fuck my life

i cringe when people use this phrase. it's seemingly inane. things will pass and everything won't be much different. usually.

i say..fuck my life.

can't sleep. studies plan screwed up. monitor down. money all not coming in yet. lousy piece of shit of an association in singapore. lousy piece of shit at home rotting. friends all gooing somewhere and i'm still here. rotting. fuck. my. life.

i don't even feel like crying. i just want to lay down and die. fuckgetit. this is too much bad shit. what is it worth?

zen

without accepting the fact that everything changes, we cannot find perfect composure. but unfortunately, although it is true, it is difficult for us to accept it. because we cannot accept the truth of transience, we suffer.
-Shunryu Suzuki

note to God

if i wrote a note to God
i would speak what's in my soul
i'd ask for all the hate to be swept away
for love to overflow

if i wrote a note to God
i'd pour my heart out on each page
i'd ask for war to end
and for peace to mend this world

i'd say
i'd say
i'd say

give us the strength to make it through
help us find love, cause love is overdue
and it seems like so much is going wrong
on this road we're on

if i wrote a note to God
i'd say please help us find a way
end all the bitterness, put some tenderness
in our hearts

i'd say
i'd say
i'd say

give us the strength to make it through
help us find love, cause love is overdue
and it looks like we haven't got a clue
need some help from you

grant us the faith to carry on
give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
cause it seems like so much is going wrong
on this road we're on

no
no

We can't do it on our own

so
so

(give us the strength to make it through
help us find love, cause love is overdue)
and it looks like we haven't got a clue
need some help

grant us the faith to carry on
hope when it seems all hope is gone
cause it seems like so much is going wrong
on this road we're on

no
no
(no)we can't do it on our own

(so)
so

if i wrote a note to God
-Charice