Sunday, August 15, 2004

phantom of the opera

when you wish, though you can't.

like time travel. conjured up a theory why we cannot and also why in the future they fail. it's like time and space are essentially the same, but absolute space is out of time. our time travels with our space because of gravity, but in real space we moved. and if the scientist are right, we are moving at rather neck-breaking speeds. so when people say built a time-travel machine and goes back or forward in time, they moved in time but not space. they appear in nowhere. or even worse, say a black hole or a quasar or a super nova going on or something like this. time travel may be possible, but it would be rather impossible to travel the distance earth have travelled. right? comments, queries, questions, complain?

anyway, there are always things we wish we could do. but we can't. still we try, like idiots. knowing it doomed to fail, we still cling on and trudge on. in the end we hurt not only ourselves. but possibly others as well. we blame thousands of things, because we are afraid to blame ourselves. to acknowledge that we are responsible for ourselves and our choices.

there are always choices. just some really hard ones.

had a rather ok day, coached archery. for love and of course my stomache. hanged out with friends for a good dinner then a show. tainted by events out of my reach. saddened by things beyond my control. wish i could make everything better, but it is not my place to do so. want to have something to hold on to, but i hold nothing. to let things go and be only one to watch. aww-yea, feel the pain you m****r-f**ker.

i've been through worse. others have been through worse. we'll survive. a few more scratches, a few more memories, a few more knocks and bruises and a little less faith.

knowing things i should not know. doing things i should not. feelings i should not have. should i? can i not? it's such, so it is and why not? things have come so far and yet nothing have gone. i'm sorry. for hurting. for being stupid. for not knowing myself better.

even if i could, i wouldn't. stop caring. though it may be i who will be left alone to hurt.

short-sighted-ken
lacking in foresight, or plain stubborn.

'..and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand..when everything's made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am..'-Goo Goo Dolls

2 comments:

Casey said...

Essentially, time travel involves much more than moving through time/being still in space. Let's say you get a shuttle and you remain near the event horizon of a black hole without getting sucked in. Physics law states that the nearer one is to a larger gravity, the slower time moves. However, we're still in the same space. So, in effect, the same time doesn't really travel with the same space near large gravity effects.

Haha. Sorry for the ramble. I've been interested in cosmology and hyperspace ever since young, and have conversed and debated with others who're studying this all over the world, plus being in astronomy club. So...hey, we can discuss this more. *grins*

ken said...

yes..as i mentioned being near a gravity well affects time and space. but when you time-travel, you do not space travel and that creates problems doesn't it? because in a gravity affected space/time you still carry on through absolute space, with the given velocity in relation to other space/time wells, gravity wells.

right?