not much to blog about these days. maybe too tired. maybe just too boring. every weekday work morning. then shoot or gym. then night eat with archers or friends then home. email, news, forums and an hour of game. repeat the next day. saturday, national youth training, then TP training. sunday, whole day training.
training, fine. improving. drop some and improve again. ups and down. form better. body stronger. mind more focused. like the training now. quite tough. quite some new things. can s@@ the results. can s@@ myself going somewhere. can feel myself being better.
work is fine too. open store. serve customers. top up counter. go off. don't talk much to colleagues. not really interested to as well. they seem pretty nice and fun people to work with. i guess in time i'll get more acquainted with them. some of them TP students. haha. they shocked i so old and coaching at TP. anyway, work is not too bad.
just took charge of national youth as manager. people think i mad to take over a post to get shot. to me, i don't care. i love the sport. i can s@@ others who love it but get nowhere. i want to help. that's why in the first place i coach. i can work with clint. and i can work with tang. i'll try my best to provide for the young ones. it would be a pity if their dreams are shattered or have no path to fulfillment. i'll do my best to let them grow and dream.
the people who always shoot people are those who will complain about everything and not do anything. ask them 'don't like it, you try to do lar' then they will keep quiet. please! go to hell please! if you don't like and have no idea how to make better or don't want to make better, then shut your hole. people are trying to do things here. not happy, tell and let people know, then at least if the people don't change or do better, you have a valid reason to screw them. if you don't even want to talk to those in-charge, what's the point of complaining behind their backs? fanning the fire. f**king as**oles. it's tough enough to run things without people spouting nonsensical rumors. there we have people giving all kinds of rumors from no idea where. and when told to help out or even tell the person who is in-charge, they like can die. what's your problem? no truth to back up your complains? probably. makes me pissed off. simply tell and work things out, little kids. keep complaining. and themselves have no idea what they want. OMFG. and by the way, i DID tell them straight in the face 'why don't you help out?' and 'tell me also no use, go tell them lar'. they replied 'tell them also no use. help for what?'..OHH..NOW SINGAPORE ARCHERS GOT SOME CAN TELL THE FUTURE!! they want the people to answer to them what is happening. go ask cannot..must be fed..so singaporean. so disappointing.
so that's my life. some good..some bad.. half full and half empty. some parts of me is sated, while other parts are starving. life is such isn't it? we don't get all we want. so many if only and why didn't i..oh well..i'll survive and burn for my only surviving dream. guess i'll have other dreams to pursue. just waiting for me to put them in mind as dreams. something to fight for. to burn for and to die for. am still scared, still scarred, i guess. and unsure of myself. will find myself and know myself better before i decide anything.
until a new dawn, i'll be vigilent against the darkness that threatens to drown me. the darkness in me..
watch-ken
watch ken, watch ken.
'everybody's got something they had to leave behind,
one regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time..
there's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering),
how it could be now or neither been (or neither been)..'-S Club 7
1 comment:
Yea. There're always people like that. Like you said, hang on in there.
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