routed

my router has been routed.

after 4 years of wonderful service my router died. past week it have been acting up. i was checking all systems asto what might be the cause, but thought my router to be infallable(sp?). at first i just thought some one in my block was DLing LOTS and LOTS of porn..slowing down the network..then i though myabe it's the holidays and LOTS and LOTS of kids were playing games online.. then i have things to do and send out..got so frustrated that i went monica's pplace to get it done. after that i thought..'ah..give it a check..' to my dismay..it's the router.

sOo..now my brother will be without network..until i replace it. oh crap.

anyway..been slacking alot. much more than usual. feeling really stressed up and depressed. and have no idea why..that's the idiotic part. got so bad that i drank abit last night. did nothing except made me dehydrated. after that i read nearly half the bible..then i realised..the one i have is really short. lots of missing things..looks like i got to look for a more complete one.

whenenver i get stressed up i slack more..ahaha..bad habit. waiting things out. but i got not much chance to do so now. plenty to do. will do them as i should. i will. not let people down.

thanks alot to friends around who cared and hang out when i'm down. without support..i'd be much more miserable.

Job 1:21
And said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.

wants and needs..are different. what we need..we already have.

living lifes not in eliminating but in growing with troubles.