unstable

been busy. tired. and feeling pretty down.

'helping' people out. inter-school competition organising comm..i am NOT. and yet ALL the paper work is done by me. and i am pretty sure it will screw up. yay. we'll s@@..cause i heard they made changes to the detailing without letting me know..therefore list will not tally. yay. boards are all moved and placed by mr lee. he too did most of the physical stuff with some help. the sucky thing? he and i are only suppose to be advising the new people to do things..not do things ourselves. why is this happening? cause they got work commitment..got other things on. then why the 'eff' you take up the project? people..wants credit..no want work. last time for me to do shit for others..been doing planning and executing competitions since i came out of army..enough is enough. people are so darn hard to please..it's as if the organiser owe them something. we do the work so you can come and comepte and maybe get medal..still treat us like slaves. some people are really arseholes.

been busy trying to prepare my new team. disappointed with them and myself. they are not performing as they should. not enough training time. not enough strength. not enough alternative trainings. not enough ken to help everyone. not spending quality time with each archer to ensure they know what to do. and there's so many things that they should know that i have not the time to teach properly. argh. i hate sending team out not prepared well enough to my standards. it's like sending my men out to the field without proper training and equipment. but..lesser evil than not letting them compete. considering everything, like their time available and my limitations..they are not too bad..but of course can be better. hai..bad situation in JC anyway..they are so busy with 10000000000000000 and 1 things to do. i can only do so much.

favors the prepare mind..chance does.

yoda-ised the famous louis pastour quote 'chance favors the prepared mind. taking up quite alot more duties than i should i feel. my 100% is not there for everythign i do anymore. too tired. i get down and short tempered when i am tired and cannot rest. when i get hungry..it gets worse. really got to work out my schedule properly so as to make sure i get enough rest..else i may just go around snapping at everyone. bzzt!

there is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread. -Mother Teresa

like the lyrics very much.=) kept me going sometimes when i am down and out.

'如果无意要俗世消失这个故事
就让大海失意陆地伤心飘移
放弃每日再开始
如果世界会尚有真心真意故事
就在我目光内滴下泪的当儿
告诉你你已看到一次
原来只要共你活一天
凡尘里一切再不挂念
原来海角天际亦会变
原来生过死过深爱亦无变
原来只要共你活一天
完全去把你所有都发现
原来只要相信便看见
原来给你真爱的我是无悔.. ..是每一天'-张学友