holding on

to..?

what can we really hold on to? i really wonder. thoughts are slightly confused, but i'll try to express what i feel as properly as i can.

people around us. how can we hold on to them? they got their own lives and own other things to do. i mean we all want to share time with someone else, maybe someone special, but what it all boils down to, is that everyone got their own lives to lead. even in marriage, each got a part to play, you cannot be spending 24/7 together and stay very sane i think.

and also, people die. we all must go sometime. and anytime. it's not up to any of us. when we go, we go. can you hold on to anything?

and lastly about people, sometimes it's like grasping sand. the more you try to hold, the more will slip away. perception and emotions and moods and all that. sometimes it feel like the more time you try to get together with someone, the worse the feeling becomes. and the less value the time becomes too. isn't it kind of weird. but yet makes sense..i think.

less time == time valuable.
many time == time less valuable in relation to above.
true? for most i would say true. most.

other than people around us that we have trouble holding on to, physical objects are totally not even a consideration. as they are objects and are simply too flimsy to give too much damn about. they spoil, they break, they get stolen, they simply screw up.

sOo..to me, it's like cherish things you have around now. but don't expect them to stay. things change, don't be holding on till you are hurt.

have, good.
don't have, oh well, was nice having it.

that's what i think anyway. live in the now..love what you have, and who you have.

be present to live your life, now.

another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
so make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
it's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.

so take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.
tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
for what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

it's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
i hope you had the time of your life.
-Greenday