paths

some we chose. some are placed for us.

as we become older, we have more choices in them. we become more responsible for our future, even as our future becomes more narrow.

been really looking and thinking about what is next for me. not sure if i know where to go and what to do. have some ideas of what i hope to do. have some small steps taken. still quite..unsure.

as i close off some paths, some are opened. God is good.

i do not feel ecstatic about believing in God anymore. i simply do. it's just part of me. i do not show it strongly i think. i just pray and commune when i can. i am the quiet believer. is it enough?