it's been quite some time since i was disappointed, angry, sad and at a lost, all at the same time, at myself.
responsibilities nearly doubled in the span of a week. school is starting soon. work is ramping up. back to my old position to manage hairless monkeys. trying to compete. trying to reach a new frontier. all while trying to stay sane at home.
i can't do all that, while being who i want to be. the question is, how much do i want to sacrifice for those things? would i feel it's worth it? am i thinking too much? i think i am thinking too much.
such a disappointment. making all the silly mistakes and over that, do not dare to make the necessary changes to improve. playing it small. angry.
i fail to become a hero of even my own story. maybe i'll end up being the villain.
responsibilities nearly doubled in the span of a week. school is starting soon. work is ramping up. back to my old position to manage hairless monkeys. trying to compete. trying to reach a new frontier. all while trying to stay sane at home.
i can't do all that, while being who i want to be. the question is, how much do i want to sacrifice for those things? would i feel it's worth it? am i thinking too much? i think i am thinking too much.
such a disappointment. making all the silly mistakes and over that, do not dare to make the necessary changes to improve. playing it small. angry.
i fail to become a hero of even my own story. maybe i'll end up being the villain.
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