struck

while i was tossing around in bed for the last 2 hours. after reading the verses and some notes regarding this, i simply cannot stop thinking about it. sOo..here it is.

1John 4:20 If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen?

1John 4:21 And this commandment have we from him, That he who loveth God love his brother also.

if we still hold grudges against our brothers and sisters on this Earth, then it is difficult to love God. or that what we think is love for God is not entirely true.

God tells us to love God and our neighbor. and as the parable of the good Samaritan tells us, a neighbor is someones is whoever in need. in our small ways, we can all be good Samaritans and show our love for those around us. it calls us to be less selfish and to hold others in good regard despite their faults.

related to this;

Luk 6:32 For if ye love them which love you, what thank have ye? for sinners also love those that love them.

Luk 6:33 And if ye do good to them which do good to you, what thank have ye? for sinners also do even the same.

Luk 6:34 And if ye lend [to them] of whom ye hope to receive, what thank have ye? for sinners also lend to sinners, to receive as much again.

Luk 6:35 But love ye your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and [to] the evil.

Luk 6:36 Be ye therefore merciful, as your Father also is merciful.

Luk 6:37 Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven:

it's not easy to do as it is to say. more so in this society's context, i think.

we can, but try. grant us strength of will and wisdom of your Spirit, that we may do your will.

INVICTUS

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

Invictus
William Ernest Henle

buried..

..under the expectations and demands of a mad world.

testing

Hello World..!!

unmotivated

everyday it seems like i am doing things to help others and not myself. i am not happy.

i am seldom happy these days. my mood is having a distinct downward trend.

not really interested to do anything. not motivated to go for things. don't seem to have any idea what i really want.

tired of this shit. i think i am getting nowhere.

my life..

not my own.

no time to do what i want. no resources to do what i want. no place i feel comfortable.

tough luck. oh well.

will survive. just another year and so on and another year and so forth. life goes on.

perhaps of my experience and all, i have adopted a rather uninterested mentality to many things. i hope it's not most things or all things. that will make me a super boring person..especially for myself.

whatever happens, life goes on. we adapt. we change. we grow. until we die. it's mostly a choice to do that, as are most things in life. we chose. something between tough choices. still we have a choice.

growing old is easy. growing up is not.

nowhere i belong.

home

feels so unfamiliar. so tired of being at home.

point

"the paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less. we have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. we have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgement, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

we drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. we have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

we've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. we've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. we conquered outer space but not inner space.

we've done larger things, but not better things. we've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. we've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.

we write more, but learn less.

we plan more, but accomplish less.

we've learned to rush. but not to wait. we build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less. these are times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. these are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.

these are the days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

it is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the storeroom. a time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete."
-Dr Bob Moorehead

inner strength

"The days of our lives, for all of us, are numbered. We know that.

And yes, there are certainly times when we aren't able to muster as much strength and patience as we would like. It's called being human.

But I have found that in the simple act of living with hope, and in the daily effort to have a positive impact in the world, the days I do have are made all the more meaningful and precious.

And for that I am grateful."
- Elizabeth Edwards, ex-wife of presidential candidate John Kerry.

R.E.S.P.E.C.T.

..maybe it's my own fault, maybe i led you to believe it was easy when it wasn't..

..maybe i made you think that every shot i took was a game winner..that my game was built on flash and not fire..

..maybe it's my fault that you didn't see that failure gave me strength, that my pain is my motivation..

..maybe i led you to believe that basketball was a God given gift and not something i work for..every single day of my life..

-Michael Jordan

for every single minute of performance seen by the world, who knows how many hours the champion trained for it.

stop giving yourself excuses.

quotes

education's purpose is to replace an empty mind with an open one.

- Malcolm Forbes

it is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.

- Aristotle

somehow..much education seem to have failed people. or people failed to be educated.

you raise me up

when i am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
when troubles come and my heart burdened be;
then, i am still and wait here in the silence,
until you come and sit awhile with me.

you raise me up, so i can stand on mountains;
you raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
i am strong, when i am on your shoulders;
you raise me up: to more than i can be.

you raise me up, so i can stand on mountains;
you raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
i am strong, when i am on your shoulders;
you raise me up: to more than i can be.

there is no life - no life without its hunger;
each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
but when you come and i am filled with wonder,
sometimes, i think i glimpse eternity.

you raise me up, so i can stand on mountains;
you raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
i am strong, when i am on your shoulders;
you raise me up: to more than i can be.

you raise me up, so i can stand on mountains;
you raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
i am strong, when i am on your shoulders;
you raise me up: to more than i can be.

-Secret Garden

asking

those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;

they shall run and not be weary;

they shall walk and not faint.
- Isaiah 40:31

dear God, thank you for the many years that i had so far. the years may not always be kind but they are always there that i may grow to be better.

i pray that you may grant me strength to do what is right and good; wisdom to know your paths; courage to walk them and the patience to guide others along to You.

let me not forget your grace and mercy, O Lord. Amen.

mecha love

remember in days gone past
i spied you through a wall of glass
and there you were, kicking my heart back and forth.
but now your not so tough.

you wanted the world
you wanted it all
you wanted the world
you wanted it all
you wanted the world
you wanted it all
you wanted the world

so here it is, the planets cried.
we'll rip the still sky.
make way when walls collide.
i know what heart but still will reconcile your mecha love.
you hold your thought so tall
you think you've got it all

you won't break my armour
i will never surrender

take a walk
so this is the last stand
so this is your last chance
so this is your last

you wanted the world
you wanted it all
you wanted the world
you wanted it all

as i ready for war,
my exoskeleton,
i'm not a passenger, i am the carrier.
i know this vessel will withstand i love your mecha love
i've got you figured out
i've got you figured out

you wont break my armour
i will never surrender

take a walk
so this is your last stand
so this is your last chance
so this is your last

you wanted the world
you wanted it all
you wanted the world
you wanted it all

so this your last stand
so this is your last chance

take a walk
so this is your last stand
so this is your last chance

take a walk
so this is your last stand
so this is your last chance

- Hadouken!

Mecha Love (Album Version) by hadouken

i usually don't like this type of music, but this is simply awesome.

absolutely no good

the true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good.
— Samuel Johnson

all boxed in

one aspect of this is that rationality of thought imposes a limit on a person's concept of his relation to the cosmos.
-John Nash

men have called me mad; but the question is not yet settled, whether madness is or is not the loftiest intelligence -- whether much that is glorious -- whether all that is profound -- does not spring from disease of thought -- from moods of mind exalted at the expense of the general intellect.
-Edgar Allen Poe

do you dare to get out of the box..?

waste of time

all blame is a waste of time. no matter how much fault you find with another, and regardless of how much you blame him, it will not change you. the only thing blame does is to keep the focus off you when you are looking for external reasons to explain your unhappiness or frustration. you may succeed in making another feel guilty about something by blaming him, but you won't succeed in changing whatever it is about you that is making you unhappy.
-Wayne Dyer

broken

dreams and lives.

i cannot bring words out properly to say how i feel. i was busy and tried to hold it in but there are times when i just needed to let it out.

she was such a bubbly and intelligent person. so full of life and potential.

i really feel so sad. i just keep thinking of how she and her friends will talk to me and disturb me for stuff.

how fragile life is.

dear God..

Psalm 8

1 O LORD, our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth! who hast set thy glory above the heavens.

2 out of the mouth of babes and sucklings hast thou ordained strength because of thine enemies, that thou mightest still the enemy and the avenger.

3 when i consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained;

4 what is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?

5 for thou hast made him a little lower than the angels, and hast crowned him with glory and honor.

6 thou madest him to have dominion over the works of thy hands; thou hast put all things under his feet:

7 all sheep and oxen, yea, and the beasts of the field;

8 the fowl of the air, and the fish of the sea, and whatsoever passeth through the paths of the seas.

9 O LORD our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth!