, why it is as it is and why it exists at all."

7. "I find that American & Scandinavian accents work better with women." In response to a question about the American accent of his synthesiser.

6. "Someone told me that each equation I included in the book would halve the sales. In the end, however, I did put in one equation, Einstein's famous equation, E = mc2. I hope that this will not scare off half of my potential readers."

5. "My expectations were reduced to zero when I was 21. Everything since then has been a bonus."

4. "To show this diagram properly, I would really need a four dimensional screen. However, because of government cuts, we could manage to provide only a two dimensional screen."

3. "Life would be tragic if it weren't funny."

2. "The whole history of science has been the gradual realization that events do not happen in an arbitrary manner, but that they reflect a certain underlying order, which may or may not be divinely inspired."

1. "Eternity is a very long time, especially towards the end."

considered to be one of the most intelligent person alive at the moment. his life is an inspiration to live life and fight no matter your circumstances. to contribute in whatever ways you can to the world as a whole.

under my skin

i've got you under my skin
i've got you deep in the heart of me
so deep in my heart, that you're really a part of me
i've got you under my skin

i've tried so not to give in
i've said to myself this affair never will go so well
but why should I try to resist, when baby will i know than well
that i've got you under my skin

i'd sacrifice anything come what might
for the sake of having you near
in spite of a warning voice that comes in the night
and repeats, repeats in my ear

don't you know you fool, you never can win
use your mentality, wake up to reality
but each time i do, just the thought of you
makes me stop before I begin
cause i've got you under my skin
-Frank Sinatra

wind of change

i follow the Moskva
down to Gorky Park
listening to the wind of change
an august summer night
soldiers passing by
listening to the wind of change

the world is closing in
did you ever think
that we could be so close, like brothers
the future's in the air
i can feel it everywhere
blowing with the wind of change

take me to the magic of the moment
on a glory night
where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change

walking down the street
distant memories
are buried in the past forever
i follow the Moskva
down to Gorky Park
listening to the wind of change

take me to the magic of the moment
on a glory night
where the children of tomorrow share their dreams
with you and me
take me to the magic of the moment
on a glory night
where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change

the wind of change
blows straight into the face of time
like a stormwind that will ring the freedom bell
for peace of mind
let your balalaika sing
what my guitar wants to say

take me to the magic of the moment
on a glory night
where the children of tomorrow share their dreams
with you and me
take me to the magic of the moment
on a glory night
where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change
-Scorpions

new things in the mill. apprehensive. worried. but one does have to get out into the uncomfortable to grow.

one way to get the most out of life isto look upon it as an adventure.
-William Feather

let's go.

hmm..

The Five Love Languages
Your primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.


Complete set of results
Quality Time: 10
Physical Touch: 8
Acts of Service: 6
Words of Affirmation: 6
Receiving Gifts: 0

come!

be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better man.
-Benjamin Franklin