Thursday, February 10, 2005

ticking

argh..it's chinese new year and i am feeling pissed off.

no idea why, really. it's like today was fine. cook lunch and ate and some relatives came over and talked some and hang out some. nothing much. then went over to monica's house with daryl and later tianfeng and andrew and clint and wei peng went too. played some tai tee. then after which on the way home, i felt pissed and angry. no idea why. was a pretty ok day i suppose..

it's like a deep seated anger. like the magma under a volcano. raging and waiting to come out.

feeling more lonely these days. being in the businese of helping people makes me more lonely i guess. letting people be who they are and helping them when they need. hope i am doing the right thing.

lots of interesting theories in constantine. should watch it with an open mind. if you are not open to more alternate concepts of god and heaven and hell, then stay the fuck away from it. i hope i don't get to listen to someone telling me that the show potrayal of thigns are wrong. it's a show.

what am i missing?

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