a kind of feeling

while sleeping just now, when i got back from church, i had a strange feeling.

it's as if my emotions are expressed. put into words and sung out. and i heard it from my computer's speakers. all the little things that i am bothered by and am putting aside. it's like they were sung to me and i listened and am bothered less now. healed abit more. a moment of clarity.

but, now that i am awake, i cannot find anything remotely like what i felt on my playlist history and everything. i remember certain words and certain tunes which i find familiar while half dreaming..that i cannot find now. strange.

many of the things i 'heard' are what i wanted to say about how i felt on certain issues. i thought the words were just perfect. but the words are lost..in my dreams.

it's abit comforting. it's abit confusing.

just went through my whole songs collections. nothing that sings to me like what did when i was half asleep.. hai..lost moment.

spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
i'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
-Sarah McLachlan