more quizzes..too early i woke..

don't you think they are pretty crap? i think so..but oh well..for fun anyway..some interesting interpretations..=)



Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a
form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to
alter it every six months" by Oscar
Wilde.You are a very sarcastic person with a
sharp tongue. You may not be the one always
talking, but your mind is nevertheless
critizing. You tend to have a cynical view on
life itself and be somewhat withdrawn with who
you really are. Society now is in your eyes
corrupted and you wonder how the world will
survive. And people are in your mind very
ignorant and blind to the reality.


What wise quote fits you?(pics)



Life is good and bad. You know it can never be
perfect and that it never have been, and you're
fine with that. You still feel it's important
to live life since it can end any day and not
sulk because of some little failure in life.
You are often a happy person, still you don't
laugh all the time. You have a somewhat calm
aura and most people feel comfortable around
you.


How do you see life?
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Your power is: Clairvoyance

Explanation: Your power is that you can
look into the future and see what is coming.
How far and long you can look is all depending
on your skill level. This can, as all powers,
be used in both evil and good. Even if it may
seem like a boring ability it is a huge
responsibility for the carrier, becase they are
constantly tempted with doing the wrongs deeds
(e.g. cheat on a test). It takes high morals to
not be brought down with it.

Therefor you fit with this power quite well.
You take responsibility and do what is the
right thing to do. This does not make you a
saint, since you're only human after all. But
it makes a trustworthy person and you are loyal
to camrades and/or team mates. In school you
were probably a good student. If you were
social varies from person to person, but most
clairvoyant people tend to prefer their own
company or that of close friends and family.
That is because you are wise and knows how to
treasure the reliable in your life, since you
know popularity can be a false element. You are
also not that big on taking risks and prefer
what is already explored. That is because you
don't like suprises, they can turn out bad and
then you won't be in control.
Negative aspects: Since you're always
doing the right thing and being trustworthy all
the time you can become frustrated. Also, all
that you carry on your shoulders may stress you
out. You need to relax to be in good mental
shape.

What Power is Compatible With You?
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You need understanding.
In your life there has been many people that
could never seem too comprehend your
personality. Now you have either become an
out-cast because of their narrow minds or you
have adjusted yourself to them, and never
letting them see who you are deep inside. You
now think that no one will ever understand you
and you hate that fact. Though you are scared
of what the effects might be if you would
decide to let someone in so you keep a safe
distance that you both curse and bless.


What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.


What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you
don't know them. If you see a person trip you
worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones
first and you're very mature. When someones
sick you're nurturing and always try to help
family and friends when failure strikes them.
You can be called the motherly one, if you are
in a group of people, which doesn't have to be
bad. Love is something that's already in you
and you have a lot to give whether you believe
it or not. Your friends probably love you very
much and come to when they need help since
you're reliable. People can feel secure with
you and generally like you.


How is your soul?(pics)
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! You are most Like A Sapphire !
Dark, mysterious - but unforgettable. You have a
deep
beauty. Delicate, and shy you try to stay away from
the
limelight but often your intelligence puts you in
at the
deep end. You're like a Sapphire, because, your
beauty is priceless.
You're intelligent, full of opinions, and not
big-headed about it all.
Sometimes you need to put yourself out there, as
you can be a bit shy.
Congratulations ... You're the mysterious gem
everybody wants to have and learn more about.


?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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Waterfall


?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ??
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Crab


?? Which Creature Of The Sea Are You??
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Peace


?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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high gear

holidays for schools are here.

most school anyway..time to get busy. more courses to teach. inter school coming up..got to help out and got school to prep for it. indoor shoot coming up..got to prep for it and a school to handle for it too.

always tired during the holidays..more things to do..more hectic and unplanned. more money..hopefully. and also more money spent cause take more cabs and eat better to fuel myself.

Rom 11:33
O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable [are] his judgments, and his ways past finding out!

should learn to trust more that things to come will be good. i worry too much needlessly. all i need to do is do what i can and my best. my lord will take care of the rest.=) slowly i am s@@ing it..slowly i am believing more and living it.. quite amazed.

'想著你的感覺　有如雨的纏綿
淋濕我的歲月　而我卻依然不知不覺
想著你的感覺　有如風的繾綣
吹亂我的日夜　吹也吹不走你的容顏'-巫啟賢

quizzes

Your Lightsaber is Blue

Blue is often associated with depth and stability.
It symbolizes trust, loyalty, wisdom,
confidence, and truth.



What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?
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Wine



?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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Your Heart is Red



What Color is Your Heart?
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In your eyes, people see life... You see yourself
as just an average person! You enjoy life, love
wildlife, but also enjoy time with those who
know you best. You like to get outdoors and let
your mind wander over all of the mysteries god
gave to you. You don't really have a certain
sanctuary because you're so well-rounded, but
you like having fun and adventures, but can
also be found sitting quietly about, reading a
book. You have a pretty good life ahead of you,
never trade it for anything else :)


What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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sleepless

in singapore.

tired. but not enough to ensure a good night sleep. i don't really know why. no new issues to bother me. issues have been settled in my mind. things i can do..i do..things i cannot..leave it. what else can i do? i am only human.

and yet..i still cannot sleep.

music. so beautiful..and sad.

no more anger. twice a year maybe..i vent. this year..on an unsuspecting person who called me.
(at TP range during training.)
person:eh..come down now.
ken: huh?
person: come down!
ken: huh? why? what?
person: your CPU..come down.
ken: HUH!?!? who are you?!?
person: WHO ARE YOU?
(ken's evil twin appears and takes over the phone.)
evil twin: TMD. you call me ask me who i am? you go die la. f**king asshole!!
(offs phone. pass back to ken then promptly disappears.)
off course i did not put it so nicely..english is not a suitable language to scold people. especially when on paper/online. seems so emotionless. hokkien is satisfying when angered. cantonese is nice when you want to gossip. chinese is good when you want to insult people's 18 generation. english is good when you want to be sacastic..i suppose. maybe it'sjust the way i use them.

missing you..so much.

getting busy. inter-school and indoor coming. preparing people for it. and myself as well. so many things to do..so little time. giving my best for the people who rely on me..who depend on my judgement..who trust me. i am giving you my best..trust me. =>

occupied in the day. home alone at night..feels sOo..empty. depressingly empty. bah!!no new books to chew through. not playing games..don't want to waste time. but cannot sleep also waste time.

don't even know who i want to be anymore.

'忘记你 但仍然想起
愈想起 更加难入寐
紧抱你 抱紧的只得空气
明知得不到你 何必再要记起'-张学友

me

name:Ang Cee Wei (Ang is my family name) 洪诗玮
given:Ken
dob:06111980
zodiac:scorpio
horoscope:monkey
religion:recently christian, was agnostic
blood type:b+
sex:male
gender:male
height:180cm
weight:72-77kg
eyes:black?
hair:black?
education:dip in IT
job:coach, archer
likes:good food, music, movie, company.
dislikes:discords, wars, idiots who start them.
dreams:olympics, national coach after that, someone to share my life with, less wars, more love.
bestest people in life:mommy, LL, twincat, carrotcakejosh, D, uncle tang, all my friends actually.
too much:worries, fears, things to do.
too little:time, money, discipline, love.
want to do now:sleep. but insomnia
want to do later:wake up happy.
date:31052005
time:0206
killed someone?:did.
...
on my knees, i pray. for forgiveness and peace. i have sinned..i have wronged. God..please take away my pains. please let me into your embrace. i am weak. every moment i need you more. give me strength that i may lead. grant me wisdom that i may teach. be my wings that i may soar.

thoughts

sedated weekend.

skipped all nats training. knowing i might now even be able to complete the trainings and i might not be nats team anymore. disappointed and sad. tried so hard to come here and now have to leave it.

should go read up on william blake's pieces. i find them insightful and thought provoking. i especially like auguries of innocence.

the below test. when i saw it i thought to myself i should be utilitarian, and so i am. i know i am such do the best thing i know how to. it does not mean i don't make mistakes or do something wrong..it's just my intentions are such. oh well..nothing really stands out..probably cause i am quite mixed about morality and not conforming to one rule. instead more like a fusion of a few ideas and concept of what is right.

i believe many of the basis for your life's philosophy can exist at the same time. though of course there are some which will be opposites or close enough that they cannot exist in one person. example, believing in God does not mean you cannot be a kantian. but that would mean you are not totally a kantian and would disbelieve about some of kant's concepts.

another thing i would like to bring up is that doing what is good may not be the right thing and vice versa. define good as make people happy and well. right as follow rules and laws and commandments. easy to s@@ that it may not always be parrellel. but then people might not defien it such and therefore arguable.

sleep pattern all screwed..again..haha.. i mentioned to some that i would be best suited to days of 30 hours. sleep6 wake12 sleep4 wake8.. i always do that. and now 0630..nothing much to do. there's just this period of time that i cannot sleep..unless i am really tired. not everyday i can be that tired. oh well..will try to adjust again.

patience..waiting. my life now is now consisting of waiting for things to happen. doing what i can..what i should. more to come depends on others. my strong point and also my mistake, mayhaps. endure. persist. overcome.

[jam 5:8] be ye also patient; stablish your hearts: for the coming of the Lord draweth nigh.

'wishing you were somehow here again...
wishing you were somehow near...
sometimes it seemed if i just dreamed,
somehow you would be here...
wishing i could hear your voice again...'-Phantom of the Opera

quiz week or something..

You scored as Utilitarianism. Your life is guided by the principles of Utilitarianism: You seek the greatest good for the greatest number. “The said truth is that it is the greatest happiness of the greatest number that is the measure of right and wrong.” --Jeremy Bentham “Whenever the general disposition of the people is such, that each individual regards those only of his interests which are selfish, and does not dwell on, or concern himself for, his share of the general interest, in such a state of things, good government is impossible.” --John Stuart Mill More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page... Existentialism 70% Utilitarianism 70% Hedonism 65% Divine Command 60% Kantianism 55% Strong Egoism 50% Justice (Fairness) 50% Apathy 30% Nihilism 20% What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03) created with QuizFarm.com

giving it up

after much delibration, i decided to let it go.

given a chance at something else. which i know i can be quite good at. good chance with good prospects in time to come. give up my dream. couldn't sleep for sOoo..many nights cause of this decision. even though i know it's the prudent thing to do and probably a good thing for me no matter what i decide to do in the future, it is devastating for me.

last time whenever i think about it, i will just start to cry. yes i am emotional. it is a big BIG part of my life. almost the only thing i live for for some times in my life. though now i am more stable and feel better about things and having more faith, it is still a major turning point for me. i trust that GOD have led me in the right direction and trying to do otherwise will lead to misery.

the below test..let me mention some stuffs..i know stuffS is wrong..but stuff and more stuff..therefore stuffS!!=)
highs are..
'peter-pan complex'-want to stay young..haha..that's me..
'intellectual'-hmm..i hope so..
'cautiousness'-over cautious, i am.
'physical security'-i simply..don't care at all.=)
lows..
'hedonism'-i don't like pleasure?? hmm..
'wealth'-i don't like money?? ermm..ok la..enough is enough..but how much is enough??hehe..
'food indulgent'-i don't like good food??this is off. totally.

anyway..hope i can get on well. something else bothering me. but patience i guess. i hope i pray. it's all heart for me. i don't need much. just let me know..anyway it goes. please.

treasure the love you receive above all. it will survive long after your gold and good health have vanished. - Og Mandino

[Proverbs 3, 5-6 ], trust in the LORD with all your heartand lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways acknowledge him,and he will direct your paths.

all i have is given. all i can i do to my bestest knowledge. the rest is up to you my lord. lead me to wherever you please.

testing

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion 60% Stability 50% Orderliness 33% Empathy 63% Interdependence 50% Intellectual 76% Mystical 56% Artistic 70% Religious 70% Hedonism 10% Materialism 30% Narcissism 56% Adventurousness 63% Work ethic 50% Self absorbed 63% Conflict seeking 50% Need to dominate 36% Romantic 63% Avoidant 50% Anti-authority 63% Wealth 23% Dependency 36% Change averse 30% Cautiousness 76% Individuality 43% Sexuality 56% Peter pan complex 70% Physical security 76% Food indulgent 23% Histrionic 30% Paranoia 43% Vanity 30% Hypersensitivity 50% Female cliche 30%

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pissed

so many things. so sudden.

all change. plans all out the window.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr

brained

You Are 25% Left Brained, 75% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

sad facts

i am being killed at home slowly.

all the smoke that my dad and brother emits from their smoking. i hate it..especially when i have sore throat, like now. spend money to burn some grass, chemicals, whatever..to make you unhealthy. probably die faster and make people around you die faster as well. irrate. should be banned for reasons of humanity. instead it's being tolerated, cause of the monies to be gained from their taxes..and probably pay offs by the tobacco companies. then stupid people have to get 'addicted' to them. it's just a habit like any other habit..they can be kicked. difficult? probably..cause you are sOOoo..dependant on that death stick!!! spend money where it could be used for better things.

then they drink too. as if smoking comes together with drinking like a package deal. my dad about two bottles a day..brother about there too..sometimes more..never less. even when got no money to pay bills..will still have money for drinks and smoke.

hai..if we calculate simply. 10 for drinks per day. 10 for smoke per day. times 2 person. that's a total of 40 per day. one month would be 1200. ARGH!!!

no one can hear me scream cause it's all inside.

with eyes but they won't see.
have ears but they won't hear.
with brains but they cannot think.

'they paved paradise and put up a parking lot
with a pink hotel, a boutique, and a swingin' hot spot
don't it always seem to go
that you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
they paved paradise and put up a parking lot

they took all the trees, and put em in a tree museum
and they charged the people a dollar and a half to see them
no, no, no don't it always seem to go
that you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
they paved paradise, and put up a parking lot

hey farmer, farmer, put away your DDT
i don't care about spots on my apples,
leave me the birds and the bees
please don't it always seem to go
that you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
they paved paradise and put up a parking lot
hey now, they paved paradise to put up a parking lot
why not?'-Counting Crows

steps

everything takes time. has it's own time.

nice place TJ have. lotsa food and drinks on his birthday. hope you have a great year and enjoyed your birthday. (don't think he knows my blog..but..)

step by step. take my time to do what i feel is right.

heart man. it's all heart.

'your mind will take you far
the rest is just pure heart
you'll find your fate is all your own creation
every boy and girl
as they come into this world
they bring the gift of hope and inspiration'-Celine Dion

Sith codes

"Peace Is A Lie.
There Is Only Passion.
Through Passion I Gain Strength.
Through Strength I Gain Power.
Through Power I Gain Victory.
Through Victory,My Chains Are Broken.
The force shall free me."
-The Sith Code, as in some books and games.

There is no peace, there is anger.
There is no fear, there is power.
There is no death, there is immortality.
There is no weakness, there is the darkside.
I am the heart of darkness,I know no fear,
Rather, I instill it in my enemies.
I am the destroyer of worlds,I know the power of the darkside.
I am the fire of hate,
The galaxy bows before me,I pledge myself to the darkness.
For my failure I offer my life,
For I have found true life,In the death of the light.
-Another Sith code, found somewhere.. .. ..

personality

did this before..now again..

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

hey..seems like i have less problems now!! haha..

twisted

twisted my ankle today while playing 'goodminton'.

was playing fine and all. pretty good..managed to beat all the TP people..then came daryl. my mentor in badminton. trashed me 7:1 i think. then after a moment's rest i match with him again..managed to make him do stupid mistakes and par with him at 6:6..then i twisted my ankle recieving one of his super fast smashes on my left side..to recieve it had to twist my torso over and balance on my left ankle while it's twisted..then i removed weight from my right leg. my weight caused the injury.

my ankles and knees had alot of injuries from last time. soccer, soccer, soccer and basketball. easily injured now. remebered why i stop playing games that require reflexes..i will get injured easily..oh well..should heal in about a week..

life's quite alright i suppose. shooting seems fine..lack stamina and endurance. skill wise i feels as if i improved abit..keeping my mind on doing what i want. sOo..that's good. not shooting much..slowly increasing the amount..sOo..that's good. trying to be less stupid and stubborn. we'll s@@ how i go eh?=)

some part of me tells me it's ok. things will be alright..still i worry sometimes.things that we want that we don't have..we think of ways to ensure we get it..but sometimes i feel we should just let it go and take whatever that comes to us in life, all the while doing our best to reach our goal.

patience. perserverance. determination.

quite contradictery..but it's like do your best and accept that life is not always a bed of roses and effort don't equals results. we will get our dues..

Psa 18:24 Therefore hath the LORD recompensed me according to my righteousness, according to the cleanness of my hands in his eyesight.

trust in things to come. everything happen..good or bad..you don't know..till the fat lady sings..

'多少次　迎著冷眼與嘲笑
從沒有放棄過心中的理想'-Beyond

star wars

watched it twice so far.

have to say i am more than slightly disappointed. overall i would give it a 6/10. feel of the movie, bad timings/pacing, crap script, tough job fitting storyline to join the plot together though, sub-standard directing/acting, effects/sound/music was good. lots of bad scenes and some good shots. more bad than good..sOo..my rating.

maybe i am just expecting more from STAR WARS..but after much contemplation i think that's not the case. i feel it's just too shody..not given enough thought. there are REALLY some movies which did better with less..but that's me. oh well..hope he stops trashing it..enough is enough. with mini-series coming out..man..is he hard up for cash?

my life been pretty normal..even the bouts of depression is normal i guess. don't really forsee it getting better anytime sOon. but working on it. will push on about what i hope to do for this coming two-three years. getting things done and being more stable should solve some of it..

been studying the bible. been thinking about things it teaches. follow my feelings..

starting to get back to shooting..shoulder mostly healed i feel. not much pain when using it now..slight disjointness at certain angles..will continue with what i have been doing and hope it's enough to heal it completely.

in silence I wait
to hear your words of hope.
days pass not to wait
but time seems to stop.
i'm surrounded by eminent silence
my heart visions hope.
waiting pours out it's incense
as i dwell on what might be your thoughts.
though my hope's hope, hopes against hope,
you are forever my thoughts.
for in hope there is no stopping
till your words from your heart hit home.-Waiting, Agape Justin Oforo

all things have their own time and place. patience.

2Cr 1:4
Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.

sin cities

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

rants

cannot fall asleep again. been days since i slept well. body is aching all over. cannot really shoot sOo i push myself to run and do other exercises. went gym after a two weeks break..body feels like breaking apart..haha..expected actually..but still uncomfortable.

guess my mind is really thinking about things..worrying and trying to figure things out as usual. reading the bible helps some..and yet create some problems as well. concepts..ideas..learnings..alot to think through..hai..wish that things were simpler. if i was not at this level of intelligence it would be good. if i am more intelligent i would maybe be smart enough to not get into so much troubles..get my life organised better..do things more efficiently or something like that..if i was less intelligent..then i would not know so many things and try to learn and understand and help and just listen to people and just do what is simply seemingly good without complications. sOo..i think either way would make me a happier person. but then..who would know. hah. nonsense as usual.

i am cruel. i am uncaring. i am stupid. i am stubborn. i don't care. i am amoral. i am wicked. i am evil. i am so many things that's bad.

i don't deserve anything good. being happy. being worryless. being rich. being satisfied. being at peace. being simply me. nope..all that will not happen for me..cause i am evil. i just hope i die soon..the world have better hope without me around..i think..

air-con will kill us all. we turn it on to cool a room. which in turn make the outside hotter..which makes us want to use more air-con everywhere and make it cooler as well. it takes energy to make a room cool and outside hotter..to get energy we creates heat when it is generated at the power generator thingies.. sOOoo...by using air-con we make ourselves more dependant on it and therefore will use more energy to cool the place we are at and destroy the planet as a whole with all the heat we are generating.
well done humans!!! another innovative way to kill our planet and future!!!

it's been a long while since i felt even comfortable and just me. someone who is in a wal. at peace..curious..learning and teaching. everyday i go out to be happy. i make myself happy by being around people. people ask me for advise..ask me for things..ask me for whatever..i cannot be =( when i am with people..else i cannot help them. so i BE happy. but whenever i am alone..it strikes. depression..what can i do? i thought i was out of it..then thigns happen..again and again..this uphill task is drowning me. my faith and trust and belief is wearing thin..really. again and again..nearly 6 years now..i think. i know i can survive..the lord will not allow me to fall unless it's time for me to. he will watch after me and ease my pain and sorrows..but still it is not easy to bear. i can understand why some people end themselves. the hurt seems unending.

home? i have no home i feel..just a place to go to to bath..sleep..use computer..put things.. the only person i feel is family is my mom. maybe i have trouble trusting and being close to people? no one else comes close. but even with my mom..i almost never tell her anything. whenever my mom goes over to malaysia..i feel scared. so alone.

there's a pain in me that is threatening to overwhelm me.

no answers forthcoming. no end in sight. no one to help me i think. it's me and the world.

'oh para paradise..是否那麼重要..
你是否那麼地遙遠..'-Beyond

verge of madness

am i really to be jobs?