Angel

spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
i'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
-Sarah Mclachlan

Sports

Sport is singularly able to give us peak experiences where we feel completely with the world and transcend all conflicts as we finally become our potential.
-George A. Sheehan

Ulsan - Archery Wolrd Championships

news worthy!

singaporean archer rewrites national record at archery wolrd champs..!!

korean archers rewrites world record for 90m, FITA and team total score..!!

few more days to go..!

writing

i think my writing have gone seriously kaput.

when i read my older writings and stuff, it seems as if i could possibly improve on that and be happy.now when i writ anything it feels so difficult to get a good flow and present ideas well. it's like there was something that just allows the words to come and form up nicely that conjures the image that i want to present. i find it hard to do that now.

i have read more and listened more. something else have changed.

maybe i am tired from work. all the paper work and mountains of forms from the ssc is making me dull.

maybe i am just more theoretical and abstract. like i can think and imagine more complex stuff but my vocab and language skills are lacking and is letting me down.

maybe, i just never had it in me to write any better. i just had a few good nights to type out things that i think fit what i feel.

maybe i am just less inclined to put things out in words. it's like, the passion for expressing is not there anymore. i feel it and deal with it. there is less need to put it all out.

maybe i just need to drink more whiskey then start writing..=)

anyway..will attempt to write more and find my style, however good or bad it is. i do enjoy writing stuff and putting ideas into words, just need to get down to it, make it a habit and practice.

even talented people need to practice to sharpen their skills to be a master. much less to say about me without much talent.

mess

my room is a huge mess. so much work stuff all over the place.

my life is abit of a mess. so many thigns to do, so little time. so many choices, so little freedom. so tired..so little peace of mind.

work is..tiring. under paid and over work is the norm in developed countries? other than those high flyers, we the gears, grind and turn and work the machine without much appreciation.

modern life. bleah.

there are things to look forward to..just sometimes other things loom so large that they block out the good things in life. maybe cause i do not know how to see them or to stay focus..?

asking why is pretty much useless. all there is left to ask is 'when'?

polar

extremes.

there are two things i really want to do right now.

1 - sleep. hope i can fall asleep and rest well.

2 - i want to go on a massacre. there seems to be more people getting on my 'if there is no law..' list.

oh well..it's not like i am angry at them. it's just that they are threat to stability of the society as a general thing and that they do not care. if they do not care and use the law to protect them from harm while causing harm lawfully, then it makes me want to do something about it.

anyway..sleepZ.

maybe..

if i wasn't so beat i'll post something more meaningful.

but for now..i need to rest for the long weekend....

ha ha ha..

what a joke. on the forum.

if you know. you know. if not..oh well.

ha ha ha.

reaching for the stars is like reaching for breast.
getting there doesn't means that you'll be welcome.
-asofterworld.com

wow

short trip

had a rather fruitful trip.

both in terms of building myself and relating to others. learned some stuff and hopefully, helped people.

good thing we came back when we did. now all flights grounded and flooded around there.

God provides, guides and shelters.

the troublemaker

the mouth is. or in this age, the fingers as well.

what we say or type can create alot of trouble.

Mat 15:17 Do not ye yet understand, that whatsoever entereth in at the mouth goeth into the belly, and is cast out into the draught?
Mat 15:18 But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man.
Mat 15:19 For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies:
Mat 15:20 These are [the things] which defile a man: but to eat with unwashen hands defileth not a man.

i remember i heard in a sermon we should always watch what we say to others. as our words can heal or can kill. before saying something, think, 'Is it necessary?', 'Will it harm others?'

i think many of us can learn to speak less and think about what comes out of our mouths. for me, i try but still fall short. every night as i take stock, i find that i still say many unfruitful things and even harmful thing.

shall attempt to be more careful. speak things that give aid to others, that adds to people and make us better.

is it too high an aim?

grr

i hate my life. and myself. now.

shit loads of things to do and i am giving up my own things to help others.

i really want a break..but nowhere to be found yet.

will ask for one soon. soon.

we are all children

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQLfJG1hmcM&feature=related

Earth Song - Michael Jackson

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VqeADZgjtpY

what about sunrise
what about rain
what about all the things
that you said we were to gain
what about killing fields
is there a time
what about all the things
that you said was yours and mine
did you ever stop to notice
all the blood we've shed before
did you ever stop to notice
the crying Earth its weeping shores?

aaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaah

what have we done to the world
look what we've done
what about all the peace
that you pledge your only son
hat about flowering fields
is there a time
what about all the dreams
that you said was yours and mine
did you ever stop to notice
all the children dead from war
did you ever stop to notice
the crying Earth its weeping shores

aaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaah

i used to dream
i used to glance beyond the stars
now i don't know where we are
although i know we've drifted far

aaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaah
aaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaah

hey, what about yesterday (what about us)
what about the seas (what about us)
the heavens are falling down (what about us)
i can't even breathe (what about us)
what about Africans (what about us)
i ain't even you (what about us)
what about nature's worth (ooh ooh)
it's our planet's womb (what about us)

what about animals (what about it)
turned kingdoms to dust (what about us)
what about elephants (what about us)
have we lost their trust (what about us)
what about crying whales (what about us)
ravaging the seas (what about us)
what about forest trails (ooh ooh)
burnt despite our pleas (what about us)

what about the holy land (what about it)
torn apart by greed (what about us)
what about the common man (what about us)
can't we set him free (what about us)
what about children dying (what about us)
can't you hear them cry (what about us)
where did we go wrong (ooh ooh)
someone tell me why (what about us)

what about baby boy (what about it)
what about the days (what about us)
what about all their joy (what about us)
what about the man (what about us)
what about the crying man (what about us)
what about Abraham (what about us)
what about death again (ooh ooh)
do we give a damn?!?!
-Michael Jackson

Earth is too good for humans.

mind gym

The quality of a person's life is in direct proportion to their commitment to excellence, regardless of their chosen field. - Vince Lombardi

life changing

i wish.

life now is just freaking sad. i don't ever get to do what i want anymore.

raged against the 'some person you know'

what the fuck

i hate this shit.

people. people people. people people people.

we are all flawed. can't we just be more accepting and encouraging?

remove the log in your eye before removing the speck of dust in your brother's eye.