fuel

been a hectic week. grateful for it in many ways.

the indonesian coach who came as a guest coach taught alot of things. formwork, physical training methods, mental work and all that jazz. to me the most important thing he taught us is that to love shooting is one thing, to fight to win is totally another story. i guess i was shooting with passion but not passion wnough to WANT to win. to want to win is easy, but to want to work for it to ensure you are capable is another. may seem strange to people reading this..but those who knows me, know that i am quite non-confrontational. so now i s@@ that to love shooting is not getting me anywhere, i have to want to get somewhere enough to work hard for it.

now my schedule is packed. everyday there is a purpose. no more hanging around not sure what to do. daily plans to get to where i want to go. strange..i knew all these, it's just like i did not know the true purpose of it all. wasted lots of time. now i go.

somewhat happy now. clearer as to what i want. still slightly empty, but i know thing will happen as they happen. let what comes, come.

renewed

'是谁偷偷 偷走我的心
不能分辨 黑夜或天明'-张学友