loneliness

is a state of mind. does not matter who you are with or what you are doing.

think i had my share of ups and downs in life so far. i expect more to come. i don't like being alone. it just amplifies the loneliness.

granted we cannot always have people around us. but whenever i am alone..i neglect myself. i eat less..or eat crap..or simply don't eat. i don't function properly.. i also have tendencies to not do anything at all. simply walk around and stone.

but recently..been better. been getting used to it. letting go of a crutch. getting out of comfort zone. travel alone and work alone. doing what needs to be done. all in all..i think i have become more whole.

no longer needing anyone..to chat or sms or hang with. no longer lonely when alone.

but still when people are around..i feel better. as if my existance is more complete with people i know around.

and i miss you. yes..you.

i am alright being alone now..doesn't mean i like it. but i can..and will if needed.