braveheart

every man dies, not every man really lives.

do you dare follow where your heart tells you to go? do you dare live your life the way you want it? dare to give up things you always enjoyed/wanted/relied on for something you dreamt of? life is short and unexpected. it have twists and turns that no one can s@@. do we live for the now and dare to go boldly where we want? or do we play safe and make safe guards as best as we can?

another day passes by..another year. still i seem stuck at this stage where i am not bad but not good enough. have some but not enough. i do my best, try my best. what else must i do?

i give when i can. do what i thnk best. treat people as best as i can. who am i really?

don't really know why i feeling down again. not really depressed..just kind of irritated at myself and feeling lost and lonely. tired.

some people i knew went to send supplies up to thailand. some people i know went indonesia as medical team. some people i know going thailand as medical team. some poeple i know couldn't care less. people.

by orders or by their own will most people reach out to give when tragady befalls. it's heartening to s@@ people unite and support each other in times of great needs. but as these efforts are made, there are already some in indonesia aceh who are back on political track to push for independence. violence right after being chastised by nature. blinded by reasoning? no longer loving and feeling. human, no more. so many of us humans are born human, but lost our humanity and compassion.

we all die. but who lived? are you living? am i living?

living-ken
alive and dying. but not dead yet.

'that long black cloud is comin' down..
i feel like i'm knockin' on heaven's door..'Bob Dylan