007 + 2000

really quite bad start to the year. rather demoralising.

but..as always. i will pick it up and go on. what else is there to be done?

be better. that's what must be done. else i'll always be in this state of inadequacy. need to get off my arse and start working on improving. so many areas in my life can be improved upon.

the blog have become quite dead, due to the fact that perhaps i am more tolerant and don't get pissed or affected by things as much or as long. so by the time i get home everything is just normal. then there's no subject matter to blog about.

life..pretty much the same.. normal. most areas lacking. improvements to be made. work to be done.

just flipped open my bible and Pslams 77 catches my eyes.

[A Psalm of Asaph.] In the day of trouble i seek the Lord
i cried unto God with my voice, [even] unto God with my voice; and he gave ear unto me.
in the day of my trouble i sought the Lord: my sore ran in the night, and ceased not: my soul refused to be comforted.
i remembered God, and was troubled: i complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed.
thou holdest mine eyes waking: i am so troubled that i cannot speak.
i have considered the days of old, the years of ancient times.
i call to remembrance my song in the night: i commune with mine own heart: and my spirit made diligent search.
will the Lord cast off for ever? and will he be favourable no more?
is his mercy clean gone for ever? doth [his] promise fail for evermore?
hath God forgotten to be gracious? hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies?
and i said, this [is] my infirmity: [but i will remember] the years of the right hand of the most High.
i will remember the works of the LORD: surely i will remember thy wonders of old.
i will meditate also of all thy work, and talk of thy doings.
thy way, O God, [is] in the sanctuary: who [is so] great a God as [our] God?
thou [art] the God that doest wonders: thou hast declared thy strength among the people.
thou hast with [thine] arm redeemed thy people, the sons of Jacob and Joseph.
the waters saw thee, O God, the waters saw thee; they were afraid: the depths also were troubled.
the clouds poured out water: the skies sent out a sound: thine arrows also went abroad.
the voice of thy thunder [was] in the heaven: the lightnings lightened the world: the earth trembled and shook.
thy way [is] in the sea, and thy path in the great waters, and thy footsteps are not known.
thou leddest thy people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron.

learning to lean on your grace and strength, O Lord. forgive us our sins, lead us from temptations and deliver us.

re-focus and keep on going at our dreams. sometimes we need to rest for the better good in the long run.

aimless post..somewhat. oh well.
for you my dear --) <3 .