Saturday, April 19, 2008

the mexican

Look, when two people love each other, totally, truthfully, all the way love each other, the answer to that questionis simple, especially in your case. When do you get to that point where enough is enough?

Never.

Never.

i keep thinking about this few lines in this show i watch many years ago.

i am boy and a man. both stupid and a jerk.

would i feel hurt if the roles are reversed? yes. all this while, all these things, all these nonsense..would i still believe? i cannot truthfully answer, i am not under the same stress and position. i think i will still believe. i think. why? i never want to give up. perhaps i am stupid. or just saying cause it's easy to say. i don't know..really. i believe i would carry on.

i am lost. i don't really know myself. i want to do this and want to do that. what is more important? i never think. i just did as things came along.

regrets?yes.
pain?yes.
anything i can do now?no. all in God's hand.

sorry doesn't cut it. but it's all i have now. sorry.

i beg for anothing chance. forgive me. once more. one last chance.
i miss you..dear. <3

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

space

for rant.

that's what this blog start out as and now it shall be again.

i love how the french wants to outlaw some stuff.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080415/ap_on_he_me/france_anorexia;_ylt=AlEdFnpacw_av4Hf5oUjbH2s0NUE

so..tibet is slowly starting to fade from world view..slowly.
there are human-rights abuses almost everywhere. why did tibet suddenly become a hot topic? the exile-government. political hounds or chameleon.
IF the west are so concerned, why don't they start doing something about US and the self-admited torture of prisoners? what about the abuse in Saudi, that's been going on for so many years?
politics and money. nothing's new i guess. same old rot-gut world.

not much new in my life. coaching, trying to shoot. trying to save up to study. getting tired and feeling old. nothing new here too..

move along.. ..

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Earth in crisis

http://www.physorg.com/news126761406.html

and of course there are some who value money more than anything else in the world, who tries to mislead policy makers and governments about it.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

emotions

just feels..tired, moody, angry, depressed, listless, aimless, dejected.. .. ..

don't know why. wound up too tight? tired?

seems like whatever i do is so pointless. i cannot do anything well. don't know what's to come. cannot help anything.

sad and feeling lonely.

Thursday, March 06, 2008

me.

The Portait of the Counselor (INFJ)

The Counselor Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and enterprising and attentive in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people.

Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known a Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.

Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another's emotions or intentions -- good or evil -- even before that person is conscious of them. This "mind-reading" can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others' feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance.
-http://keirsey.com

Introverted iNtuiting Feeling Judging
by Marina Margaret Heiss

INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.

INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates." While instinctively courting the personal and organizational demands continually made upon them by others, at intervals INFJs will suddenly withdraw into themselves, sometimes shutting out even their intimates. This apparent paradox is a necessary escape valve for them, providing both time to rebuild their depleted resources and a filter to prevent the emotional overload to which they are so susceptible as inherent "givers." As a pattern of behavior, it is perhaps the most confusing aspect of the enigmatic INFJ character to outsiders, and hence the most often misunderstood -- particularly by those who have little experience with this rare type.

Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).

This empathy can serve as a classic example of the two-edged nature of certain INFJ talents, as it can be strong enough to cause discomfort or pain in negative or stressful situations. More explicit inner conflicts are also not uncommon in INFJs; it is possible to speculate that the causes for some of these may lie in the specific combinations of preferences which define this complex type. For instance, there can sometimes be a "tug-of-war" between NF vision and idealism and the J practicality that urges compromise for the sake of achieving the highest priority goals. And the I and J combination, while perhaps enhancing self-awareness, may make it difficult for INFJs to articulate their deepest and most convoluted feelings.

Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. Since in addition they often possess a strong personal charisma, INFJs are generally well-suited to the "inspirational" professions such as teaching (especially in higher education) and religious leadership. Psychology and counseling are other obvious choices, but overall, INFJs can be exceptionally difficult to pigeonhole by their career paths. Perhaps the best example of this occurs in the technical fields. Many INFJs perceive themselves at a disadvantage when dealing with the mystique and formality of "hard logic", and in academic terms this may cause a tendency to gravitate towards the liberal arts rather than the sciences. However, the significant minority of INFJs who do pursue studies and careers in the latter areas tend to be as successful as their T counterparts, as it is *iNtuition* -- the dominant function for the INFJ type -- which governs the ability to understand abstract theory and implement it creatively.

In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology. Their systems may for these reasons be conceptually "blurrier" than analogous NT ones, harder to measure in strict numerical terms, and easier to take for granted -- yet it is these same underlying reasons which make the resulting contributions to society so vital and profound.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

choice

living just by our intuition would be difficult, and even dangerous -- our intuition can be wrong. for example, if you approach a lion's cage at the zoo, you may make an intuitive judgment about the lion on the other side of the glass. perhaps you noticed something about the lion's demeanor that puts you at ease. the intuition that he's a friendly lion, coupled with the urge to pet him because he's fluffy, may lead you to climb into the cage -- despite everything you've ever cognitively learned about the ferocity and danger of lions. as the lion devoured you, you would learn that your intuition led you astray.

the converse is also true, however. living a life based only on rational, deliberate examination is no better than living by intuition alone. locking eyes with a total stranger across a crowded room and feeling a jolt of emotion is highly irrational. you've never spoken to this person and know absolutely nothing about him beyond his superficial appearance. depending only on your rational mind, you may allow the moment to pass and miss the opportunity to meet the person you could have spent the rest of your life with.

so when should you rely on your intuition? when it comes to approaching a lion's cage, swearing at work or encountering the love of your life, how do you know when intuition can serve you best? only your intuition can tell you that.
-HowStuffWorks

Sunday, February 17, 2008

MPAA

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-559517494445537267&q=this+film+is+not+yet+rated&total=214&start=0&num=10&so=0&type=search&plindex=0

*the link is to a movie about the MPAA and it's rating system. IT'S NOT SAFE FOR WORK. it have sexual explicit scenes. Watch it at your own discretion.

certainly quite revealing about who controls american culture to some extend.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

broadway..oh yeah!

Teen boy: Mom, are you sure that woman isn't the same as the one in Phantom of the Opera?
Mom: I'm sure. It's a different actress.
Teen boy: Because it's that same loud-ass style of singing.
Mom: Broadway singing.
Teen boy: Yeah. Really loud-ass singing. I wonder where the school is for that.

--Tarzan intermission

Saturday, February 09, 2008

heh.

Distraught girl: Is there an 'I' in 'relationship'?
Guy: [Silence.]
Distraught girl: Well, is there?!
Guy: Um... There's two, actually...
Distraught girl: God... You're so selfish! You just don't understand me.!

Friday, February 01, 2008

let us see..

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
A.

2) What was your dream growing up?
A.

3) What talent do you wish you had?
A.

4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
A.

5) Favorite vegetable?
A.

6) What was the last book you read?
A.

7) What zodiac sign are you?
A.

8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
A.

9) Worst Habit?
A.

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A.

11) What is your favorite sport?
A.

12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
A.

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
A.

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A.

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
A.

16) Do you have any pets?
A.

17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
A.

18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)
A.

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A.

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
A.

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A.

22) What color eyes do you have?
A.

23) Ever been arrested?
A.

24) Bottle or can soda?
A.

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
A.

27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
A.

28) Do you believe in ghosts?
A.

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
A.

30) Do you swear a lot?
A.

31) Biggest pet peeve?
A.

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
A.

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
A.

35) Do you believe in God?
A.

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
A.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Stephen Hawkins.

10. "Einstein was wrong when he said "God does not play dice". Consideration of black holes suggests, not only that God does play dice, but that He sometimes confuses us by throwing them where they can't be seen."

9. "I have noticed even people who claim everything is predestined, and that we can do nothing to change it, look before they cross the road."

8. "My goal is simple. It is a complete understanding of the universe, why it is as it is and why it exists at all."

7. "I find that American & Scandinavian accents work better with women." In response to a question about the American accent of his synthesiser.

6. "Someone told me that each equation I included in the book would halve the sales. In the end, however, I did put in one equation, Einstein's famous equation, E = mc2. I hope that this will not scare off half of my potential readers."

5. "My expectations were reduced to zero when I was 21. Everything since then has been a bonus."

4. "To show this diagram properly, I would really need a four dimensional screen. However, because of government cuts, we could manage to provide only a two dimensional screen."

3. "Life would be tragic if it weren't funny."

2. "The whole history of science has been the gradual realization that events do not happen in an arbitrary manner, but that they reflect a certain underlying order, which may or may not be divinely inspired."

1. "Eternity is a very long time, especially towards the end."

considered to be one of the most intelligent person alive at the moment. his life is an inspiration to live life and fight no matter your circumstances. to contribute in whatever ways you can to the world as a whole.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

under my skin

i've got you under my skin
i've got you deep in the heart of me
so deep in my heart, that you're really a part of me
i've got you under my skin

i've tried so not to give in
i've said to myself this affair never will go so well
but why should I try to resist, when baby will i know than well
that i've got you under my skin

i'd sacrifice anything come what might
for the sake of having you near
in spite of a warning voice that comes in the night
and repeats, repeats in my ear

don't you know you fool, you never can win
use your mentality, wake up to reality
but each time i do, just the thought of you
makes me stop before I begin
cause i've got you under my skin
-Frank Sinatra

Saturday, January 05, 2008

wind of change

i follow the Moskva
down to Gorky Park
listening to the wind of change
an august summer night
soldiers passing by
listening to the wind of change

the world is closing in
did you ever think
that we could be so close, like brothers
the future's in the air
i can feel it everywhere
blowing with the wind of change

take me to the magic of the moment
on a glory night
where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change

walking down the street
distant memories
are buried in the past forever
i follow the Moskva
down to Gorky Park
listening to the wind of change

take me to the magic of the moment
on a glory night
where the children of tomorrow share their dreams
with you and me
take me to the magic of the moment
on a glory night
where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change

the wind of change
blows straight into the face of time
like a stormwind that will ring the freedom bell
for peace of mind
let your balalaika sing
what my guitar wants to say

take me to the magic of the moment
on a glory night
where the children of tomorrow share their dreams
with you and me
take me to the magic of the moment
on a glory night
where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change
-Scorpions

new things in the mill. apprehensive. worried. but one does have to get out into the uncomfortable to grow.

one way to get the most out of life isto look upon it as an adventure.
-William Feather

let's go.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

hmm..

The Five Love Languages
Your primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.


Complete set of results
Quality Time: 10
Physical Touch: 8
Acts of Service: 6
Words of Affirmation: 6
Receiving Gifts: 0

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

come!

be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better man.
-Benjamin Franklin

Saturday, December 29, 2007

光輝歲月

鐘聲響起歸家的訊號 在他生命裡
彷彿帶點唏噓 黑色肌膚給他的意義
是一生奉獻 膚色鬥爭中

年月把擁有變做失去
疲倦的雙眼帶著期望

今天只有殘留的驅殼 迎接光輝歲月
風雨中抱緊自由 一生經過徬徨的掙扎
自信可改變未來 問誰有能做到

可否不分膚色的界限 願這土地裡
不分你我高低 繽紛色彩閃出的美麗
是因它沒有 分開每種色彩
- BEYOND

Thursday, December 13, 2007

dream on.

if you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. now put the foundations under them.
-Henry David Thoreau

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Friday, November 09, 2007

another.

don't really know what to think about things.

life is pretty good. looking up and getting somewhere it seems. not really bothered by anything, just normal.

nothing really changed. just another day passed, spent with good company. good food, friends and music. relaxing day and did what i enjoyed. what more could i ask for? =)
thank you, my dear. <3.
i know what matters to me. perhaps too early. it makes me lack the drive to live in this mordern society. oh well, we'll see how things goes. life still goe on and it's not like i'm unable or blind or that stupid. heh..hope not.

many issues surrounding our lives everyday. some big and personal. others distant and yet disturbs us. we all can be better persons. let's hope that everyone realises this and make the effort to be better to those they love, at least.

God's Grace. life is indeed better now.