talented mr ripley

when a person becomes a mystery, even to himself.

watched the show? somepeople think he's evil, others think he had no choice. i personally feel he had a choice but he chose to preserve himself. what would you do? would you give up yourself or someone/something you love to do the right thing? do you think you can live with yourself and what you have done to others? who really knows who we are and what we have done? only ourselves,i believe. only ourselves will know what we have done and what we could have done instead also.

today's fine. that's it, fine. nothing more. not too bad..not too good..just fine.

was just wondering if i could trust again. knowing that there will be things that i won't tell another unless i trust completely, with everything i have and hold dear. but who can i trust after what happened the last time i gave it all?

feels distanced from people these two days. feels spaced out. almost like a glass between me and the rest of the world. interesting. abit sad. abit off. shoots better that way. but can i stay that way? think not. i care too much. i worry too much. i love too much. someone said i look lifeless that way. guess i feel that way sometimes. lifeless.

do you know me? from my blog, what kind of person do i seem? i am asking cause i don't think i know myself well. i know i have a big dream, willing to go for it. but other than that..i have no idea. sometimes feels positive and other times negative. i always feels the extremes of emotions i think. what am i?

kind of feel like i am crying behind my face. lost and hurt. knowing where to go from here. just no drive to. don't believe in myself. don't think i am worth my effort. that have to be fixed. or it'll be hell of a life. oh well. interesting then.

looking at what i have typed. felt like deleting all. but guess that's how i really feel sometimes. torn between two extremes. fine ,yet not good. alright, but not enough. am i trying too hard? am i thinking too much?

i have failed myself before and i fear i will again. do i try? or do i stand alone?

question?-ken
too many questions, too little answers.

'give me a taste of something new, to touch to hold to pull me through..send me a guiding light that shines, across this darkened life of mine'-Midge Ure