i think my writing have gone seriously kaput.
when i read my older writings and stuff, it seems as if i could possibly improve on that and be happy.now when i writ anything it feels so difficult to get a good flow and present ideas well. it's like there was something that just allows the words to come and form up nicely that conjures the image that i want to present. i find it hard to do that now.
i have read more and listened more. something else have changed.
maybe i am tired from work. all the paper work and mountains of forms from the ssc is making me dull.
maybe i am just more theoretical and abstract. like i can think and imagine more complex stuff but my vocab and language skills are lacking and is letting me down.
maybe, i just never had it in me to write any better. i just had a few good nights to type out things that i think fit what i feel.
maybe i am just less inclined to put things out in words. it's like, the passion for expressing is not there anymore. i feel it and deal with it. there is less need to put it all out.
maybe i just need to drink more whiskey then start writing..=)
anyway..will attempt to write more and find my style, however good or bad it is. i do enjoy writing stuff and putting ideas into words, just need to get down to it, make it a habit and practice.
even talented people need to practice to sharpen their skills to be a master. much less to say about me without much talent.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
mess
my room is a huge mess. so much work stuff all over the place.
my life is abit of a mess. so many thigns to do, so little time. so many choices, so little freedom. so tired..so little peace of mind.
work is..tiring. under paid and over work is the norm in developed countries? other than those high flyers, we the gears, grind and turn and work the machine without much appreciation.
modern life. bleah.
there are things to look forward to..just sometimes other things loom so large that they block out the good things in life. maybe cause i do not know how to see them or to stay focus..?
asking why is pretty much useless. all there is left to ask is 'when'?
my life is abit of a mess. so many thigns to do, so little time. so many choices, so little freedom. so tired..so little peace of mind.
work is..tiring. under paid and over work is the norm in developed countries? other than those high flyers, we the gears, grind and turn and work the machine without much appreciation.
modern life. bleah.
there are things to look forward to..just sometimes other things loom so large that they block out the good things in life. maybe cause i do not know how to see them or to stay focus..?
asking why is pretty much useless. all there is left to ask is 'when'?
Saturday, August 22, 2009
polar
extremes.
there are two things i really want to do right now.
1 - sleep. hope i can fall asleep and rest well.
2 - i want to go on a massacre. there seems to be more people getting on my 'if there is no law..' list.
oh well..it's not like i am angry at them. it's just that they are threat to stability of the society as a general thing and that they do not care. if they do not care and use the law to protect them from harm while causing harm lawfully, then it makes me want to do something about it.
anyway..sleepZ.
there are two things i really want to do right now.
1 - sleep. hope i can fall asleep and rest well.
2 - i want to go on a massacre. there seems to be more people getting on my 'if there is no law..' list.
oh well..it's not like i am angry at them. it's just that they are threat to stability of the society as a general thing and that they do not care. if they do not care and use the law to protect them from harm while causing harm lawfully, then it makes me want to do something about it.
anyway..sleepZ.
maybe..
if i wasn't so beat i'll post something more meaningful.
but for now..i need to rest for the long weekend....
but for now..i need to rest for the long weekend....
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
ha ha ha.
reaching for the stars is like reaching for breast.
getting there doesn't means that you'll be welcome.
-asofterworld.com
getting there doesn't means that you'll be welcome.
-asofterworld.com
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Friday, August 07, 2009
short trip
had a rather fruitful trip.
both in terms of building myself and relating to others. learned some stuff and hopefully, helped people.
good thing we came back when we did. now all flights grounded and flooded around there.
God provides, guides and shelters.
both in terms of building myself and relating to others. learned some stuff and hopefully, helped people.
good thing we came back when we did. now all flights grounded and flooded around there.
God provides, guides and shelters.
Saturday, August 01, 2009
the troublemaker
the mouth is. or in this age, the fingers as well.
what we say or type can create alot of trouble.
Mat 15:17 Do not ye yet understand, that whatsoever entereth in at the mouth goeth into the belly, and is cast out into the draught?
Mat 15:18 But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man.
Mat 15:19 For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies:
Mat 15:20 These are [the things] which defile a man: but to eat with unwashen hands defileth not a man.
i remember i heard in a sermon we should always watch what we say to others. as our words can heal or can kill. before saying something, think, 'Is it necessary?', 'Will it harm others?'
i think many of us can learn to speak less and think about what comes out of our mouths. for me, i try but still fall short. every night as i take stock, i find that i still say many unfruitful things and even harmful thing.
shall attempt to be more careful. speak things that give aid to others, that adds to people and make us better.
is it too high an aim?
what we say or type can create alot of trouble.
Mat 15:17 Do not ye yet understand, that whatsoever entereth in at the mouth goeth into the belly, and is cast out into the draught?
Mat 15:18 But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man.
Mat 15:19 For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies:
Mat 15:20 These are [the things] which defile a man: but to eat with unwashen hands defileth not a man.
i remember i heard in a sermon we should always watch what we say to others. as our words can heal or can kill. before saying something, think, 'Is it necessary?', 'Will it harm others?'
i think many of us can learn to speak less and think about what comes out of our mouths. for me, i try but still fall short. every night as i take stock, i find that i still say many unfruitful things and even harmful thing.
shall attempt to be more careful. speak things that give aid to others, that adds to people and make us better.
is it too high an aim?
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