amazing Grace,
how sweet the sound,
that saved a wretch like me.
i once was lost but now am found,
was blind, but now, I see.
remembered this from my secondary school days. always liked it.=)
hearing it on bagpipes now from Braveheart soundtrack.
how sweet the sound
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Monday, May 16, 2005
changes. part deus.
decided on more changes in my life.
big change. scary. worried. sad. turn around from where my dream lies. hopefully this change will better me and prepare me better for my dream as well.
been out the whole day just slacking..thinking..wondering..pondering..realised alot of things about my world. needs some change..and i will. get out of comfort zone and get going.
Psa 5:8
Lead me, O LORD, in thy righteousness because of mine enemies; make thy way straight before my face.
not giving up my dreams..just looking at life in the face and realised there are plenty much i should be doing..so i do.
choices. we can have no perfect actions. only perfect intentions.
big change. scary. worried. sad. turn around from where my dream lies. hopefully this change will better me and prepare me better for my dream as well.
been out the whole day just slacking..thinking..wondering..pondering..realised alot of things about my world. needs some change..and i will. get out of comfort zone and get going.
Psa 5:8
Lead me, O LORD, in thy righteousness because of mine enemies; make thy way straight before my face.
not giving up my dreams..just looking at life in the face and realised there are plenty much i should be doing..so i do.
choices. we can have no perfect actions. only perfect intentions.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
i
who am i to you? all of you?
is this meant to be never-ending? feeling pain once every so often?
plans made for the rest of the year. step back in some areas, and step forward in some. hope i make the right choices. after being shoved so much, it's time i give in to some advise and listen to what i am told.
1Cr 13:13
And now abideth faith, hope and love, these three; but the greatest of these [is] love.
foolish boy
is this meant to be never-ending? feeling pain once every so often?
plans made for the rest of the year. step back in some areas, and step forward in some. hope i make the right choices. after being shoved so much, it's time i give in to some advise and listen to what i am told.
1Cr 13:13
And now abideth faith, hope and love, these three; but the greatest of these [is] love.
foolish boy
Friday, May 13, 2005
me.?
Your #1 Match: INTP |
The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor. |
Your #2 Match: INTJ |
The Scientist You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems. Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized. You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others. Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you. You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer. |
Your #3 Match: ENTP |
The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression. You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything. Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off. You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor. |
got this off a friend's blog..interesting..
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
心碎了无痕
no idea at all.
i am a simple person. please tell me what. let me know what to do.
as i wait..i am in pain. do you not s@@?
i am a simple person. please tell me what. let me know what to do.
as i wait..i am in pain. do you not s@@?
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
changes
i am very much changed.
no idea if anyone feels it? or s@@ it or knows it. but i feel much different from who i was 2 months ago.
to believe in something again. to believe and trust and let my life be guided by anything other than my mind and myself. it was weird..but now it feels so right. easy and simple. to walk with the Lord again. to look him in the face and thank him for all i have become.
used to be quite pagan. doing scryes and tarots and feeling for spirits and energies. now i lost most of what i used to be able to do. slightly off balance now. heh. but guess it's alright. used to feel the connection witht he tarot decks i used. now no feeling at all, even the familiar cards. no longer able to scrye things in meditation, in dreams. now all i get is blank when i try.. it's like putting away lots of things when i start to look at Him again. slightly weird, but understandable. though i expect to re-learn them again when i am stronger in faith. somehow i feel as if i am to know such. but then i don't know what the Lord have in store for me.
now my thought pattern is more calm and clear. less clouded by emotions and pain. less anguish..usually. hehe..still lots of zeal about injustice around me. anyway, slightly happier, slightly calmer. think better, think slower though..maybe i am just getting old..haha..
no idea why but feeling good. nothing to feel good about actually.
shooting badly.
cannot train due to injury.
not clear about short term plan now.
no idea about what's to come next for what i am concern about.
but feeling alright..so just be.
2cr 13:11
finally, brethren, farewell. be perfect, be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace; and the God of love and peace shall be with you.
'calm the storms that drench my eyes
and dry the streams still flowing
casting down all the waves of sin
and guilt that overthrow me
if i can't swim after forty days
and my mind is crushed by the crashing waves
lift me up so high that i cannot fall - lift me up'-Jars of Clay
no idea if anyone feels it? or s@@ it or knows it. but i feel much different from who i was 2 months ago.
to believe in something again. to believe and trust and let my life be guided by anything other than my mind and myself. it was weird..but now it feels so right. easy and simple. to walk with the Lord again. to look him in the face and thank him for all i have become.
used to be quite pagan. doing scryes and tarots and feeling for spirits and energies. now i lost most of what i used to be able to do. slightly off balance now. heh. but guess it's alright. used to feel the connection witht he tarot decks i used. now no feeling at all, even the familiar cards. no longer able to scrye things in meditation, in dreams. now all i get is blank when i try.. it's like putting away lots of things when i start to look at Him again. slightly weird, but understandable. though i expect to re-learn them again when i am stronger in faith. somehow i feel as if i am to know such. but then i don't know what the Lord have in store for me.
now my thought pattern is more calm and clear. less clouded by emotions and pain. less anguish..usually. hehe..still lots of zeal about injustice around me. anyway, slightly happier, slightly calmer. think better, think slower though..maybe i am just getting old..haha..
no idea why but feeling good. nothing to feel good about actually.
shooting badly.
cannot train due to injury.
not clear about short term plan now.
no idea about what's to come next for what i am concern about.
but feeling alright..so just be.
2cr 13:11
finally, brethren, farewell. be perfect, be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace; and the God of love and peace shall be with you.
'calm the storms that drench my eyes
and dry the streams still flowing
casting down all the waves of sin
and guilt that overthrow me
if i can't swim after forty days
and my mind is crushed by the crashing waves
lift me up so high that i cannot fall - lift me up'-Jars of Clay
Sunday, May 08, 2005
touched
our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
we ask ourselves, who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
actually, who are you not to be?
you are a child of god. your playing small does not serve the world.
there is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. we are all meant to shine, as children do.
we were born to make manifest the glory of god that is within us.
it is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. as we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
- a poem by Marianne Williamson, as in Coach Carter.
Be without fear in the face of your enemies.
Safeguard the helpless.
Tell the truth, even if it leads to your death;
that is your oath. Rise a knight... rise a knight!
'slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
but then if you're so smart, tell me
why are you still so afraid?
where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
you'd better cool it off before you burn it out
you've got so much to do and
only so many hours in a day
but you know that when the truth is told..
that you can get what you want or you get old
you're gonna kick off before you even
get halfway through
when will you realize, vienna waits for you?
slow down, you're doing fine
you can't be everything you want to be
before your time
although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
tonight,...
too bad but it's the life you lead
you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
though you can see when you're wrong, you know
you can't always see when you're right. you're right
you've got your passion, you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true
when will you realize, vienna waits for you?
slow down, you crazy child
and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two
when will you realize,..vienna waits for you?
and you know that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want or you can just get old
you're gonna kick off before you even get half through
why don't you realize,. vienna waits for you
when will you realize, vienna waits for you?'-Billy Joel
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
we ask ourselves, who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
actually, who are you not to be?
you are a child of god. your playing small does not serve the world.
there is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. we are all meant to shine, as children do.
we were born to make manifest the glory of god that is within us.
it is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. as we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
- a poem by Marianne Williamson, as in Coach Carter.
Be without fear in the face of your enemies.
Safeguard the helpless.
Tell the truth, even if it leads to your death;
that is your oath. Rise a knight... rise a knight!
'slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
but then if you're so smart, tell me
why are you still so afraid?
where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
you'd better cool it off before you burn it out
you've got so much to do and
only so many hours in a day
but you know that when the truth is told..
that you can get what you want or you get old
you're gonna kick off before you even
get halfway through
when will you realize, vienna waits for you?
slow down, you're doing fine
you can't be everything you want to be
before your time
although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
tonight,...
too bad but it's the life you lead
you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
though you can see when you're wrong, you know
you can't always see when you're right. you're right
you've got your passion, you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true
when will you realize, vienna waits for you?
slow down, you crazy child
and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two
when will you realize,..vienna waits for you?
and you know that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want or you can just get old
you're gonna kick off before you even get half through
why don't you realize,. vienna waits for you
when will you realize, vienna waits for you?'-Billy Joel
Thursday, May 05, 2005
what is your greatest fear?
interesting question wouldn't you say?
my greatest fear is that i am not doing things correctly, not doing enough. about myself not being good enough. not being all i am. then i am wasted. wasted my life, wasted the lord's gift.
what's your greatest fear? do you even know? it took me long thoughts for a few months to put it in words after i sorted through my thoughts and myself.
been alright..not too bad..not too good. archery camp for TP was tiring. pushed them and pushed myself. had talk with them, but how much who understood i don't know. i gave them what i thought is best. i have to better myself to bring them to better level. will revise and realign my year plan.
4.5km in 22mins..feels good. still got the chiong feeling. haha..
wish, hope, pray.
{Act 1:7}And he said unto them,
It is not for you to know the times or the seasons,
which the Father hath put in his own power.
'i'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you feel it too
waited on a line of greens and blues
just to be the next to be with you..'-Mr Big
my greatest fear is that i am not doing things correctly, not doing enough. about myself not being good enough. not being all i am. then i am wasted. wasted my life, wasted the lord's gift.
what's your greatest fear? do you even know? it took me long thoughts for a few months to put it in words after i sorted through my thoughts and myself.
been alright..not too bad..not too good. archery camp for TP was tiring. pushed them and pushed myself. had talk with them, but how much who understood i don't know. i gave them what i thought is best. i have to better myself to bring them to better level. will revise and realign my year plan.
4.5km in 22mins..feels good. still got the chiong feeling. haha..
wish, hope, pray.
{Act 1:7}And he said unto them,
It is not for you to know the times or the seasons,
which the Father hath put in his own power.
'i'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you feel it too
waited on a line of greens and blues
just to be the next to be with you..'-Mr Big
Monday, May 02, 2005
many minds, little words
alot of things on my mind now. but to put them simply, as below.
frustrated.
thankful.
proud.
grateful.
sad.
wishful.
of which are which, figure it out on your own. ask if you want though i don't promise answers.
'i look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
more and more i need you now,
i owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
i gave up not so long ago
so steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words i can't deny
watch the world i used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
i look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things i cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
i pray, i pray, i pray
take my world apart'-Jars of Clay
frustrated.
thankful.
proud.
grateful.
sad.
wishful.
of which are which, figure it out on your own. ask if you want though i don't promise answers.
'i look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
more and more i need you now,
i owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
i gave up not so long ago
so steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words i can't deny
watch the world i used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
i look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things i cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
i pray, i pray, i pray
take my world apart'-Jars of Clay
Sunday, May 01, 2005
seeking, found?
maybe i am just seeking for more reasons.
Psa 23:1
[[A Psalm of David.]] The LORD [is] my shepherd; I shall not want.
Psa 23:2
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
Psa 23:3
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Psa 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou [art] with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Psa 23:5
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Psa 23:6
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
my favorite prayer.
the lord is my shepard, i shall not want.
he have given me all i need. i shall not want more.
do i believe? or is it just cause of her?
still some things i want to know. know them i shall. i fear not what may come.
yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil: for thou art with me.
Psa 23:1
[[A Psalm of David.]] The LORD [is] my shepherd; I shall not want.
Psa 23:2
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
Psa 23:3
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Psa 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou [art] with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Psa 23:5
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Psa 23:6
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
my favorite prayer.
the lord is my shepard, i shall not want.
he have given me all i need. i shall not want more.
do i believe? or is it just cause of her?
still some things i want to know. know them i shall. i fear not what may come.
yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil: for thou art with me.
Friday, April 29, 2005
take 2
first read, for a second time.
revalations 22:13
I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last.
read this many many years ago and started using 'a&o' as my handle on some places. now it becomes my first page.
curiously strangely coincidental.
question of who am i? from it stems many other questions which i feel are important. itself stems from another question of, what are we to be?
broke down and cried. lost. feeling heartache again. once again i am alright. will carry on my life. feels that i want something more.though i am afraid, will let what comes, come. face it and face myself.
i want it so much. it is so beautiful. but i will not live a lie. i will face myself, my fears and maybe god. though i wish, i will not lie, cheat nor bluff. with intentions the actions must tally, or all is naught.
straight and narrow? so be it.
revalations 22:13
I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last.
read this many many years ago and started using 'a&o' as my handle on some places. now it becomes my first page.
curiously strangely coincidental.
question of who am i? from it stems many other questions which i feel are important. itself stems from another question of, what are we to be?
broke down and cried. lost. feeling heartache again. once again i am alright. will carry on my life. feels that i want something more.though i am afraid, will let what comes, come. face it and face myself.
i want it so much. it is so beautiful. but i will not live a lie. i will face myself, my fears and maybe god. though i wish, i will not lie, cheat nor bluff. with intentions the actions must tally, or all is naught.
straight and narrow? so be it.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
strange
could be out of race for SEA games. strangely, i am not very sad or pissed or disappointed. guess i know i did my best and still am. no regrets and still fighting. been like this and will be i guess. down but never out, till i decide to quit.
many thanks for Daryl. talked to me about some stuff and make me more comfortable and more confident. friends are such, there for each other. =) thanks dude..
life's been..good. happier these days. those who knows, knows. those who don't..well too bad. s@@ how it goes. really really unexpected. and really really happy. it's the kind of feeling that completes your day. weird. strange. happy. hoping. wishing.
life, have many unexpected turns. for bad or good..until the fat lady sings.
'cause sometimes it seems
like this world's closing in on me,
and there's no way of breaking free
and then i see you reach for me
sometimes i wanna give up
i wanna give in,
i wanna quit the fight
and then i see you, baby
and everything's alright, everything's alright..'-Bad English
many thanks for Daryl. talked to me about some stuff and make me more comfortable and more confident. friends are such, there for each other. =) thanks dude..
life's been..good. happier these days. those who knows, knows. those who don't..well too bad. s@@ how it goes. really really unexpected. and really really happy. it's the kind of feeling that completes your day. weird. strange. happy. hoping. wishing.
life, have many unexpected turns. for bad or good..until the fat lady sings.
'cause sometimes it seems
like this world's closing in on me,
and there's no way of breaking free
and then i see you reach for me
sometimes i wanna give up
i wanna give in,
i wanna quit the fight
and then i see you, baby
and everything's alright, everything's alright..'-Bad English
Saturday, April 23, 2005
more..
more complicated now..missing someone..
abit more confused now..wondering what's right..
somewhat more past my past now..things are still there as facts, but affects me little..
more is good? hmm..
still feeling shucks at shooting..still trying..still fighting..
when you believe in an ideal, you become something else.
abit more confused now..wondering what's right..
somewhat more past my past now..things are still there as facts, but affects me little..
more is good? hmm..
still feeling shucks at shooting..still trying..still fighting..
when you believe in an ideal, you become something else.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
cry
i can be so many things to so many people.
help them up, push them on..give them hope and let them fly. teach them to love themself and be their best. be there for them and let them crash..be their pillar and their support.
who will be here to help me? who will i let in?
i don't trust much anymore. broken things don't mend. not the way they used to be anymore.
broken..beyond repair.
am i enough? good enough? strong enough? after losing so much faith and trust..will i be enough for my last dream? do i even live the dream? or simply living day by day?
cannot even trust myself..what's worse?
help them up, push them on..give them hope and let them fly. teach them to love themself and be their best. be there for them and let them crash..be their pillar and their support.
who will be here to help me? who will i let in?
i don't trust much anymore. broken things don't mend. not the way they used to be anymore.
broken..beyond repair.
am i enough? good enough? strong enough? after losing so much faith and trust..will i be enough for my last dream? do i even live the dream? or simply living day by day?
cannot even trust myself..what's worse?
simply
life now is simply fucked up.
feeling down and out. it's probably just a phase that will last a few days. been so bloody tired. trying to meet all the commitments. everyday chiong and chiong. all seems for nothing. quite pissed with things. fed-up and sick of fighting.
but tomorrow, i'll be at the range..shooting..trying hard. fool..i am.
so sian..so pissed..so tired..no mood..angry..sad..in pain..anguish..
all i ask for is a chance. for that chance..i am now giving my life.
feeling down and out. it's probably just a phase that will last a few days. been so bloody tired. trying to meet all the commitments. everyday chiong and chiong. all seems for nothing. quite pissed with things. fed-up and sick of fighting.
but tomorrow, i'll be at the range..shooting..trying hard. fool..i am.
so sian..so pissed..so tired..no mood..angry..sad..in pain..anguish..
all i ask for is a chance. for that chance..i am now giving my life.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
somewhat
days been normal.
pretty same same. somewhat sianZ, somewhat ok.
shooting been getting back to normal levels. 1100s. tuning and stuff. arrows now too soft even with my sianed low poundage. from 48 drop to 46, then reduce to 44 and now about 42-43. and arrows still too soft. i miss the days when my bare shaft can shoot 90m and 70m easily. shucks. no money to get new arrows. *ka-chings*already abit in the red already. just make do and do me bestest i suppose..
should be going Korea in May for training. looking forward to it. hope it can help me improve, away from this noobie level of 1100s.
lots of thoughts about what's to come. lots of wishes that i don't really dare to dream anymore. been quite sad actually, about dreams. of all my dreams that are the life fulfilling kind, none are acomplished, and only one left. trudge on..painfully.
i wish, i dream, i hope.. ..
'from a distance, you look like my friend
even though we are at war..
from a distance i cannot comprehend
what all the fighting is for..
from a distance there is harmony
and it echoes through the land..
it's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves..
it's the heart of every man..'-Bette Midler
pretty same same. somewhat sianZ, somewhat ok.
shooting been getting back to normal levels. 1100s. tuning and stuff. arrows now too soft even with my sianed low poundage. from 48 drop to 46, then reduce to 44 and now about 42-43. and arrows still too soft. i miss the days when my bare shaft can shoot 90m and 70m easily. shucks. no money to get new arrows. *ka-chings*already abit in the red already. just make do and do me bestest i suppose..
should be going Korea in May for training. looking forward to it. hope it can help me improve, away from this noobie level of 1100s.
lots of thoughts about what's to come. lots of wishes that i don't really dare to dream anymore. been quite sad actually, about dreams. of all my dreams that are the life fulfilling kind, none are acomplished, and only one left. trudge on..painfully.
i wish, i dream, i hope.. ..
'from a distance, you look like my friend
even though we are at war..
from a distance i cannot comprehend
what all the fighting is for..
from a distance there is harmony
and it echoes through the land..
it's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves..
it's the heart of every man..'-Bette Midler
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
what else?
now idea what is happening to my life.
been pretty sedated. shoot, train, coach..nothing much. trying hard to acheive, but losing steam. guess will have to do some introspection about myself.
guess i am wishing for something more..more interesting? more out of ordinary? to kick me in the head and wake me up? wishing for something to lift me up and soar? not really sure..just feels as if some thing missing in life these days..though things are fine and improving..
so many things to do so little time. but it's ok since i am doing things and doing them alright. just doing what i can. just hope i can do better. i know i can, just something not right. hai..
Archery - Sport/activity where the laws of physics, logic and commonsense have little application.
been pretty sedated. shoot, train, coach..nothing much. trying hard to acheive, but losing steam. guess will have to do some introspection about myself.
guess i am wishing for something more..more interesting? more out of ordinary? to kick me in the head and wake me up? wishing for something to lift me up and soar? not really sure..just feels as if some thing missing in life these days..though things are fine and improving..
so many things to do so little time. but it's ok since i am doing things and doing them alright. just doing what i can. just hope i can do better. i know i can, just something not right. hai..
Archery - Sport/activity where the laws of physics, logic and commonsense have little application.
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
help?
don't know what i am doing right. or wrong.
old problems cope up again. new ones appear. why? stronger now. feel that form is alright. why can't i just shoot better. been at this score for years!!!
know that my attitude towards improving was not good. changed that. now i work hard. train hard. stronger, shoot more, more stable. but why am i not performing? can someone tell me?
what would i say to my student? i would fix the fucking problem. look for things to fix and fix it. given the amount of time i train and attention i pay to my shooting, it should be fixable. but why is it not? what's wrong?
feel like just give it up. i can coach well. i can make others shoot well. damn it!
help.
old problems cope up again. new ones appear. why? stronger now. feel that form is alright. why can't i just shoot better. been at this score for years!!!
know that my attitude towards improving was not good. changed that. now i work hard. train hard. stronger, shoot more, more stable. but why am i not performing? can someone tell me?
what would i say to my student? i would fix the fucking problem. look for things to fix and fix it. given the amount of time i train and attention i pay to my shooting, it should be fixable. but why is it not? what's wrong?
feel like just give it up. i can coach well. i can make others shoot well. damn it!
help.
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