finding forrester

a good drama about finding your way in (and back out) of the world.

was a nice show..enjoyed it thoroughly. showed that talent and hardwork may not be enough sometimes. you need someone to help you, to nuture you, to guide you and maybe to stand up for you.

for all that you can, maybe you just don't believe it. and you need someone to believe enough to take you seriously. to bring your best out. to show you what you can do.

had fun today..great dinner..great friends..total indulgance night..haha..well..guess it's great to have people around who just let you be who you are and just chill. also met some of my poly friends..catch up some. near christmas and all..haha..kind of like a movie..

anyways..is happier these day. i think i let alot of things go. still slightly missing somethings..but now more forward looking rather than squatting in the past. it's comfortable to wallow in self-pity. to be self-centered.. sOoo..like now..enough. let's get to do what i want.

tough time at work. new stuff to learn. not fast enough and not confident enough. will do my best everyday i work. disppointing that i cannot really handle it..but will try..

shooting not so good. with added responsibilities at work..and longer hours. by the time i get to shooting am already quite tired..but well..will adjust and try my best too..haha..just do what i can. be who i want to be. do my best and leave it up to whatever.

paradigm shift. all it takes is a shift in perception and midset. s@@ the world through different eyes. s@@ yourself differently. things are factually the same as before, only that now i feel able to handle and go on and cope with it.

shift-ken
who shifted my ken?

'don't you understand, what you thought i wouldn't come again..
leave you hangin' without bringin' you the fun again..
tanglin' with the alien scum again..
mind your manners or the black suits runnin' in..'-Will Smith