moulin rougue!

believe in truth, beauty, freedom, and above all things, love.

somethings are tough to believe in. even if you did, you lose faith in the things that don't seem to get you anything but pain. but..what pain may come, i still believe. and know that in the end, it matters to me.

so many thoughts in my mind now..so many people i care about..so little i can do..

no matter how many people helped you, it takes yourself to help yourself. after all that happen to anyone, the person takes it how the person wants to take it. so glad things turn out fine for some, yet quite sad how it turns out for others. but i am only me, they have to face their own demons..

i don't think i can ever forgive myself.

life will go on. somethings will just never be forgotten. i am sorry.

was happy cooking. making sure the food is good. it's a pleasure for me..though at the end of it..something's missing. still wishing..still hoping..yet preparing for the pain that may come. no idea what to do. no idea what at all.

so different. so much happened in a span of..six..months..? seven? things will never be the same..and i miss it..when happiness was a daily thing..instead of fleeting moments.

the post is horridly dis-jointed. so many things to say yet no words..so much emotions..yet no way of expressing..

is-ken
ken is just ken.

'i bet you counted all the tears..
i bet you've cried..
i bet you swore you'd never let love back inside..
'cause it hurt you way too bad to say good-bye..'-Bon Jovi