die hard

dead.

could have been better. could have been worse. life as it is again. feels hopeless. feels angry at myself. want to be more. want to be all i can.

but life place so much demands. i cannot be myself most of the time, doing what i want or just doing what i can. oft times have to do more. and more and more..

disappointed. could be so much more.

tired. totally out. 96 hours. i slept total less than 16 hours. so close to hallucianting..i can almost feel it.

out-ken
out to find ken.

'like a clown i put on a show..
the pain is real even if nobody knows..
now I'm cryin' inside..
and nobody knows it but me..'-Babyface