moments

sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
sing with me, just for today
maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away
-Eminem, Sing for the Moment

taking moments as they come. living life as God have given me.
though i fear..i'll go on. i love you.

leader?

had a good peacful day today.

went to church after shooting some. not doing too great, but will work it out. i know i can..sOo..not too worried.

anyway, after church went grabbed some fruits and bread and ate alone at the fountain at raffles city shopping center basement. was letting my mind wander and random thoughts flow in. slowly it collaced(coalesced?) into more substantial stuff.

was thinking about what it means to be a leader, in my idealistic mind.

learn.
teach.
empower.

i feel a leader must be able to learn at all times and improve. must be able to study and analyse every situation. be able to take comments and critiques and turn them into strengths. not only to learn new skills, but also to improve upon those already learnt and optimise them with input and feedback from whatever sources.

teach..more like educate. to be able to let someone learn a new skill or to think in a new way, to see things in a new light. then that person is made better, not only in terms of knowledge, but also in terms of ablity to learn and think. to learn something new is always a good thing, i feel.

after learning and passing the on whatever you can, i feel that one must empower those you taught to handle themselves. to be put in life context and let them use the skills and knowledge they learn. then when they truely use the skills or knowledge they learnt, they have really grown with the skills or knowledge.

rant rant rant

well..some thoughts that occupied my mind while having my solitude dinner.

then saw this on a t-shirt..liked it.

not all who wander are lost.

it's part of a longer thing that goes .. .. ..

all that is gold does not glitter,
not all those who wander are lost;
the old that is strong does not wither,
deep roots are not reached by the frost.
from the ashes a fire shall be woken,
a light from the shadows shall spring;
renenwed shall be blade that was broken,
the crownless again shall be king.
-J.R.R. Tolkien, Lord of the Rings.

i cannot find words to express what i am feeling now.
hopeful, recharged, at peace, eager for things to come, willing to help others find their way.

not as clear as i hope to be..but well..here are my thoughts for this particularly interesting sunday.=)

more theft

" ...it is not the critic who counts, not the one who points out how the strong man stumbled or how the doer of deeds might have done them better. the credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred with sweat and dust and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause; and who, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat... "
- theodore rossevelt(i don't think it polite to call him teddy)

then go to monique's blog for some good quotes.

life..come what may. i am me.

stolen from aishah

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds,

'What does love mean?'

The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.

See what you think.

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."- Karl - age 5

"Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you dont yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings."- Samantha - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when youre tired."- Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."- Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."- Emily - age 8

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."- Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." -Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasnt scared anymore." - Cindy - age 8

"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken." - Elaine - age 5

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." - Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." -Lauren - age 4

"I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. -Bethany - age 4

"Love is when mommy sees daddy on the toilet and she doesnt think its gross." - Mark - age 6

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and ! little stars come out of you." - Karen - age 5

rock them joints

you're serioussss..

no kiddingggg..

heh..private jokes eh people? haha..

cool shit went down today..
we hit the ground running..
stretched our asses and whacked theirs..
jumped up, jumped up and got down..

finally we rocked them joints..!!

thank yous for being RoXXoRs..!!and thank you for being there..=)

recover

from so many things that have bugged me..

depression
shooting problems
people problems
work problems

it doesn't take anything substantial..it takes faith, trust and love.

learning to lead life better and give back. God hears and provides. He loves.

i have things in my life now that i cherish alot. problems come and go..somethings stays for good. and those are what we should focus on. God, family, friends..all takes love to work.

nothing is truely impossible..miracles just takes abit longer.

quote

love is when someone hurts you and you get so mad but you dont yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings.
-from PJ's blog.

inspired

once again.

was walking in the national stadium..going for a talk there. looking at the stands..the lights..the display screens.

a feeling of pride and motivation rose up in me. felt as if i cannot fail..with the nation behind me. all i need to do..is to do what i do. nothing more.

almost everytime i go there i get this feeling. it makes me want to go the distance.

excellence, is never acheived in moderation.

FITA

sucks. hoped for more. couldn't acheive.

mood : 2/10

tired and cracked.

where art thou?

you are where your heart is.

you are where you are.

you have to present in your life to do things and to be alive.

if where you are..is not where you are thinking about. you are in deep shit. kind of..

to fully experience life where and when you are..requires you to be in the moment. that's a mental thing. mean's you don't think about 'yesterday' or 'tomorrow'. but you think and be in the 'now'. only that way..then can you react and live the moment..

but hey..that's only my opinion. some people are fully capable of stumbling through life with their brains safely stored at home or wherever they left it at..maybe their ex's handbag or their old school classroom.

sOo..ask yourself from time to time..
where am i?
when am i?

SOS?

i am not a fireman. i am not a ambulance medic. i am not a healer or what shit.

i hate it when certain person do something stupid then i got to save everyone. it's a simple thing. a mistake. that happens again and again. and everyone unhappy. you think i happy meh? but in the end..who have to cover and help talk to everyone? me.

we are a family..i hope?

things are getting out of hand. shooting his own foot. i am not his anyone..he was my first coach. i do what i can without betraying myself. but..how long can i do this without going crazee..?

it's pure stupidity.

ain't enough

this is a complain post.

there isn't enough RESPECT these days.

respect for little things, big things, old things, simple things..certain things that were meant to be respected.

i respect the mob, gangs and such for one thing..they teach you to respect the rules, the under ground laws. if you don't, you might find yourself in a whole load of crap. rules serve a purpose..no matter you don't understand or accept. the rule in the world you live in demands respect. or at least it should. nowadays, if you ain't punished for it, no one cares. even you there's punishments for breaking the rules, people still have no respect, because they don't see the point of the rules. the repect is not for the rule, or the people punishing you..it's for the order it brings. rules are to keep everyone safe from certain things..to even out everyone's power..sort of.

imagine you break a rule..a minor one. and if you were the person who is at the recieving end of the rule break. say..you cheated in a deal..earn more moolahs..and got away with it. how would you feel if you are the person who lost out in the deal? yes..it's not you. but the rules are to make everyone play in a level playing field. if everyone cheats however whatever way there is..then all hell breaks lose. soon it'll just be anarchy.

so to make sure everyone deals fairly..you to others as well as the other way round..there are rules. and most of them deserve respect..cause they bring about security, fairness and to some extend, maybe negatively, conformity.

respect for friends. and people around. people who cares, will ask you what's wrong when they know you are not. and there ain't enough respect if you do not tell them. or let them know you'll be alright because you can handle it. they respect you enough to care. do you respect them enough to let them?

maybe i'm wrong.
maybe i'm just a weird person.
too old for my age and acting too young.

wondering

about some stuffs. heh.

watch the show fearless(huo yuan jia). i think it's a great show(8/10). not everyone's kind of show though. it' s like a moral-teaching kind. not sure if it's a true story..sure feels like it is. action scenes are alright..some are too unbelievable though. it's quite a sad show..but i feel it's balance. how he is paying for his sins, but at least he found his love and peace. life's like that sometimes..

oh..new email account. ken.archery@gmail.com
please use that from now on.=)

nothing much these days..trying to train..coach people..do work..normal. things are normal..not too great..not too bad..happy in a way..no not happy..content is more like it.

spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
i'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
-Sarah McLachlan

zone

'its like learning Archery;
eventually you reach the point where ideas are ended
and feelings forgotten,
and then you suddenly hit the target.'
-Ying-An

that's a very apt description of being in the zone.

a feeling that you spend a lifetime trying to acheive.
the harder you try..the further you are from it.
if you had it once..you want it again.
it's a moment of clarity..
a moment where you are nothing less and nothing more than in perfect balance.
let go and be in control..