a game of you

and loves dares you to change our way of
caring about ourselves.
-Queen

many times in life we are focused on what we want. what problems we are facing and what can we do. what we want to have, to eat, to do.. it's mostly about ourselves. this is not wrong. it is good in many cases.

to achieve our dreams, to be who we want to be, to do what we want to make ourselves happy. it is very important to be focused and do what we desire.

but there are also alot of instances where importance must not be self-centered, else we fail. in a team game like soccer, everyone have their roles to play. if every player wants to score and be 'great' then the team will probably suck. in a family, if every member is only focused on their own wants and could not care about what the family members need and compromise, things will get ugly very soon. in love, where if the focus is only on what a person wants or think, then things will probably breakdown soon enough.

it's difficult for us selfish beings to think for others when we have desires to be sated. when we are not satisfied and happy yet, why should we care about others? because, in the end, it will bring about what you want. we should look ahead and think about situations where putting ourselves behind others is good for us.

if everyone play their part, the whole team, family will be better off. and ourselves, being part of it, benefits.

a game of you. graphic novel by Neil Gaiman.

Jesus said unto him, thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
this is the first and great commandment.
and the second [is] like unto it, thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.[Mat 22:37-39]

love does change how we care about ourselves.

life and such

been bombarded on many sides of life at the moment.

feeling pressure on almost everything. i want to be better to be more. but i am only human. why don't i get the respite i need?

i am spent.

God. help.

hmm..=)

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		11
Acts of Service:		8
Quality Time:		8
Words of Affirmation:		2
Receiving Gifts:		1

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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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SECRET!!!

singapore's purpose of purchasing submarines..

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SECRET..!!

Law of God

the law of the LORD [is] perfect, converting the soul: the testimony of the LORD [is] sure, making wise the simple.

the statutes of the LORD [are] right, rejoicing the heart: the commandment of the LORD [is] pure, enlightening the eyes.

the fear of the LORD [is] clean, enduring for ever: the judgments of the LORD [are] true [and] righteous altogether.

more to be desired [are they] than gold, yea, than much fine gold: sweeter also than honey and the honeycomb.

moreover by them is thy servant warned: [and] in keeping of them [there is] great reward.

who can understand [his] errors? cleanse thou me from secret [faults].

keep back thy servant also from presumptuous [sins]; let them not have dominion over me: then shall i be upright, and i shall be innocent from the great transgression.

let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.

有一点动心

男：我和你　男和女　都逃不过～爱情
谁愿意　有勇气　不顾一切付出真心

女：你说的　不只你　还包括我～自己
该不该再继续　该不该有回应　让爱一步一步靠近

男：我对你有一点动心　却如此害怕看你的眼睛
有那么一点点动心　一点点迟疑　不敢相信我的情不自禁

女：我对你有一点动心　不知结果是悲伤还是喜
有那么一点点动心　一点点迟疑　害怕爱过以后还要失去

合：难以抗拒 Oh～　人最怕就是动了情
虽然　不想不看也不听　却陷入爱里

合：我和你　男和女　都逃不过爱情
也许应该放心　让爱一步步靠近
ineviatable..

refuge

psalms 18

i will love thee, O LORD, my strength.
the LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer;
my God, my strength, in whom i will trust;
my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.

peace be with you. <3

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your worst quality is	aww, nothing =)
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learning more

love.

it's not because of.

it's..
inspite of.
regardless of.
even if.

agape

could we?in our imperfection..

we can do our best and let God's grace guide us.

more and more i feel Your love. thank you with all my being.

back

and on a roll and SUPER tired..

had a great time in the cathedral the morning i came back. felt so much peace and love.=)

had a great time after that too.

had a great saturday, being with people i love and doing what i do best, i guess.

both my teams did pretty good. not as good as they can be, but pretty good.

and know that, you, yes you..makes me so proud. and happy.
you.. that so very special someone else.=)
if we can train more focusedly(sp) and put our minds into what we do, i'm very sure we can reach greater heights.

thank you all, for making me a happy man.

and now, i learn more about faith and what it means and what i can and should do. that simply made my weekend so very blessed.

lots to do, but i am willing to do. becuase i can make a difference. as long as i know my efforts and not wasted, but are valued and appreciated, i am a willing slave. to do my best for those around..spread the love. =)

seriously..faith, hope and love. and love is the greatest.

leaving..

again. on a big bus. hopefully.

i don't really like to travel. it's kind of nice to go new places and see new sights an meet new and old friends. but the time i miss back where i belong cannot be compensated. i'm a kind of stay home person..i guess.

bringing the team for a shoot. new management..how will we fare under a new captain guiding our ship? hmm..i wonder.

as i go along life, i think i learnt to let uncertainties be gone. God will guide me.

i worry also no use. i think too much also no use. leave it the my Maker.=) but that does not mean not doing my best. i do my part and leave the rest to Him.

guess i am more at peace. i have things i need to do. so do everyone.
let us be who we are and strive to be who we want to be.

starship-nothing's gonna stop us now

letting go..

is the hardest thing.

thank God for strength and love. for without i would crumble.

things we cherish and want, is hard to let go. hurts so badly. to take a cut, a step back, to stunt your own growth. it hurts..not physically, but mentally and somehow it feels bad and saddening.

but like a garden full of weeds. you need to remove some plants with the weeds, so that more flowers can grow properly. like a amputation of a infected part. if not removed, will cause the whole organism to die.

the right things are usually..not the easiest things to do.

but do them we must, if we know how.

doing it. i feel a mixture of feelings. sad. relieved. thankful. regret. angry. hopeful. scared. i know it's right, but i do have some fear in me. i know i want it to be wonderful and i must do this. it hurts and sadden me as it relieved me of stress and regret. but..for dreams of better tomorrows.

dream on. and keep faith.

faith, hope and love. and love is the greatest.

animal instinct

fear and anger.

whenever i feel threatened, or feel that things i cherish are threatened, i become fearful and paraniod. then i get angry and lash out.

it's not healthy. it's not good. need to be more rational when things become stressful.

God, i pray that you allow me strength to be better and by your grace, be wiser.

REO Speedwagon

i can't fight this feeling any longer
and yet i'm still afraid to let it flow
what started out as friendship, has grown stronger
i only wish i had the strength to let it show
i tell myself that i can't hold out forever
i said there is no reason for my fear
cause i feel so secure when we're together
you give my life direction
you make everything so clear

and even as i wander
i'm keeping you in sight
you're a candle in the window
on a cold, dark winter's night
and i'm getting closer than i ever thought i might

and i can't fight this feeling anymore
i've forgotten what i started fighting for
it's time to bring this ship into the shore
and throw away the oars, forever

cause i can't fight this feeling anymore
i've forgotten what i started fighting for
and if i have to crawl upon the floor
come crushing through your door
baby, i can't fight this feeling anymore

my life has been such a whirlwind since i saw you
i've been running round in circles in my mind
and it always seems that i'm following you, girl
cause you take me to the places that alone i'd never find

and even as i wander i'm keeping you in sight
you're a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter's night
and i'm getting closer than i ever thought i might

and i can't fight this feeling anymore
i've forgotten what i started fighting for
it's time to bring this ship into the shore
and throw away the oars, forever

cause i can't fight this feeling anymore
i've forgotten what i started fighting for
and if i have to crawl upon the floor
come crushing through your door
baby, i can't fight this feeling anymore.

<3

i am..

You are ~Story Writing~
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Bad English

sometimes i wonder
how i'd ever make it through,
through this world without having you
i just wouldn't have a clue

cause sometimes it seems
like this world's closing in on me,
and there's no way of breaking free
and then i see you reach for me

sometimes i wanna give up
i wanna give in,
i wanna quit the fight
and then i see you, baby
and everything's alright,
everything's alright

when i see you smile
i can face the world, oh oh,
you know i can do anything
when i see you smile
i see a ray of light, oh oh,
i see it shining right through the rain
when i see you smile
oh yeah, baby when i see you smile at me

baby there's nothing in this world
that could ever do
what a touch of your hand can do
it's like nothing that i ever knew

and when the rain is falling
i don't feel it,
cause you're here with me now
and one look at you baby
is all i'll ever need,
you're all i'll ever need

sometimes i wanna give up
i wanna give in,
i wanna quit the fight
and then i see you baby
and everything's alright,
everything's alright

so right...

ermm..

Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

another stolen quiz..muhahaha..!!

messy

room. heh.

now my room is messier than ever. not been cleaning up at all for like months. i mean got sweep floor and clean the desk and pack occasionally(read..almost never). but really..it's a huge mess.

some say your room represents like how messy or neat you are. i guess mine shows it pretty well. haha..whenever i am bogged down by work or whatever my room gets messier. like my mind..always churning things and not settled properly. guess not that bad, since i get things done and still enjoying life..

anyway..life's pretty normal these days. not been shooting and that's sianZ. but otherwise, i guess i am rather sated. things are just fine..doing work and all that.

new coach here, she's like awesome. teaching well, passionate and commited. role model for a coach. hope can emulate and learn from her..and be better myself.

and with new coach means, new stuff to do and more work for me. hope i get a pay raise..since my role is somewhat extended..but well..guess i'll do what i do as usual and hope for the best. sOo..far sOo..good..=)

is it beyond human to understand?

The LORD [is] my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou [art] with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

on and on..

been busy, tired and slightly sick. though days been pretty good overall.
been coaching and doing paper work, so much that i don't have much time to train. then shot quite sianly for NUSIIAC. individual, i hoped to reach certain targets..but i failed. i tried everything..but i am just too weak. physical condition much needed. team event shot just ok, but should have been better..given what my team could do the last short distance shoot. but i guess we are all busy with other stuff now and not as prepared. oh well..life goes on..

nothing much happening in my life. been pretty alright and rather happy generally. though the past weeks have been tiring. camp took up days, trying to get well from sick took days. hai. not effective.

oh well..=)

all i can do is pray and keep faith.

there's something about you now
i can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and i don't know why
i can't keep my eyes off of you
-Lifehouse

weekend?

what weekend?

almost every weekend i am packed from morning to night. from saturday morning to sunday evening. it's totally no rest. no slack.

this weekend have been particularly trying and yet amazing in some sense. been more tired the whole of last week and saturday have a small respite since one school have cancelled training. then after that things went downhill. emotions and mood. affected by minor stuff then i let it run free and spoil the night by being spiteful and insensitive. after that i pretty much couldn't sleep and so..come sunday i was beat and had to work the whole day till around 1600. did not help my mood nor my physical condition. saving grace was that things became slightly better. then at service, which was special..!!, things started to seem to come around for the better. i couldn't stay awake for the entire service. =( so i left about half way through. though i went slightly early to sit in the knave and talked to God. after i left i went home to rest. still couldn't really rest as much was on my mind and in my heart. after calling and talking..i felt so much better though still having some reservations and fear. but before i slept i prayed and i felt and know that things will be fine.

God be my shepard, i shall not want.

rant and rant. but am very glad things are better now. hope i don't do stupid things so much.

no words seem enough. nothing seem enough. to show how much i appreciate you. but all i can do is to tell you..thank you. =)