hope?

most times i hold hope close. in my heart where it keeps me going.

even in the most daunting of situations. i hope. i carry on.
sometimes i force myself to give up and let things go. they take time, but i eventually make it and start out in search for another fuel to drive me on.

this time. i wish..i don't know. hai. so far. told to stay far. yet so close. feels so close and..wanting to be so close at times.

confused. confounded. compounded. completely stupidified.

do i hope? do i dare hope? all i want is to be happy..with you.