stepping back in time

had my first exam in about 10 years. interesting.

knew i could have done better, but i seem to be in a rush to finish it. that probably showed on the papers and arguments i put forth. bah. missed out some parts that i thought about and knew should have included.

oh well. next paper in a month or so. just pray that this one will be fine. i hope to get above B. i am not sure of what to expect as this is my first in this course and this century.

still too busy in life. cannot settle my things at home and relax.

hope some days will come and i can rest some. much to read and much to do.

please watch.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vTFesgMkzk&eurl=http://www.techamok.com/&feature=player_embedded

please do not be blind.

meetings

None of us is as dumb as all of us.

pains

whatever you do..DO NOT get your back injured. even if it doesn't kill you or paralyze you, it still hurts like mad. and it impedes your life so much you'd wish you can sleep the whole month away..!!

life is..feeling weird. things are fine and going along. many things happened and still many to come, it just feels weird. i do not feel very motivated or satisfied. i do not like festivities..maybe that's why i feel depressed.

i really do not like crowds. crowds==a massing of stupid people for stupid events/things.

of course there are times that i am part of the said crowds.

blah blah blah blah.. .. .. ..

people. suck shit and die.

naise..

Hawking, known not only for his sharp mind, but his sharp sense of humor, prefers option number three. "Primitive life is very common and intelligent life is fairly rare," he quickly added: "Some would say it has yet to occur on earth."

first..

singaporean to fall victim to terrorist actions. it is a sad day for me.

i do not know this lady or her family, but as a singaporean, i feel angry and helpless. this could be any number of our country men or women any where in the world. could be your friend or mine. even our family members.

these terrorist, moral-less, cowards, retards!!! you cannot have your agenda fulfilled in a civilised and lawful manner, and resort to killing innocents and making life worse for everybody in the world. WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!?!

you have guns and bombs to back up your arguments and make your demands, simply because you have nothing of value to rely on.

this is not the first in the world and it'll not be the last for singaporeans as well. our world is a sad world these days, a life is only worth as much as a bullet that takes to kill.

because some fucked up guy with some money or persuading power can twist people to do his bidding. if he is so interested in making others matyrs and 'secure' their place in paradise or whatever, why don't this moron go first and save us the trouble.

i'm enraged. i cannot put words out from the thoughts i have in my mind.

what will it take for innocents to be spared from the horrors of other's deranged ambitions?

head..

many pain..many nights..

multiple migraine

balh blah blah..

i don't know..

why the heck.

i mean i know. but i don't know why.

weak willed. perhaps.

parhaps, some people are made to burn.

maybe, i'm just evil. chaotic evil. ok..maybe chaotic neutral.

i don't know. i got to figure this out.

why am i so screwed up?

...

these days

i was walking around, just a face in the crowd
trying to keep myself out of the rain
saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown
wondered if i might end up the same
there's a man out on the corner
singing old songs about change
everybody got their cross to bare, these days

she came looking for some shelter with a suitcase full of dreams
to a motel room on the boulevard
guess she's trying to be James Dean
she's seen all the disciples and all the "wanna be's"
no one wants to be themselves these days
still there's nothing to hold on to but these days

these days - the stars seem out of reach
these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
these days - are fast, love don't last in this graceless age
there ain't nobody left but us these days

Jimmy Shoes busted both his legs, trying to learn to fly
from a second story window, he just jumped and closed his eyes
his momma said he was crazy - he said momma "i've got to try"
don't you know that all my heroes died
and i guess i'd rather die than fade away

these days - the stars seem out of reach
but these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
these days are fast, love don't lasts-in this graceless age
even innocence has caught the morning train
and there ain't nobody left but us these days

i know Rome's still burning
though the times have changed
this world keeped turning round and round and round and round
these days

these days - the stars seem out of reach
but these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
these days are fast, love don't lasts-in this graceless age
even innocence has caught the morning train
and there ain't nobody left but us these days

these days - the stars seem out of reach
these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
these days - are fast, nothing lasts
there ain't no time to waste
there ain't nobody left to take the blame
there ain't nobody left but us these days
-Jon Bon Jovi

stars seem out of reach..

sledge hammer

the stress involve in this job peaks suddenly like a sledge hammer to the cranium. not that i know about the hammmer..but well..

stuck here waiting for someone to send a fax to save me from endless waiting.

exchanging mental health for money. yay.

Thank God for good family and friends.

woah..

the problem with the big bang is that we know nothing about it. we don't know when it banged, why it banged, how it banged, what exactly was being banged..
(www.overheardinnewyork.com)

TO Mr. Lame Ducky Bush

Please shut up and get lost. STOP your bullshit and nonsense!

http://environment.newscientist.com/article/dn15105-bush-rushes-harmful-environment-laws.html?DCMP=ILC-hmts&nsref=news2_head_dn15105

if everyone cared

from underneath the trees, we watch the sky
confusing stars for satellites
i never dreamed that you'd be mine
but here we are, we're here tonight

singing Amen, i, i'm alive
singing Amen, i, i'm alive

if everyone cared and nobody cried
if everyone loved and nobody lied
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died

and i'm singing amen

amen i, Amen i, i'm alive
amen i, Amen i, Amen i, i'm alive

and in the air the fireflies
our only light in paradise
we'll show the world they were wrong
and teach them all to sing along

singing Amen, i, i'm alive
singing Amen, i, i'm alive
(i'm alive)

and as we lie beneath the stars
we realize how small we are
if they could love like you and me
imagine what the world could be

if everyone cared and nobody cried
if everyone loved and nobody lied
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride
then we'd see the day when nobody died
when nobody died..

we'd see the day, we'd see the day
when nobody died
we'd see the day, we'd see the day
when nobody died
we'd see the day when nobody died
-Nickleback

IF.

WTF! WTF!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

College senior Kyla Berry was looking forward to voting in her first presidential election, even carrying her voter registration card in her wallet. "Vote suppression is real. It does sometimes happen," said Daniel P. Tokaji, a law professor at Ohio State University. But about two weeks ago, Berry got disturbing news from local election officials. "This office has received notification from the state of Georgia indicating that you are not a citizen of the United States and therefore, not eligible to vote," a letter from the Fulton County Department of Registration and Elections said. But Berry is a U.S. citizen, born in Boston, Massachusetts. She has a passport and a birth certificate to prove it. Watch some of the concerns of voting experts » The letter, which was dated October 2, gave her a week from the time it was dated to prove her citizenship. There was a problem, though -- the letter was postmarked October 9. "It was the most bizarre thing. I immediately called my mother and asked her to send me my birth certificate, and then I was like, 'It's too late, apparently,' " Berry said.

Berry is one of more than 50,000 registered Georgia voters who have been "flagged" because of a computer mismatch in their personal identification information. At least 4,500 of those people are having their citizenship questioned and the burden is on them to prove eligibility to vote. Experts say lists of people with mismatches are often systematically cut, or "purged," from voter rolls. It's a scenario that's being repeated all across the country, with cases like Berry's raising fears of potential vote suppression in crucial swing states.

Ed.note: Here we are again. Every four years the Republicans come up with the same 'October surprise' of removing from the voter rolls as many as possible of the people likely to vote for the Democratic presidential candidate. Because a majority of the federal judges are Republican appointees, the Republican election officials tend to get away with this illegal activity.
(from www.techamok.com)

kite runner

one of the best i read this year. i really must recommend it. i am not really a fan of fiction like this. i prefer sci-fi or fantasy. but i am glad i bought this book. it's been a while since a book evoked so many types of emotions.

we all have demons, do we dare to face them?

for you, a thousand times over.

who i am

and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything seems like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know your alive

and i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am
-Goo Goo Dolls

something's wrong.

mixed

after pesta i just felt abit lost. i tried and did ok, but not enough for myself.

it feels like i have had enough. things are not going to get better. i am not getting anywhere. i am tired.

i don't know what's next..just getting by.