back from taiwan trip. pretty fun and relaxing. just too bad about my over-sight, abit sian about it. but..too bad.
been rather busy, as usual. trying to get things done. doing things that i want, hoping to be who i want to be.
lots of complains about the world in general, but over shadowed by the good thigns i have. sOo..i'll leave them out.
things happen as they happen. we..go on.
the Lord giveth..the Lord taketh away.
treasure what we have now, before we lose it. one way or another. eternity is not for mortals. i think probably no human can truely comprehand infinity and eternity. i think.
anyway..i'm pretty happy with life in gerneral. want to be more and get more, but that'll take time and a change in lifestyle. soon enough. as many tomorrows, as the Lord gives, with you.=)
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. PSA 23:5
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Thursday, May 10, 2007
from casey's..again.
life in general
it doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
i want to know what you ache for,
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
it doesn’t interest me how old you are.
i want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love,
for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
it doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
i want to know if you have touched the center of your sorrow.
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals,
or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.
i want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own,
without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.
i want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own.
if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic,
or to remember the limitations of being human.
it doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
i want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself,
if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own self.
i want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy.
i want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty everyday,
and if you can source your life from our Creator’s presence.
i want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine,
and still stand on the edge of a lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon, “yes!”
it doesn’t interest me where you live or how much money you have.
i want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair,
weary and bruised to the bone,
and do what needs to be done for the children.
it doesn’t interest me who you are, how you came to be here.
i want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me
and not shrink back.
it doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
i want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
i want to know if you can be alone with yourself,
and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
life..is not that simple anymore. but there are time, for all of us i believe, to want to be free and true, especially to ourselves.
when we can be with ourselves, truely..then we live more fully.
it doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
i want to know what you ache for,
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
it doesn’t interest me how old you are.
i want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love,
for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
it doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
i want to know if you have touched the center of your sorrow.
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals,
or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.
i want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own,
without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.
i want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own.
if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic,
or to remember the limitations of being human.
it doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
i want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself,
if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own self.
i want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy.
i want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty everyday,
and if you can source your life from our Creator’s presence.
i want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine,
and still stand on the edge of a lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon, “yes!”
it doesn’t interest me where you live or how much money you have.
i want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair,
weary and bruised to the bone,
and do what needs to be done for the children.
it doesn’t interest me who you are, how you came to be here.
i want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me
and not shrink back.
it doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
i want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
i want to know if you can be alone with yourself,
and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
life..is not that simple anymore. but there are time, for all of us i believe, to want to be free and true, especially to ourselves.
when we can be with ourselves, truely..then we live more fully.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
these days
jimmy shoes busted both his legs, trying to learn to fly
from a second story window, he just jumped and closed his eyes
his momma said he was crazy - he said momma i've got to try
don't you know that all my heroes died
and i guess i'd rather die than fade away
these days been busy with..alot of somethings. little bit here and little bit there. all my time taken up.
we have, but one lifetime here. do what we want and what we can, else all goes away darn fast.
trying for alot things that i want. doing what i can. finding what i can not enough. going to burn more i guess. try harder. try more.
pretty much satusfied with what i have now. have to build up for more, for the future. work work work. think of what else i can do to make thigns better.
for dreams of better tomorrows. =) with someone else..
that's it for now..not much of an update. but not much inspiration. whenever i think to blog it's all complains about how retarded peoplea re around. sOoo..shall not do that.
from a second story window, he just jumped and closed his eyes
his momma said he was crazy - he said momma i've got to try
don't you know that all my heroes died
and i guess i'd rather die than fade away
these days been busy with..alot of somethings. little bit here and little bit there. all my time taken up.
we have, but one lifetime here. do what we want and what we can, else all goes away darn fast.
trying for alot things that i want. doing what i can. finding what i can not enough. going to burn more i guess. try harder. try more.
pretty much satusfied with what i have now. have to build up for more, for the future. work work work. think of what else i can do to make thigns better.
for dreams of better tomorrows. =) with someone else..
that's it for now..not much of an update. but not much inspiration. whenever i think to blog it's all complains about how retarded peoplea re around. sOoo..shall not do that.
leap
"faith certainly tells us what the senses do not, but not the contrary of what they see; it is above, not against them."
-Blaise Pascal
those who experienced is, knows.
-Blaise Pascal
those who experienced is, knows.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Raymond Chandler
if i wasn’t hard, i wouldn’t be alive.
if i couldn’t ever be gentle, i wouldn’t deserve to be alive.
balance.
if i couldn’t ever be gentle, i wouldn’t deserve to be alive.
balance.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
qu ot e
"Those who would give up essential liberty to purchase a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety."
-Benjamin Franklin
-Benjamin Franklin
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Krazees
"Man is certainly crazy. He could not make a mite, and he makes gods by the dozen."
-Michel de Montaigne
-Michel de Montaigne
don't know.
why is everything so hard..?
i try..but fail. and try again. isn't there anything to be done right? done well?
is my heaven so far off?
i want simple things in life. but there's nothing simple anymore. i'm so tired. but still i want to try. i don't want to let go of thigns that i want.
why does it seems like it's ending?
i am tired. i want to breakdown and die. enough. i failed. i cannot get what i want at all. nothing.
dreams are not enough. love is not enough. passion is not enough. trying is not enough.
somehow something goes wrong all the time. i am tired. there's no help. i am tired.
i don't want to let go. but maybe it's not my choice anymore, at all.
i am tired, scared and going mad. i don't know anything. i just want to try to be my best. but there's nothing to be done. i'm done. finished.
i really don't know what's next.
i try..but fail. and try again. isn't there anything to be done right? done well?
is my heaven so far off?
i want simple things in life. but there's nothing simple anymore. i'm so tired. but still i want to try. i don't want to let go of thigns that i want.
why does it seems like it's ending?
i am tired. i want to breakdown and die. enough. i failed. i cannot get what i want at all. nothing.
dreams are not enough. love is not enough. passion is not enough. trying is not enough.
somehow something goes wrong all the time. i am tired. there's no help. i am tired.
i don't want to let go. but maybe it's not my choice anymore, at all.
i am tired, scared and going mad. i don't know anything. i just want to try to be my best. but there's nothing to be done. i'm done. finished.
i really don't know what's next.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Kant
of the crooked timber of humanity, no straight thing can ever be made.
we are not made to be perfect, some less than others. still..we make do and go on.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
bad day
sometimes the system goes on the blink
and the whole thing turns out wrong
you might not make it back and you know
that you could be well oh that strong
and i'm not wrong
when you are down, that's when you know you want to be better.
when you are feeling trapped, that's when you find out strong you can be.
when you are lost, that's when you need someone to show you the way.
well you need a blue sky holiday
and the whole thing turns out wrong
you might not make it back and you know
that you could be well oh that strong
and i'm not wrong
when you are down, that's when you know you want to be better.
when you are feeling trapped, that's when you find out strong you can be.
when you are lost, that's when you need someone to show you the way.
well you need a blue sky holiday
Monday, January 08, 2007
Sunday, January 07, 2007
007 + 2000
really quite bad start to the year. rather demoralising.
but..as always. i will pick it up and go on. what else is there to be done?
be better. that's what must be done. else i'll always be in this state of inadequacy. need to get off my arse and start working on improving. so many areas in my life can be improved upon.
the blog have become quite dead, due to the fact that perhaps i am more tolerant and don't get pissed or affected by things as much or as long. so by the time i get home everything is just normal. then there's no subject matter to blog about.
life..pretty much the same.. normal. most areas lacking. improvements to be made. work to be done.
just flipped open my bible and Pslams 77 catches my eyes.
[A Psalm of Asaph.] In the day of trouble i seek the Lord
i cried unto God with my voice, [even] unto God with my voice; and he gave ear unto me.
in the day of my trouble i sought the Lord: my sore ran in the night, and ceased not: my soul refused to be comforted.
i remembered God, and was troubled: i complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed.
thou holdest mine eyes waking: i am so troubled that i cannot speak.
i have considered the days of old, the years of ancient times.
i call to remembrance my song in the night: i commune with mine own heart: and my spirit made diligent search.
will the Lord cast off for ever? and will he be favourable no more?
is his mercy clean gone for ever? doth [his] promise fail for evermore?
hath God forgotten to be gracious? hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies?
and i said, this [is] my infirmity: [but i will remember] the years of the right hand of the most High.
i will remember the works of the LORD: surely i will remember thy wonders of old.
i will meditate also of all thy work, and talk of thy doings.
thy way, O God, [is] in the sanctuary: who [is so] great a God as [our] God?
thou [art] the God that doest wonders: thou hast declared thy strength among the people.
thou hast with [thine] arm redeemed thy people, the sons of Jacob and Joseph.
the waters saw thee, O God, the waters saw thee; they were afraid: the depths also were troubled.
the clouds poured out water: the skies sent out a sound: thine arrows also went abroad.
the voice of thy thunder [was] in the heaven: the lightnings lightened the world: the earth trembled and shook.
thy way [is] in the sea, and thy path in the great waters, and thy footsteps are not known.
thou leddest thy people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron.
learning to lean on your grace and strength, O Lord. forgive us our sins, lead us from temptations and deliver us.
re-focus and keep on going at our dreams. sometimes we need to rest for the better good in the long run.
aimless post..somewhat. oh well.
for you my dear --) <3 .
but..as always. i will pick it up and go on. what else is there to be done?
be better. that's what must be done. else i'll always be in this state of inadequacy. need to get off my arse and start working on improving. so many areas in my life can be improved upon.
the blog have become quite dead, due to the fact that perhaps i am more tolerant and don't get pissed or affected by things as much or as long. so by the time i get home everything is just normal. then there's no subject matter to blog about.
life..pretty much the same.. normal. most areas lacking. improvements to be made. work to be done.
just flipped open my bible and Pslams 77 catches my eyes.
[A Psalm of Asaph.] In the day of trouble i seek the Lord
i cried unto God with my voice, [even] unto God with my voice; and he gave ear unto me.
in the day of my trouble i sought the Lord: my sore ran in the night, and ceased not: my soul refused to be comforted.
i remembered God, and was troubled: i complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed.
thou holdest mine eyes waking: i am so troubled that i cannot speak.
i have considered the days of old, the years of ancient times.
i call to remembrance my song in the night: i commune with mine own heart: and my spirit made diligent search.
will the Lord cast off for ever? and will he be favourable no more?
is his mercy clean gone for ever? doth [his] promise fail for evermore?
hath God forgotten to be gracious? hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies?
and i said, this [is] my infirmity: [but i will remember] the years of the right hand of the most High.
i will remember the works of the LORD: surely i will remember thy wonders of old.
i will meditate also of all thy work, and talk of thy doings.
thy way, O God, [is] in the sanctuary: who [is so] great a God as [our] God?
thou [art] the God that doest wonders: thou hast declared thy strength among the people.
thou hast with [thine] arm redeemed thy people, the sons of Jacob and Joseph.
the waters saw thee, O God, the waters saw thee; they were afraid: the depths also were troubled.
the clouds poured out water: the skies sent out a sound: thine arrows also went abroad.
the voice of thy thunder [was] in the heaven: the lightnings lightened the world: the earth trembled and shook.
thy way [is] in the sea, and thy path in the great waters, and thy footsteps are not known.
thou leddest thy people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron.
learning to lean on your grace and strength, O Lord. forgive us our sins, lead us from temptations and deliver us.
re-focus and keep on going at our dreams. sometimes we need to rest for the better good in the long run.
aimless post..somewhat. oh well.
for you my dear --) <3 .
Sunday, December 31, 2006
another day..
the calender will go to 2007 in a few hours. it'll be just another day for me.
days are pretty much the same no matter the date on the calender. dawn to dusk. night to day. same amount of time in each day. we put importance into dates. i guess so that we can kind of remember the important things and people once in awhile.
anyway..the past year have been rather kind, all in all. thank God.
i'm still pretty much the same. but i have more to look forward to and to work for i guess. more to learn and to share. more to strive for and to live for. onwards..!
with God's grace, may the coming year be kind.
days are pretty much the same no matter the date on the calender. dawn to dusk. night to day. same amount of time in each day. we put importance into dates. i guess so that we can kind of remember the important things and people once in awhile.
anyway..the past year have been rather kind, all in all. thank God.
i'm still pretty much the same. but i have more to look forward to and to work for i guess. more to learn and to share. more to strive for and to live for. onwards..!
with God's grace, may the coming year be kind.
Monday, December 25, 2006
christmas 2006
today is christmas. a special day by any accounts. today i am to be baptised.
been preparing for it months ago. going through lessons. reading and thinking about the bible. what it means to me and do i believe.
i believe. i have felt God and i have faith.
past months have been normal in most sense. been happier, due to various reasons. but at the same time, i've been more stressed due to other reasons.
alot to rant about, but there's never enough time to bother. much have happened and i have changed much i feel.
but more about me another time.
today..we celebrate the birth of a King..! a God..! the birth..of our salvation..!
been preparing for it months ago. going through lessons. reading and thinking about the bible. what it means to me and do i believe.
i believe. i have felt God and i have faith.
past months have been normal in most sense. been happier, due to various reasons. but at the same time, i've been more stressed due to other reasons.
alot to rant about, but there's never enough time to bother. much have happened and i have changed much i feel.
but more about me another time.
today..we celebrate the birth of a King..! a God..! the birth..of our salvation..!
Friday, November 24, 2006
and of the greatest
if I give all i possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, i gain nothing.
1 Cor 13:3
1 Cor 13:3
Thursday, November 23, 2006
egypt
 Observant, authoritative, indulgent, moral and witty. Colors: male: green, female: turquoise Compatible Signs: Bastet, Geb Dates: July 29 - Aug 11, Oct 30 - Nov 7 Role: Goddess of war and vengeance Appearance: Lion-headed woman with the sun over her head Sacred Animal: lion Designed by CyberWarlock of Warlock's Quizzles and Quandaries |
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
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