weekend?

what weekend?

almost every weekend i am packed from morning to night. from saturday morning to sunday evening. it's totally no rest. no slack.

this weekend have been particularly trying and yet amazing in some sense. been more tired the whole of last week and saturday have a small respite since one school have cancelled training. then after that things went downhill. emotions and mood. affected by minor stuff then i let it run free and spoil the night by being spiteful and insensitive. after that i pretty much couldn't sleep and so..come sunday i was beat and had to work the whole day till around 1600. did not help my mood nor my physical condition. saving grace was that things became slightly better. then at service, which was special..!!, things started to seem to come around for the better. i couldn't stay awake for the entire service. =( so i left about half way through. though i went slightly early to sit in the knave and talked to God. after i left i went home to rest. still couldn't really rest as much was on my mind and in my heart. after calling and talking..i felt so much better though still having some reservations and fear. but before i slept i prayed and i felt and know that things will be fine.

God be my shepard, i shall not want.

rant and rant. but am very glad things are better now. hope i don't do stupid things so much.

no words seem enough. nothing seem enough. to show how much i appreciate you. but all i can do is to tell you..thank you. =)