"Those who would give up essential liberty to purchase a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety."
-Benjamin Franklin
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Krazees
"Man is certainly crazy. He could not make a mite, and he makes gods by the dozen."
-Michel de Montaigne
-Michel de Montaigne
don't know.
why is everything so hard..?
i try..but fail. and try again. isn't there anything to be done right? done well?
is my heaven so far off?
i want simple things in life. but there's nothing simple anymore. i'm so tired. but still i want to try. i don't want to let go of thigns that i want.
why does it seems like it's ending?
i am tired. i want to breakdown and die. enough. i failed. i cannot get what i want at all. nothing.
dreams are not enough. love is not enough. passion is not enough. trying is not enough.
somehow something goes wrong all the time. i am tired. there's no help. i am tired.
i don't want to let go. but maybe it's not my choice anymore, at all.
i am tired, scared and going mad. i don't know anything. i just want to try to be my best. but there's nothing to be done. i'm done. finished.
i really don't know what's next.
i try..but fail. and try again. isn't there anything to be done right? done well?
is my heaven so far off?
i want simple things in life. but there's nothing simple anymore. i'm so tired. but still i want to try. i don't want to let go of thigns that i want.
why does it seems like it's ending?
i am tired. i want to breakdown and die. enough. i failed. i cannot get what i want at all. nothing.
dreams are not enough. love is not enough. passion is not enough. trying is not enough.
somehow something goes wrong all the time. i am tired. there's no help. i am tired.
i don't want to let go. but maybe it's not my choice anymore, at all.
i am tired, scared and going mad. i don't know anything. i just want to try to be my best. but there's nothing to be done. i'm done. finished.
i really don't know what's next.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Kant
of the crooked timber of humanity, no straight thing can ever be made.
we are not made to be perfect, some less than others. still..we make do and go on.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
bad day
sometimes the system goes on the blink
and the whole thing turns out wrong
you might not make it back and you know
that you could be well oh that strong
and i'm not wrong
when you are down, that's when you know you want to be better.
when you are feeling trapped, that's when you find out strong you can be.
when you are lost, that's when you need someone to show you the way.
well you need a blue sky holiday
and the whole thing turns out wrong
you might not make it back and you know
that you could be well oh that strong
and i'm not wrong
when you are down, that's when you know you want to be better.
when you are feeling trapped, that's when you find out strong you can be.
when you are lost, that's when you need someone to show you the way.
well you need a blue sky holiday
Monday, January 08, 2007
Sunday, January 07, 2007
007 + 2000
really quite bad start to the year. rather demoralising.
but..as always. i will pick it up and go on. what else is there to be done?
be better. that's what must be done. else i'll always be in this state of inadequacy. need to get off my arse and start working on improving. so many areas in my life can be improved upon.
the blog have become quite dead, due to the fact that perhaps i am more tolerant and don't get pissed or affected by things as much or as long. so by the time i get home everything is just normal. then there's no subject matter to blog about.
life..pretty much the same.. normal. most areas lacking. improvements to be made. work to be done.
just flipped open my bible and Pslams 77 catches my eyes.
[A Psalm of Asaph.] In the day of trouble i seek the Lord
i cried unto God with my voice, [even] unto God with my voice; and he gave ear unto me.
in the day of my trouble i sought the Lord: my sore ran in the night, and ceased not: my soul refused to be comforted.
i remembered God, and was troubled: i complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed.
thou holdest mine eyes waking: i am so troubled that i cannot speak.
i have considered the days of old, the years of ancient times.
i call to remembrance my song in the night: i commune with mine own heart: and my spirit made diligent search.
will the Lord cast off for ever? and will he be favourable no more?
is his mercy clean gone for ever? doth [his] promise fail for evermore?
hath God forgotten to be gracious? hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies?
and i said, this [is] my infirmity: [but i will remember] the years of the right hand of the most High.
i will remember the works of the LORD: surely i will remember thy wonders of old.
i will meditate also of all thy work, and talk of thy doings.
thy way, O God, [is] in the sanctuary: who [is so] great a God as [our] God?
thou [art] the God that doest wonders: thou hast declared thy strength among the people.
thou hast with [thine] arm redeemed thy people, the sons of Jacob and Joseph.
the waters saw thee, O God, the waters saw thee; they were afraid: the depths also were troubled.
the clouds poured out water: the skies sent out a sound: thine arrows also went abroad.
the voice of thy thunder [was] in the heaven: the lightnings lightened the world: the earth trembled and shook.
thy way [is] in the sea, and thy path in the great waters, and thy footsteps are not known.
thou leddest thy people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron.
learning to lean on your grace and strength, O Lord. forgive us our sins, lead us from temptations and deliver us.
re-focus and keep on going at our dreams. sometimes we need to rest for the better good in the long run.
aimless post..somewhat. oh well.
for you my dear --) <3 .
but..as always. i will pick it up and go on. what else is there to be done?
be better. that's what must be done. else i'll always be in this state of inadequacy. need to get off my arse and start working on improving. so many areas in my life can be improved upon.
the blog have become quite dead, due to the fact that perhaps i am more tolerant and don't get pissed or affected by things as much or as long. so by the time i get home everything is just normal. then there's no subject matter to blog about.
life..pretty much the same.. normal. most areas lacking. improvements to be made. work to be done.
just flipped open my bible and Pslams 77 catches my eyes.
[A Psalm of Asaph.] In the day of trouble i seek the Lord
i cried unto God with my voice, [even] unto God with my voice; and he gave ear unto me.
in the day of my trouble i sought the Lord: my sore ran in the night, and ceased not: my soul refused to be comforted.
i remembered God, and was troubled: i complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed.
thou holdest mine eyes waking: i am so troubled that i cannot speak.
i have considered the days of old, the years of ancient times.
i call to remembrance my song in the night: i commune with mine own heart: and my spirit made diligent search.
will the Lord cast off for ever? and will he be favourable no more?
is his mercy clean gone for ever? doth [his] promise fail for evermore?
hath God forgotten to be gracious? hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies?
and i said, this [is] my infirmity: [but i will remember] the years of the right hand of the most High.
i will remember the works of the LORD: surely i will remember thy wonders of old.
i will meditate also of all thy work, and talk of thy doings.
thy way, O God, [is] in the sanctuary: who [is so] great a God as [our] God?
thou [art] the God that doest wonders: thou hast declared thy strength among the people.
thou hast with [thine] arm redeemed thy people, the sons of Jacob and Joseph.
the waters saw thee, O God, the waters saw thee; they were afraid: the depths also were troubled.
the clouds poured out water: the skies sent out a sound: thine arrows also went abroad.
the voice of thy thunder [was] in the heaven: the lightnings lightened the world: the earth trembled and shook.
thy way [is] in the sea, and thy path in the great waters, and thy footsteps are not known.
thou leddest thy people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron.
learning to lean on your grace and strength, O Lord. forgive us our sins, lead us from temptations and deliver us.
re-focus and keep on going at our dreams. sometimes we need to rest for the better good in the long run.
aimless post..somewhat. oh well.
for you my dear --) <3 .
Sunday, December 31, 2006
another day..
the calender will go to 2007 in a few hours. it'll be just another day for me.
days are pretty much the same no matter the date on the calender. dawn to dusk. night to day. same amount of time in each day. we put importance into dates. i guess so that we can kind of remember the important things and people once in awhile.
anyway..the past year have been rather kind, all in all. thank God.
i'm still pretty much the same. but i have more to look forward to and to work for i guess. more to learn and to share. more to strive for and to live for. onwards..!
with God's grace, may the coming year be kind.
days are pretty much the same no matter the date on the calender. dawn to dusk. night to day. same amount of time in each day. we put importance into dates. i guess so that we can kind of remember the important things and people once in awhile.
anyway..the past year have been rather kind, all in all. thank God.
i'm still pretty much the same. but i have more to look forward to and to work for i guess. more to learn and to share. more to strive for and to live for. onwards..!
with God's grace, may the coming year be kind.
Monday, December 25, 2006
christmas 2006
today is christmas. a special day by any accounts. today i am to be baptised.
been preparing for it months ago. going through lessons. reading and thinking about the bible. what it means to me and do i believe.
i believe. i have felt God and i have faith.
past months have been normal in most sense. been happier, due to various reasons. but at the same time, i've been more stressed due to other reasons.
alot to rant about, but there's never enough time to bother. much have happened and i have changed much i feel.
but more about me another time.
today..we celebrate the birth of a King..! a God..! the birth..of our salvation..!
been preparing for it months ago. going through lessons. reading and thinking about the bible. what it means to me and do i believe.
i believe. i have felt God and i have faith.
past months have been normal in most sense. been happier, due to various reasons. but at the same time, i've been more stressed due to other reasons.
alot to rant about, but there's never enough time to bother. much have happened and i have changed much i feel.
but more about me another time.
today..we celebrate the birth of a King..! a God..! the birth..of our salvation..!
Friday, November 24, 2006
and of the greatest
if I give all i possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, i gain nothing.
1 Cor 13:3
1 Cor 13:3
Thursday, November 23, 2006
egypt
 Observant, authoritative, indulgent, moral and witty. Colors: male: green, female: turquoise Compatible Signs: Bastet, Geb Dates: July 29 - Aug 11, Oct 30 - Nov 7 Role: Goddess of war and vengeance Appearance: Lion-headed woman with the sun over her head Sacred Animal: lion Designed by CyberWarlock of Warlock's Quizzles and Quandaries |
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Friday, November 17, 2006
Thursday, November 16, 2006
sometimes
often enough, i have thought of somethings to blog about. but, somehow, when i get home and settle infront of the monitor, i don't have the urge anymore.
life have been..as it have been. ups and downs and left right center. things go along and i'm playing catch up, of sorts. trying to do what i think is right and good. dong what i can.
thank God, that i, at least, can do so. and know so.
things are fine. pretty happy with most of my life. just some parts that needs to get sorted out. to prod along and get into action and hopefully things go well and as expected..and if not..well..life goes on and will just do what i can.
lots of problems in the world to complain about. but those that i can help make better or make a change are few. but here are some which irks me much.
-air conditioners. draws energy, damage the temperarture equilibrium of our surroundings which in turn affects the climate. and make us more prone to artificial conditions and less able to withstand normal weather.
-head lights. ever been blinded by 'high' normal beam lights? the amount of cars on the roads that are doing so, seems to be increasing. momentarily blinding drivers, pedestrians and whoever in the way. it's dangerous and ridiculus. why do people do it, i really don't understand. don't these assholes know what the low and high beams are for? as a person waiting for buses everyday, i get blinded maybe 30-50 times daily. what if i go blind or my eyesight worsens because of these fuckers? damn the demon spawn who started this madness.
-general lack of civl-mindedness. people don't give seats to old people or child bearing people. people don't wait for others to alight before charging into the mrt..even though it makes their charging less cluttered. people who just spit at every corner of the street. people who just throw whatever rubbish wherever. people who drive without signalling, weren't they taught that it may cause accidents?
sad world outside. dumb like ass TV programs. nonsensical pop songs that bring retarded messages. safe avenues seems to only be books and perhaps some games.
perhaps i'm just feeling old and worn and too aged for this society.
life have been..as it have been. ups and downs and left right center. things go along and i'm playing catch up, of sorts. trying to do what i think is right and good. dong what i can.
thank God, that i, at least, can do so. and know so.
things are fine. pretty happy with most of my life. just some parts that needs to get sorted out. to prod along and get into action and hopefully things go well and as expected..and if not..well..life goes on and will just do what i can.
lots of problems in the world to complain about. but those that i can help make better or make a change are few. but here are some which irks me much.
-air conditioners. draws energy, damage the temperarture equilibrium of our surroundings which in turn affects the climate. and make us more prone to artificial conditions and less able to withstand normal weather.
-head lights. ever been blinded by 'high' normal beam lights? the amount of cars on the roads that are doing so, seems to be increasing. momentarily blinding drivers, pedestrians and whoever in the way. it's dangerous and ridiculus. why do people do it, i really don't understand. don't these assholes know what the low and high beams are for? as a person waiting for buses everyday, i get blinded maybe 30-50 times daily. what if i go blind or my eyesight worsens because of these fuckers? damn the demon spawn who started this madness.
-general lack of civl-mindedness. people don't give seats to old people or child bearing people. people don't wait for others to alight before charging into the mrt..even though it makes their charging less cluttered. people who just spit at every corner of the street. people who just throw whatever rubbish wherever. people who drive without signalling, weren't they taught that it may cause accidents?
sad world outside. dumb like ass TV programs. nonsensical pop songs that bring retarded messages. safe avenues seems to only be books and perhaps some games.
perhaps i'm just feeling old and worn and too aged for this society.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
time of my life
another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.
time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.
so make the best of this test
and don't ask why.
it's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
it's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
i hope you had the time of your life.
so take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.
hang it on a shelf
in good health and good time.
tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.
for what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.
it's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
i hope you had the time of your life.
again this time comes. thank you my love. <3
a fork stuck in the road.
time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.
so make the best of this test
and don't ask why.
it's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
it's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
i hope you had the time of your life.
so take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.
hang it on a shelf
in good health and good time.
tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.
for what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.
it's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
i hope you had the time of your life.
again this time comes. thank you my love. <3
break
been pretty long since i had some coherant post.
not that it's going to start soon..some rants.
little india. place where people like to walk on the road even though the pavements are almost empty. irritating to say the least. slow down traffic and endanger themselves.
people in general. don't care about anything except themselves. sad case. people rush to board trains and don't let people come out first. people don't signal when driving, causing inconvenience to others and potentially causing accidents. after having accident, let your freaking piece of shit stay in the middle of the road and jam the entire expressway. people in general == fucturd.
some scientist. don't give a damn about what they do when making reports. false reports. climate change. warming of our planet's atmosphere. all they care about is money lining their own pockets. so what if their grand children will die a horrible fate, if earth survives that long. so what if people just wants to sell cars and oil and pollute the world to extinction. giving reports that goes in the face of all the facts and figures..how in the world?!?! and the worst thing..? people believe them regardless of the rest of the reports floating around. 90%->global warming is a fact. 10%->there is no such thing. we are just going through a normal cycle of climate change. i would gladly twist their necks off ther heads. and feed their body to fishes.
back to local zone. no longer TM. glad in a way. pissed in a way. i have not been there all the time, that's my fault. i have not been given proper authority and been over ridden more than once, what lies people tell with straight faces. good that now i no longer handle the old kids. they cause me more increase in blood pressure than all my young kids adds up.
aas are handling things they have no freaking experience about. have no idea about and have no freaking grip on. they think they know what they are doing? go ahead.
God's grace, mercy and love. i need you, my Lord. more and more each passing hour.
not that it's going to start soon..some rants.
little india. place where people like to walk on the road even though the pavements are almost empty. irritating to say the least. slow down traffic and endanger themselves.
people in general. don't care about anything except themselves. sad case. people rush to board trains and don't let people come out first. people don't signal when driving, causing inconvenience to others and potentially causing accidents. after having accident, let your freaking piece of shit stay in the middle of the road and jam the entire expressway. people in general == fucturd.
some scientist. don't give a damn about what they do when making reports. false reports. climate change. warming of our planet's atmosphere. all they care about is money lining their own pockets. so what if their grand children will die a horrible fate, if earth survives that long. so what if people just wants to sell cars and oil and pollute the world to extinction. giving reports that goes in the face of all the facts and figures..how in the world?!?! and the worst thing..? people believe them regardless of the rest of the reports floating around. 90%->global warming is a fact. 10%->there is no such thing. we are just going through a normal cycle of climate change. i would gladly twist their necks off ther heads. and feed their body to fishes.
back to local zone. no longer TM. glad in a way. pissed in a way. i have not been there all the time, that's my fault. i have not been given proper authority and been over ridden more than once, what lies people tell with straight faces. good that now i no longer handle the old kids. they cause me more increase in blood pressure than all my young kids adds up.
aas are handling things they have no freaking experience about. have no idea about and have no freaking grip on. they think they know what they are doing? go ahead.
God's grace, mercy and love. i need you, my Lord. more and more each passing hour.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
some quiz
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
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