boy

i feel much like a helpless little boy. i cannot get what i want. sometimes i don't even know what i want. all i know is that it's close yet far and here yet absent.

i want something more than this. i want to able to do what i want and do them well. been trying so hard but all seems too far away still. the journey have been enriching and i have become something i want yet not my top priority..

the future scares me. i don't want to lose anything but yet if i keep holding what i have, i'll never have what i want to have. growing can be painful. and i have to grow to reach the future i want.

i need support from those around me and need those around me to understand it's not easy for me. everyone is different and this thing is not easy for me.

i want to be able to find what's best for the situation and i think i may have think too much. oh well. figure it out.

a little bit
under pressure
it's the terror of knowing
what this world is about
watching some good friends
screaming let me out!
pray tomorrow takes me high high higher
pressure on people
people on streets

turned away from it all
like a blind man
sat on a fence but it don't work
keep coming up with love
but it's so slashed and torn
why why why?

(love, love, love, love)

insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking
can't we give ourselves one more chance?
why can't we give love that one more chance?
why can't we give love give love give love?
give love give love give love give love give love give love?
cause love's such an old fashioned lie
and love dares you to care
for the people on the edge of the night
and love dares you to change our way
of caring about ourselves
this is our last dance
this is our last dance
this is ourselves

under pressure
-Queen