readiness

went to s@@ Dr William Tan at TP yesternight. he was trying to break a world record for hand paddling.

must say i was disappointed.

expected to s@@ someone eager for the challenge and all preped and hot wired. all lights green and ready to rock 'n' roll.

what i saw of him was an unprepared athlete. he was on a running track, different from the road that the world record was set by. that put him in great disadvantage. at around 0200, when i was there, about 1/4 throught the 24hours, he was already tired and voicing it out. this i must say i am an outsider. maybe he works by voicing it out. but i felt that it just shows his mental readiness. which i felt was lacking.

but that's me thinking. even though the road is tough..literally. he completed the 24 hours. which is more than what i can imagine myself doing. kudos to him and his will power for the 24 hours feat.

certainly a tough guy. could have done better i felt..needed more planning and perhaps more training.

every failure shows our weakness. if we work to eliminate it, we become better persons.

i know i am not really ready..but time doesn't allow me to wait longer. i just got to do what i can. will i ever be ready? i don't know. and don't need to know. all i need to know is that i must do it. whenever time comes for it.

i do.
i will.
i must.

let whatever comes. i am ken.