don't know.

why is everything so hard..?

i try..but fail. and try again. isn't there anything to be done right? done well?

is my heaven so far off?

i want simple things in life. but there's nothing simple anymore. i'm so tired. but still i want to try. i don't want to let go of thigns that i want.

why does it seems like it's ending?

i am tired. i want to breakdown and die. enough. i failed. i cannot get what i want at all. nothing.

dreams are not enough. love is not enough. passion is not enough. trying is not enough.

somehow something goes wrong all the time. i am tired. there's no help. i am tired.

i don't want to let go. but maybe it's not my choice anymore, at all.

i am tired, scared and going mad. i don't know anything. i just want to try to be my best. but there's nothing to be done. i'm done. finished.

i really don't know what's next.